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So does the Doe fall, Casted to the Sea We are not what other people say we are, we are who we know ourselves to be. Falling endlessly, feeling the wind rushing past me… i was rushing through the wind? I couldn't tell but I also couldn't care less, but during this fall I find myself reflecting through the life I have lived, the life I wanted to live, those I am leaving behind, had I made an impact in their lives? Floria reached her hand above, reaching for the sky, thoughts, no memories rushed through her mind from the earliest she could remember to the latest. “A flower, for you my lady” A red haired elf, young and cheesy trying to impress young Floria, a friend of her cousins and her first love, young and foolish Floria had accepted that flower that day while sat next to her mother and that little flower lead to so much more “what are you two doing you're going to get hurt!” Laughter filled my mind, my laughter a sound I have not made in so long, watching as my best friend at the time and cousin were sparing, messing around more like, while me, their superior was watching in amusement, is that really how easy my life had been back then? The Tomfoolery continued before I turned to “hey, how about marrying me?” It was asked in such a cheeky way I thought he was joking so how could I decline “alright why not” that simple agreement, lead our relationship in such a precarious way, I was too young, too foolish. “You’ll both get yourself killed! Dhyvo!” this time Fear ran through me, a memory of my first fight, my first time almost seeing someone I love almost die, my cousin Dhyvo thrown against a wall by a minotaur knocked out cold, I saw red, but apparently so did someone else, pushed out of a way a blurry figure ran past towering over everyone else, he dealt the final blow to the beast, I suppose I was glad, I could step back and aid the injured fallen, but before I could reach for anyone the scene changed. “Hey, I'm sorry I'm looking for Togrim? He saved my life id like to thank him” a crimson haired fellow, someone I never regret meeting “oh that's my uncle! Hi I'm Floria” my hand took in his and smiled shone my way “im Vakas” a meeting that changed my life, for the better. “Scars are beautiful, they show your strength” the scene had changed again, sitting in a garden Vakas by my side “you think?...” an unsure question came from myself with my hand reaching for my right eye, was I always that self conscious of my scars? I suppose I must have been but this man's words lifted a huge weight off my shoulders. “Grayson…” a baby boy with red hair and green eyes just born the first of Florias but certainly not the last “your going to be big and strong, just like me and your father, you have to warriors for parents after all” were my first words as a mother, my pride high, too high, but the more children I had, how those words changed, changed for the better. “Its nothing!... don't worry about it dear okay?” I stood there with Juniper, someone I had always seen as a daughter and my now eldest son Grayson. What was i trying to hide? Its all a bit fuzzy. “you’ll get better, you will… I'll find someone to make you better!” I turned and the scene changed in a house with my second eldest Theo “don't give me that look, everything will be fine” a dying woman's words, trying to console her son, but her son kept his promise someone was found someone saved his mothers life “Now... eyes… painful'' a familiar voice, said calmly but I cant remember what he was trying to say, was was he, a scream filled the air my scream a familiar agony, a once broken skull forced back into place the scent of blood filling the air, this memory so far, so distant, the sound of a door opening, panicked steps, the last of the scene my worried son Theo reaching out. Reaching out Flower in hand a wood elf, he looks so much like Theo “a pretty flower, for a pretty woman” flirtatious, and annoying ‘What… a punchable face…’ a thought said within my mind but I dare not say aloud this scene replayed over and over… no he brought different flowers for every encounter “what a strange man” finally a thought was released, but he took it with pride, that cheerfulness of his, I thought I could never get use to it, but then I could never be without it. The scene changed and the two of us holding rings we both made together finally I found my salvation in him, a loneliness I held deep within left me. “Syvis”, a struggled voice, escaped me as I plunged into water struggles, a pain in my heart. The last thing I saw was a songbird flying above my right hand reaching out words but this was only a dream. Florias eyes blurred as she called out for her husband it was difficult to breath, her chest hurting, but slowly everything stopped the pain went away it didn't hurt anymore, the life had slipped away from the elfess, laying in her bed, Letters left to the side, she had been suffering, dying and finally the suffering stopped she now rested but tears streaks down her cheeks, she had not wanted to die. Letters sat aside all in separate piles to be sent by whoever would find her body. To my children All my job entailed was to make sure you all were prepared to see the world, but I was unprepared, I did the best I could but still I failed. Theo I was hard on you as you grew up, scared, scared I'd lose you like I had lost so many others wanting you to take our life slow, not get into to much to fast, but you grew into a fine young man, raising a beautiful family of your own, I couldn't be prouder, you went through so much on my account