Neviah

An Explanation

So, to start this off I want to say: this is not a hate post, not a rant post (okay maybe a little bit), I dunno just - nothing like that. I mean to offend absolutely nobody this is to be read in a lighthearted and wholly honest tone, apologies in advance if I somehow do.

Community Team

Now, Rose, what in the **** did you do to get removed from CT in less than a month? Absolutely nothing. I'm not sure if Hogo wants this to get out, but, CT is undergoing reforms - I've already said it publicly in friend broadcast, might as well say it here (Sorry Hogo). I'm really happy that reforms are going on, I think that it's great that changes that are needed will finally take place - and I think the plan Hogo has for it is a good plan. However, being removed has taken a bit of a toll on me mentally. Now, when I say this; it's not that it's on my mind 24/7 and I'm seething about being removed from the team, it's simply that whenever I look at LotC nowadays, it makes me physically feel like shit because I've lost all motivation to play the game. It's kind of like giving a toddler candy and immediately swiping it away from them just to see their hopes of enjoying something great crash and burn. That's just how I feel on the matter, I feel extremely lost.

I've thought about joining another team, those being MT and ET. The things that stopped me:

ET

• The hoard of applications to story
• Not being sure if I'd thrive there like I did with CT
• Not being sure if I'd truly like the job

MT

• Not being sure if they're accepting

And both having a similar reason of: no motivation. Either way, Hogo is a great guy - and one of my best friends, I hold absolutely nothing against him for doing his job. Simple as. 

Motivation

A huge problem that I keep running into with LOTC is that the main reason I'm playing is to create a narrative, this is not the case for most of the server. Everytime I turn around there is some person trying to be a protagonist or just playing to win - and there's nothing wrong with that, do whatever makes you happy, do whatever makes you have fun (except shady shit). In fact, one of the only times I played LotC for a narrative is when I was doing Karkosa events with AlmightySaucer. Huge props to that ST for making an intriguing and active eventline that I honestly had a lot of fun with - I craved those events, those were great. He's also one of the first people I've seen play to lose. Anyways, it's just that a lot of the server isn't really playing the way I am and that makes it hard for me personally to enjoy my roleplay. This is not something I want people to change and I'm not trying to be like grrr why in the **** are you playing this way and not that way, it's simply how I feel currently.

Conclusion

Basically, I'm going to be not-so-active on LotC. I'll log in sometimes, as I do have an active and new CA that I wish to keep. So maybe you'll see me roleplaying on there - but it won't be a lot until some newfound motivation suddenly keeps me hyperfixated on the server again. Thank you to everyone who has made an impact on me (which is a lot of people so I won't list names), it's been lovely being able to interact and have fun when I did. This isn't really a goodbye, just a 'see you soon'. I'll be around, just, not as much as I used to be.

If you need anything, please don't hesitate to reach out. Just because I'm not CT anymore, doesn't mean I will not help you. I want to. Also! If you wish to leave a comment, ask a few things, maybe debate with me on the silly 'play to win or play to make a narrative' argument - go ahead. Just, don't be a ****.
<3

3 minutes ago, MisterBlitzkrieg said:

A good day when a rozanian goes away

who are you

16 minutes ago, Traveller said:

 

good luck chief, wonderful time rping with you as i said last time you posted one of these and can't wait for your inevitable return (hehe)

 

Deadass that was me. I found the signs the same day he put them there cause he announced it in the azdrazi discord even though I didn’t know him.

Just like you fr, I’d say I’ll miss you but we both know we’re going to chat on discord still. For the hell of it though,

I’ll really miss roleplaying with you.

3 minutes ago, Xarkly said:

Spoiler

While, much like the role of women, I don't think staples of IRL religion contribute a whole lot to LotC, it is a very established custom that homoesexuality is looked down IRP in human communities chiefly due to the teachings of the Canonist Church. It seems a bit unfair to insinuate people are self-inserting homophobia in a setting where it is a dominant custom that many characters would have been raised with. The same reasoning applies to the post - it's not an individual choice of projection so much as it is acting in line with the setting of the server.

 

Is this setting good? Not necessarily, but that's besides the point. The debate about whether these ancient views should remain prevalent in RP is completely different from whether people are self-inserting, and it's a very unhelpful and slippery slope to go down.

 

7 minutes ago, satinkira said:

the past is the past. . .

The past will always come back to haunt you.

Enigma Bojo-Daesmon frowns at the missive “The gays are slaying. Literally.”

11 hours ago, alexmagus said:

do you sit in silence staring at the chat waiting for a response

yes.

9 hours ago, Bellegarde said:

Who?

 

Biggest bruh moment?

Who.. what? Are you asking me who I am? Idfk man I’m just a mentally ill person who likes to roleplay on a goddamn Minecraft server. Biggest bruh moment so far is this one.

