Axelu 3691 Popular Post Share Posted June 30, 2020 MY STORY As an avid cultivator of rp posts, posting something like this is extremely unconventional on my behalf. It’s difficult to process one’s past and set it down on a document, or even paper; oftentimes, by doing so, we make it real - and reality can really be a hard pill to swallow. Nevertheless, particularly through these trying times, I find articulating my thoughts extremely necessary. While most may be aware, and some may not, there was a particularly huge fiasco which encompassed my friend group in regards to a set of messages that were released to the public by a friend of mine - a fifteen year-old girl who’s made mistakes, gaslighted by another three years older than her, and is currently in a successful bout of maturation. While I haven’t spoken to this former player in over a month now, I’ve learned that she’s endeavoring to grow and be better. With that said, she and I are very different people; at one point, we were barely amicable and more-so acquaintances. Regardless, in light of our barely-there age difference and mutual experience of being subject to manipulation, we recently became closer friends and I’m ever thankful for that, even if we haven’t spoken in some time. While I cannot speak personally for my friend, we both engaged in flirtations with the aforementioned person in very difficult and confusing periods of our life. At that point, it had been a year since I was sexually assaulted, with a dear relative of mine passing a month afterward (that November 1st of 2018). To make matters more incomprehensible, my parents' dwindling relationship finally came to an end when he requested their divorce in late December, barely after she endured the death of her mother. They finalized it a month later and in the fall of 2019, I came out to my parents with much hesitance. My mother received the news well enough, and with some anticipated fear (now, she and I are closer than ever and I’m so appreciative of the bond I have with her). My father, meanwhile, was less receptive... but I’m not here to go off on that tangent. Later that year, I was struggling myself with an abundance of insecurities and consequently fell into a steep pit of mineman obsession. I prided myself on my accomplishments in game because however fleeting as they were, they felt the most tangible. I began to distance myself from real life friends and refused to have my picture taken unless it was orchestrated by my own hand. My friend group then, server wise, was close and to this day, I’m particularly close with a few (ivory, eryane). Of the others, I admire marinaemily who, despite our occasional quarrel, is objectively a pillar of resilience and grit. Still, in that group chat, I felt almost suffocated on occasion. In our conversations with the others within that chat, an atmosphere of superiority existed that required tearing down other girls on the server. I grew apart from others, some of which had my back. In retrospect, that behavior was the epitome of irrationality and immaturity and I’m brazenly apologetic for the instances in which I encouraged it. At the end of the day, I’m only a kid and I am on a passage of growth and learning just like every other living person on this planet. My nondescript friend, around the time of the re-emergence of the Holy Orenian Empire irp, began relations with the person which, to my knowledge, lasted into December of 2019. During that time, she was led down a particularly wrong path by a 17 yr old boy on the server (a guy who, to the knowledge of most, was over 20). According to him, he was 13 when he joined the server and believed he wouldn’t be respected for his age. They exchanged very intimate messages that were released by the girl herself out of remorse for their past actions, and those afflicted by them. He ended the relationship prior to his eighteenth birthday though, briskly, began talking to me. While my relationship with him was mostly friendly, I - in eventually - reciprocated short-lived affections. In short, it didn’t last past the distribution of his incriminating messages with my friend and inevitable ban. Last I heard of him from several months ago, he was due to enlist in the army and in the process of making strides to, too, better himself as a human being and repent and move forward. While he hurt many people and he’s fortunately out of my life, every human being with an ounce of repentance in them owes themself the chance to rebrand and move forward. What spurred me to speak out today was not a spontaneous inclination to do so. Instead, people who have been using the situation to fuel a spiteful campaign against me did. Today, I received a message from a newer player that I’ve known for around 5 years now, and who’s like a little sister to me, that others were encouraging her to not be in my company because I “flirted with and dated a pedophile.” Ideally, I wouldn’t be bothered by it; I know my truth which is veritable. It became a problem when my experience became cannon fodder for a wearisome vendetta against myself and my friendships. I implore everyone reading this to stop perpetuating resentment, hate, and slanderous information teeming of falsehood against others. We’re living in an era of discovery, and not all of it is euphoric or beneficial like the creation of a vaccine (still waiting on this one) or a new game being released to the public: POC are being targeted, killed, and dehumanized even today – the twenty first century; LGBTQ+ people are still being marginalized and brutalized in the Eastern World, and even in the Western world. Let’s open our eyes. We have this vast platform, facetious as it is, that most of us utilize it as a channel and outlet to escape our toils in the contemporary world. In lieu of bringing those same issues here, we can vie to solve them.Regardless if you associate yourselves with Orenians, the elves, Korvassa and Sutica - even magic and banditry - we are one community reveling in what this server has to offer. We’re all constantly growing and we’re not the same people we were even yesterday. No one should feel distressed by opening discord, or their game – I think we all can agree on that. Share your own stories if you’d like below, or share the love you have for your fellow players. Without hesitance, I’m sending much love. Signed, axel 31 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Eryane 3629 Share Posted June 30, 2020 To speak out is incredibly difficult for anyone, and you know how proud I am of you. I can’t say it enough. Never blame yourself for the manipulation of others, especially when you were and still are just a kid, because you are a great and loving person with one of the biggest hearts. 