looking after me when I was sick and dying, I can't imagine how that must have made you feel. Azra, my smart boy, saying I'm proud of you doesn't even describe how I feel, ever since you was small I watched you grow into a wonderful young man, I hope you continue on your road, you have so much potential as long as you put your mind to it, you can succeed in anything I'm sure. Nevio you've barely started your life, my youngest son, just like Azra your bright, the times you've sat with me in my office and and shown interest in my work and in so many of your books, one of the smartest people I know, keep your head high, and know your strength. Maln, I've made mistakes, I was not the best for our family, I almost tarnished our name I never for that, I was foolish and did not know best, I still don’t I want to do my best for the Kaeronin Family I want to do my best for you, I failed and all I can do is apologize I did not do better, I should have stayed within Amathine, but I did not know of our history, it hurt when I was accused of being a fake Kaeronin, I wish I had been told what I was doing wrong and taught, I should have asked. To all my children know you are all loved, I love you so much, be safe, be strong and live, live well and don't let your lives end short. Showing your strengths for all of you are precious and capable of anything if you put your hearts and minds to it, even if these days are my last, when I'm gone you will be okay. Friends Fal’leon, my uncle, of recent there was a misunderstanding, and I'm sorry for all that trouble, I never wished to try and hurt a student, to take your teachings for granted, I would never dream of doing such, but to see how that cheeky dedicant said such a joke, I understand why people were worried so I apologize for everything. Narithen, your bold as brass, maybe too much so for your own good, making jokes, and dramatizing things often will not lead to humour but troubles as you had witnessed, however your young, you’ll learn, I had joy in teaching you for the small amount of time that I did, if you continue down the druidsm path if your taught well, you'll become a fine drui, I did not get the best teaching during my dedicancy, my teacher died after I was attuned, leaving me as an attuned druid not knowing my gift, I was a druid in attunement but I wasn't one in practice. I had to hop from teachers to use my gifts but I was not taught from there, no one showed me the true drui way, and so I was an imprudent teacher, unfit to guide. Medea my Niece, I loved you as if you were my own daughter, you grew well, and now leading your own nation I am proud, I wish I had time to make amends fully, for past event clear my side, but my time has come, so I will watch from afar continue well. Vakas you were there for me when I was dying along with Theo, I'm not sure how we ended, why we ended, I was upset, so angry for so long, but I'm not anymore, know I'm not upset, I'm not angry, after everything you were there, and I appreciated that, I appreciate you, you were one of my best friends, and I love you for it. Finally to whom I view as my soulmate, someone I found when I looked into his eyes, my worries disappeared, which made me happier, then ever, for his laugh, his smile is infectious to whoever bears witness. Syvis, you lifted me when I was at my lowest, you brought joy to my life, you were my best friend but more, the one person in the world that knew me better than anyone else, you made me a better person, actually you didn't make me a better person but you inspired me to become better even gone, I will carry you with me forever, you were the one person who knew me and accepted me, believed in me before anyone else did or when no one else would, and no matter what happened or happens you’ll always have my love and nothing will ever be able to change that, sometimes actually most of the time people don't realize the best thing that could happen to them, is already right there, sitting right under their nose, and for me, Syvis that was you, for so long, I could only ever wonder and then years ago I turned to a complete stranger for comfort but instead, I found everything that I had ever been looking for, my whole life in you, I'm sorry I'm leaving so early, when we had a whole future ahead of us. With her body now lifeless the butterflies that always accompanied floria slowly started to disperse leaving the women to rest alone leaving her prayers with her family and friends. a druid as fallen.

The birth of a new Generation Issued by the The Starling Kaeronin branch (art by unibearse) 5th of the Deep Cold 146 As the sun rose and sun streak came through the windows of homes, birds chirping in song, this morning seemed different somehow from other mornings, especially in the Kaeronin Songbird household, a tiring night, friends and family waiting in anticipation, news finally given, letters sent out a new baby boy was born on the 5th of the Deep Cold 146 The new-born's features looked identical to that of his mothers, pale porcelain skin, bright snow white hair, and doe-like eyes somewhat darker than the mothers matching more of that of his fathers. It is with great pride and joy that the Kaeronin’s and the Songbirds announce the birth of their son Nevio Kaeronin Songbird. Floria Kaeronin with her son Nevio Kaeronin Below a letter the mother had written to her new-born, and a letter thrown out to sea. Her ladyship, Floria Antwinette Vanari iller’leyu, Aldin Kaeronin Lady of justice and truth, serene mother of Kaeronin His Lordship Syvis Songbird, the serene father of Kaeronin Songbird