Always a Callaghan
Morwen WAS a Callaghan, despite their attempts to strip the name from her. She’d always said family was chosen, not blood. Even if they stripped the name from her, she’d chosen them as her family, even during the worst fights. That was why it hurt so much when she’d found herself surrounded by family and strangers she’d not known. Lured on the promise of a Krugmas gift of all things. The clarity that rang in that moment, stung. One path before her was left. Death and whether it had been intentional or not, it was her family that had led to her capture.
Sitting in the dingy cell of Tir Glass, she tried to hold the emotional wave inside her at bay. She’d always believed in her family and held hope they’d see things through her own view. She’d placed her trust in them and they’d let her down this final time. There would be no chance of convincing them to walk away. No moment of “Oh Morwen we see you. We understand.” There would be no place of sanctuary for her family that she’d seen. No reprieve from the continual call of duty at the cost of morality. They’d succumbed to the concept that loyalty came before family. And what of her mother? Unable to see her daughter, to tell her one last time “It’s okay, you did what you believed in.” Morwen was AFRAID. Not of death. She’d never been afraid of the concept, always the reckless member of her family. No, Morwen was afraid for her family. Afraid they’d continue to serve the thing she knew in her heart was wrong and unjust.
She had countless hours to wait in her cell before the sentencing to think and ponder. She’d picked up the unhealthy habit of ruminating on the past, it’s why she’d turned to the drugs and alcohol in the first place. The loneliness and pain. She’d ran from her family, from Idunia and its duties to build something. To build a better life for her family. She’d seen from an early age her people’s complacency and lack of action when faced with the opportunity to be the better person, to stand for something just. In that running, she’d lost her family and herself. It was only the people of the Twin Rivers region on Kalldur that had kept her sane. They became her rock, and her purpose. They spoke of building a place of acceptance for individuals like her brother, and a place of progress and prosperity. A home. This became Cerulia, a place she was proud to be a citizen of. But the distance from her family hurt her. She tried to visit, but every time it pained her. She could only stomach the family gatherings through a diet of strong proof liquor. Didn’t they know why she did what she did? Did they truly think she was abandoning them? No! She was trying to save them! To save them from themselves, from their loyalty. Paranoia grew, she’d seen Haelun’or fall, then Iryalen. It was only a matter of time before her home fell, her sanctuary where she was allowed to be herself. She knew she would be forced to march to war and defend the place she held dear, so she did the one thing she could do. She wrote to her mother and sought her counsel. WAR WAS DECLARED and with it Morwen Callaghan’s hand had been forced. She knew her brothers would be fighting on the battlefield, she’d have to avoid them at any cost.
They came for her, as the trial neared. Her brother was coping with recountings of her youth. She really had been a rascal of a child. Dueling a peer with a barstool. Starting a child fight club. Demanding the release of a cursed child in Drusco before she was ten of age. No, Morwen was not afraid to die. She was proud of her life lived. The trial commenced as those present paid little heed to her reasonings. This was normal. She’d expected this- but God did she want a smoke! It was seeming less and less likely she’d get to. She was practically itching for the touch of tobacco upon her lips after days in a cell. Her sister pleaded her case as the punishment of execution was called. They still after all this time believed in their system? Surely it was plain to see? Morwen had known this was the only verdict possible. “My sister may have fallen down the wrong path in life-. . .” the words came from her twin’s mouth. Morwen had never chosen the wrong path! How could she, when there had only ever been one clear path? The bargaining hurt, it was inevitable.
They began bickering over who would be the one to execute her as she was given last words to say to those present. Would any words truly suffice? Her thoughts drifted to those she loved as the words came out “. . .-Last words, Ay am naet afraid. Ay am naet afraid of death, never have been. Some, well most have called me foolish n' reckless fer it. But there's very little Ay fear but the fate of me family, for they are truly lost now. Ay'm afraid for our people. What stories will they tell centuries from now of this time? Will they be remembered as oath breakers? Will they be remembered for the genocide on their hands? Ay once held a dream of a place. A good place, pure in intention n' it's simplicity. Ay never thought Ay'd see it with me eyes, but it lives. It has been Me home n' Ay am glad to die representing the best of its truths. A truth tha' will live when Ay am dead.” Her mind wandered as they stalled, momentarily drifting to her friends she’d failed to reconnect with. Those she’d played with as a kid. She mourned the idea of her two friends Sylvia and Andromeda who she’d failed to apologize to. But most of all she mourned what could have been. She’d enjoyed the last several meetings with Julia and now she’d never receive that Krugmas gift. . .a shame. “Ay am naet yer enemy. Ay only wished we were better, so that Ay might have stayed n' fought fer a cause Ay believe.” Her words fell on deaf ears. She really wanted that cigar. . . Her body dropped in an instant as the spectral lion claw of Prince Llewyn struck her neck. Morwen Callaghan was dead, but she had truly lived.
To My Family
To Sylvia and Andromeda
To the Children’s Fighting Club
To Julia