Rilath

After thinking about it for a while, and rereading a lot of the points made by the current FM's, and yes, even Lym, I've decided to not re-apply for FM. Obviously I still need more time before I'm let back in, whether I am or not.

I'm not going into detail but you lied about your age and other things but lying is something that shouldn't be taken easily. While no harm was done to anyone, I don't think I can trust you.

And to be quite honest, I'm trying to avoid any interactions with you since that post on the VA purge topic. Seeing how I am 'wrong, not surprisingly' and that I seem to "have that problem a lot lately", I don't feel like lowering my level even further so I am able to have a discussion with you.

That being said, I'll tip my hat now.

Have a good day, sir!

Lying about age does not make 'my past filled with lies' and really shouldn't be your basis for trust. There have been a few ex staff members and some current staff members that have lied about their ages, yet they still are able to be trusted.

And while yes, my comments were unnecessary, they were not made without reason. From my perspective, and that of quite a few others, you are a pompous kid that is not open to the viewpoints of others. I also think it's kind of humorous how you still managed to insult me while making yourself out to be a better person. That 'I don't feel like lowering myself even further so I am able to have a discussion with you.' Implying that I am less than you and not worth your time.

This is a quote from the above screenshot posted by SpamShok;

I believe that this alone supports my general negativity for your return to the FM Team in a couple of ways. By saying that, it came across (whether intentional or not) that you accepted and approved of it's first posting. Which is most likely not what you meant, but if it was then it is horrid. And disgusting. Just like the guide.

By stating that you acknowledged that it was a personal attack against somebody, like flaming or cy-berbullying, and persisted in saying it tapped into your funny bone, you are hindering your chances of even being considered, to be blunt. This is because to be an FM, which you no doubt know all about, you must accept and enforce the rules and distinguish the flames that are caused by the breakers of the said rules.

You have to quell your sense of humor and act professionally on the forums in most cases whilst being an FM. Just like people in common society have to detach from the norm to make fun of homosexuals (not saying the two are related at all or it is right to do so).

In order to improve on this, I recommend you act professional, and lay down your ego when it comes to posting on topics you know to be sensitive, and that could potentially hurt somebodies feelings on the other side of the world.

In basic, don't let your id get to you when posting.

I understand, Volutional. While you are right, I didn't mean I approved of the original posting of the guide, I did find it humorous, which I can see why that is not really a good thing. During my previous time as FM, however, I think I did a pretty good job at keeping my sense of humor in check when it came to problems on the forums.

And I do agree with both you, and SpamShok. The things I said to Lym were unnecessary and could have been said in a better way without a personal attack.

I do understand the last one is a bit over the line, yes. But I cannot help my sense of humor, and it will not change over time. It was the same way when I used to be an FM, and it will continue if I become one again, or not.

Secondly, the first screenshot and the third were me being argumentative, yes. I was not flaming, as you tried to brand it, I was a tad heated, however. Nothing wrong, as I see quite a few staff members get angry at things much smaller than an argument. (This next sentence or two is at Lym) I'd still like to know why you say my past is filled with lies. You claimed this, and then when I countered in fairly polite way, you simply abandoned thread.

As for the second screenshot.. I mean really? Am I not allowed to have a personal opinion on GM's? The thread was to vote for your favorite staff member, and my favorite GM is Tyrion. At that moment, Dusk was second the choice that was right in front of Tyrion in votes, so I stated "How is dusk behind Tyrion?" I honestly think that was just a misunderstanding on your part.

If anyone else has some criticism or things they'd like to say about me or about my past actions, feel free to continue posting. I really would like to know the reasons people are obviously not in love with me.

Honestly, when I saw that Everblue applied for FM I thought I might as well just delete mine. If I get FM over this man, I will lose faith in the staff of LotC forever. Please do what is right and give this man the position he deserves.

I understand, Thu'um. And I honestly have nothing against anyone who doesn't support my application. It's just nice to see those that do.

Would you mind sending me the private conversations? I'm not denying that they happened, I just honestly do not recall what was said. And thank you to Hyperion and Heero for those kind words. I really appreciate it.

Which Shade problem do you refer to, Aryon? While yes, I do agree that it could've been handled in a better way, I do not think it was wrong of me to want my lore to stay the way I wrote it. Nonetheless, I thank you for your criticism, despite its negativity.

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Anyway, I have my doubts someone with a past that is filled with lies should be FM.

Please refrain from GIF's or pictures, or things of that nature. I'm fine with the message, just not the way it is delivered.

And as for your statement of 'someone with a past that is filled with lies,' I'd like you to elaborate on that, if you could. I honestly don't know why people keep saying that I'm a lying attention seeker that will make up stories to be in the spotlight. The only lies I can think of that I've told that changed peoples thoughts of me are the time I posted pictures of myself from Google Images, and when I lied about my age. Both of those I can easily explain. When I joined, I was a shy teenager wanting to be liked, so I posted a picture of a moderately handsome man, claimed it was myself, then said I was a few years older than I actually am. I was afraid of what people would think of the real me, so I fabricated a version of myself in case I was made fun of, or things of that nature.

