Roran read over the letter which had been delivered to him by none other than a stuffed rat with comically large ears. The man had his head propped up upon his fist while he sat at his desk, reading the letter over and over as a feeling of regret filled his chest. He never got to reconcile with Russandiel, to tell her how he now understood her more than he had ever expected. His mind flashed to the day in which she begged on her knees for him to slay her daughter which had fallen to the sway of warlocks and demons and how he wonders if with his feelings now he would do the same to her, to cry and beg to slay a wayward child he once so loved. The man found himself talking aloud these thoughts to that stuffed rat, it's ears perked up at attention to his voice, he didnt know why he was talking to a stuffed rat but perhaps deep inside him he hoped a piece of Russandiel could somehow hear him through it. For the coming years the stuffed rat known as Despereaux, a gift from Russandiel, became not only a courier but a trusted confidant and keeper of the knight's most inner thoughts spoken aloud.