Part 1      I’m laying in my bed utterly still. Darkness surrounds me, and to those pressing their ears against my bedroom door, to those peeking inside, they will hear nothing, and they will see nothing.   But I can hear everything.   I can see everything.   I can feel everything.   My heart pounds inside my chest, creating a rhythmic metronome to remind myself that I am still alive. It pumps its life giving ichor through my veins, a