I understand, Hiebe. You and I have had our differences and most likely will continue to have differences. I wish there was something I could to to remedy this, but if not, I do apologize for the things I've said to you, and about you.

I understand your displeasure, Volutional, and I do realize that there is a very small chance, if any, that I can rectify the actions I made. I know that it is no excuse, but the things I said were in anger, in the heat of the moment it seemed like the right idea. But, sadly, hindsight is always 20/20.

Real Name

Connor V.

Ingame Name

ShadowGunX

RP Name

Teen Melandes

Time Zone

USA EST

How Long will you be online per week.

It could possibly vary, seeing as how school is back in session but usually I am on the forums anywhere from six to ten hours per day. That adds up to about forty-two to seventy hours per week spent on the forums. That response may seem a tad exaggerated, but I can assure you, it is true.

Experience

I have a bit of experience moderating, being an FM here earlier in the year and with my past experience on the website mentioned in my first FM app. In total, I have had about a year and half's experience moderating a forum of some sort.

Previous Forums

I moderated this forum earlier in the year and did so for quite a while. There was also another website mentioned in my previous FM app which I don't get on much anymore, and my username for that website is Stab. I was a part of it for a while, it started for me as a clan for another game I played called Adventure Quest Worlds, and it grew into more of a social forum for me and the others there.

Why I should be a FM

I believe I should be a forum moderator because I know how forums work, I consider myself unbiased on most matters, friendly towards others, and I am open to opinions and criticism. Some of those things I believe are absent for a few other candidates of this position. As also stated in a previous question, I am almost always on the forums, every time I am on the internet I am on this forum. Whether browsing through topics, PMing friends, etc. I know this doesn't grant me a free ticket back into the world of the FM's, but I believe that my work as an FM for LotC in the past would be one way to prove myself.

Other Info

I'd firstly like to apologize for the way I acted upon leaving the team. It was childish and wrong, and I took my anger out on the staff who were acting in the way they should have. I would also like to thank you all for reading this, whoever you are, and whether you like it or not, I'm open for criticism whether placed here, or through a PM.

-Shadow

*Walks away from the Normandorian boat, taking a drink from a flask as the falcon comes down from the sky. He wipes his lips with the back of his hand, a crimson stain smears his hand.*

"Well, seems this man knows how to get my attention. I suppose I shall give him a chance."

*Giggles quietly, it grows into a loud chuckle*

"Who knows, maybe he will actually survive the training.. And if not.. Well, then I have a free meal."

*Reads the suggestion for 'new' shop plugin.*

*Realizes it's basically the exact same as what was in Aegis.*

Seems legit.

Welcome back guys. Haven't seen/heard from either of you in a while, but I remember you both being great RPers. It's good to have two new team members ^^

9/10.

Personally, I have barely ever seen you in game, but when I have, I really enjoyed the RP you gave me. The reason your score is so high is.. well.. Just look at your post count ;)

Sure thing, sexy daddy!

Haha, I remember that too, Gaius! And yes, I sort of got all of what we had and added that onto my original idea and here we are! If someone could move this to implemented ideas and lore, it'd be much appreciated ;)

Thank you Magic Team! I truly appreciate this!

Banned for using martial arts to make origami. How shameful.

Skippy is a easy 9/10. He's very active both on the forums and in game, especially in OOC chat where almost everyone knows him. Should be pretty obvious why I gave the ranking ^^

Updated the OP with things I said to Blawharag. Should clear up most of the confusion surrounding the spells and the magic in general.

This is wonderful, thank you! Let him know he can contact me through skype almost any time. My username is rilath.

You asked me to look, and I did. Now, I don't know you at all. I might have role played with you here and there, but it was nothing major and therefore I do not remember it. What I can say is this: you can write a damn good post. This just looks utterly professional. Just looking at it I could tell that I would enjoy reading it, and I did. It is a bit different from most other magic lore out there, but I like that about it. It's different from the norm. I've seen lore for telekinesis before, and after reading those posts I would always think "Wow, this idea really sucks. This can be powergamed too much." Well, I think it's safe to say that you have made me feel the exact opposite of what I used to think. You've made the magic quite practical, not making it a solely combat oriented version of the magic (Which I have seen before). It seems as if the weaknesses far outweigh the strengths of this magic, which in my opinion is a great thing. To sum it all up, this is well thought out, well written, and well presented, and to that I say well done.

Good luck.

-Shadow

I've been one of the few who was against your removal from the very beginning. It is fan-bloody-tastic to have you back with us.