Send your best LOTC memes in the comments. Please. I want to laugh.

14 hours ago, Jentos said:

Banning me has caused the Seven Plagues of LOTC. 

 

Freja has already turned against the very server. 

Of course...
 

4 hours ago, Ariovistus said:

That being said, did you ever get into Westworld?

I didn't! I like tried to find the name after leaving the GC for ages and then soon after gave up, thank you so much for the reminder. Also, it's okay - I do really wish I had been able to roleplay more for that eventline, I thought it was really interesting and unique. I actually still have the document for it! Your work is great, and so are you.

3 hours ago, Olandyr said:

Is there anything you particularly want to do in your time on the server?

Here's my to-do list.

• Try to help the Community Team's reputation from "not doing anything".
• Try to make enjoyable roleplay interactions/stories with the playerbase and friends.
• Try something new irply - currently really interested in djinns and paladins due to one of my child personas living in Caras Anor.

2 hours ago, rukio said:

Math or english?

Both.
 

1 hour ago, Jentos said:

when r u reading the niche fucked up dark fantasy series I recommended 

 

favourite lotc event 

 

r u a Kpop girl

Next week.

The first time Alucard went to Kivdrona with almightysaucer as the ST, hands down.

Nein... how do you still have forum PEX lmao

11 hours ago, NLThomas said:

Is there anything specific you still want to do on the server?

I'd love to eventually get around to playing another CA Race like a Kha or uhh.. Eiph-whatever, I just woke up I'm too tired to spell. But other than that, I'd also reeally like it actually find and learn a magic I would enjoy - personally I'm not too fond of the Voidal arts 'n the ones that do interest me are gatekept or otherwise.

4 hours ago, christman said:

Do you roleplay with music and if yes what music do u normally listen to

no, the only times I've listened to music while roleplaying is during events where the ST gives links to listen to during the event. Which, I do not have saved.

12 minutes ago, Diogen said:

 

any more alien invasion books to recommend?

 

LMAO goddamnit Dio, I do not.

1 minute ago, GamblersPalm said:

 

You forgot the best character of all of them.

I purposefully didn’t add Masuo just to **** with you

9 minutes ago, Optimus420 said:

 

Why elf?

 

Pointy ears go brrrrr.

1 hour ago, _Leyd said:

 

You get a billion dollars, but you have to leave behind all your friends, family, hobbies and just about everything that you’re familiar with. You taking the money?

 

No. I quite enjoy the things I’m familiar with.

1 hour ago, Winterblessing said:

What’s your favourite song?

 

What’s your favourite experience IRP? Are there anyspecific memories you look back on especially fondly?

Currently my favorite song is Heart to Heart by Mac DeMarco. My favorite IRP experience would have to be patting the An-Gho on Alucard for the first time, that was really wholesome. As for a specific memory, I don’t currently have one.

1 hour ago, UnBaed said:

 

Funniest moment on LotC?

What are some characters of other people that you think are neat?

 

What inspires your writing for your RP?

 

Funniest moment? Last night actually I was with Eden and Space, I had discovered /ride..

 Some characters of others? Well I’ll list some: Solun (SpaceOddity), Ash (Satinkira), The Crone (Olandyr), Nehtamo (Teh60thIsMyKing), An-Gho (Jentos), Lord Melandrach (Christmanism), Vukosav (Capn_Avery), and many many more. As for my inspiration, a bit cringe I know, but it is actually nothing from like any media or an ideal - I genuinely get inspired from other good roleplay and then write my own.

43 minutes ago, Lord_of_losers said:

can you rep me please

yeah sure.

29 minutes ago, Benleft said:

 

Are you spaceoddity? Urgent. 

 

no.

4 minutes ago, mika1278 said:

what are you?

I am a frog.

1 minute ago, satinkira said:

If you could change one decision that you irply made, what would it be?

Not killing Alucard in Karkosa is a good one.

Well, I hadn’t expected the time to fly by so quickly. I’m not gonna lie, I have no idea if it’s like “AMA” or “Q&A” or something to do these posts, but I’m going to go with the one I actually know the meaning to.

Please fulfill my forum rep farm and ask me questions: can be about anything.

damn you

21 minutes ago, Braehn Elendil An&#x27;Hiraeth said:

Aurelion Marsyr - Necromancer

Hah.

3 minutes ago, rukio said:

Purpose:

I really want to make Jentos' blood pressure rise.

Slay

I didn't know twi before their ban, but, I can wholeheartedly say that with the talks I've had with them and interactions that they're honestly a really nice person. I think this is a well-made appeal, I hope to see them back in the community for real. +1

told u that u were poopslave mister neil.. its not even real

excited to read through all this again, good lucko