Vanessa never thought she would be begging to die.    What went wrong? Walking through the house, so small it could barely accommodate all her children, she braided the branch of white flowers. - With each turn of it, the woman reconsidered one of her many mistakes.     Fear. Upon seeing the bodies of her own parents, something has changed, she discovered the meaning of fear, the fear of losing someone.  Most of her days became gray, but never a word was spoken