4 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
libertyybelle 5463 Share Posted June 30, 2020 You are amazing. I love you so much and I am so proud of everything you do! 4 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ivoreyy 2179 Share Posted June 30, 2020 I love u Archie, and I'm so proud of you. It was a really bad situation, all around – but what's important is that everyone has grown and learnt from it. 2 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zacho 1710 Share Posted June 30, 2020 everyone just needs to remember to chillax, see others views, and remember that this server is a mineman server. We are all people here regardless of our views, color, sexual orientation, etc. Often times people forget that exact thing and it turns into the part on this post where you mentioned being harassed. Regardless its a great post and surely I cannot support this post any more avidly. : ) 4 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
osumanduas 1436 Share Posted June 30, 2020 (edited) People on the internet can be cruel and ******* twisted. Yet despite that you’ve always been very cordial and understanding, the complete opposite in every instance I can remember. You’ll always have my respect. You’re an outstanding person; thank you for speaking out and telling your story. Edited June 30, 2020 by methuselahs 3 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
venclair 688 Share Posted June 30, 2020 I love you so much, Archie, and I want you to know that I will always love you. I am always here for you and I’m so proud of you. Throughout these years I’ve never stopped doing so. I hold you close to my heart. 4 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
manicfairy 177 Share Posted June 30, 2020 I know we don’t talk everyday but I am extremely proud and happy for you. You’ve made it far, we all have on this server. 2020 truly is a year of reflection. 3 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Proddy 2147 Share Posted June 30, 2020 I’m proud of you for having the courage to come out and being able to speak publicly and very candidly about all of this. Were I in the same shoes, I daresay I wouldn’t posses half the bravery that you do. For what it’s worth; I don’t think and have never thought you were ever a bad person. We’re all human and do things we come to regret, it’s about how we recognise these mistakes and we grow as a person from them. I think this is the never-ending challenge of life and morality. You come across a hurdle in the road and it takes a real strong human being with true conviction to consider how they’ll overcome it, not about how high it is or how impossible it is to face up to the challenge. I’ve faced my own challenges and tribulations in the past several years that I still deal with even to this day; former drug addiction, an estrangement from my family and mental health conditions such as depression and anxiety. I think it’s easy to become so deeply engrossed into this mineman world we’ve created for ourselves during hard times because unlike reality, it’s a ‘perfect’ utopia. Unlike reality we can shape how this world changes and what happens within it. It makes you lose a lot of the perspective of what’s really important in life. Keep on keeping on. 3 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
rukio 8908 Share Posted June 30, 2020 My DMs are always open if you need some1 to listen to you axelu. Love u. 3 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
LithiumSedai 4823 Share Posted June 30, 2020 Never forget that you’re a great person, strong and kind, and you’ve always been a good friend to me throughout our intertwined RP scenarios. You are loved! 2 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheCapybara 1760 Share Posted June 30, 2020 I know I might not have talked to you a lot and I do not really know you well but. Doing something like this is very brave and admiring! Indeed to say so this action! Is very brave! Keep fighting off those haters and stay strong! 2 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
MeteorDragon 2705 Share Posted July 1, 2020 Sadly, people tend to look at only one side of the story. It’s something many have fallen victim to, and Im sorry to hear the same happened for you. Sometimes people just dont care to hear another argument for fear of their ideas being crumbled to the ground. Though, we should all seek to better ourselves by seeking knowledge from both sides. I speak from personal experience about this. It’s a terrible thing and I implore you all to think about this. Though, on a brighter side of things, I was once brought happiness by the folk on LOTC through finding someone to date that helped me through a hard period in my life. Myself and this person aren’t together anymore, but I wont speak any more on that. I hope that everyone can try to make friends with their fellow minemen. Have a good day 1 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
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