Hello. My name is Bepto, Beptofide, or whatever you know me by. I'm writing this post because I've been receiving a lot hate and backlash from my moderation application. I understand peoples frustrations with me, as I've done and said immature and stupid things, but I'm also very much human and comments made do hurt. I want to talk about the different things and apologize to people publicly, so that it can be over with.
Norlandic Community: I apologize to you first, as I was a problematic player when I was active here, I did and said a lot of things that were not very mature of me, and I was not the type of person I wanted to be or should have been when I was apart of this community. I know that I can't come back to this group, but I still want to apologize to this part of the community, and I hope that one day you'll forgive me.
Community Team: In turns of me quitting the CT, I called the team 'toddler team', in anger towards Muffins and the other managers who in turn made me unwelcome to the point of quitting, and I lost a couple of friends due to this. I was in turn blacklisted from the team, which is now well known via the report on muffins, but I also wanted to apologize to you guys, because most of y'all are cool 🙂
World Team: A lot of things occurred by me making the mistake of dating a manager, and then joining the team, (which was a very very VERY bad idea), I know I caused some issues with things I will not bring up, and was apart of some things I should not have been involved in, but I feel the need to also apologize to you guys as well.
And to the rest of the community that I have affected, I want to own up to my mistakes, but I also do not want to receive comments that are demeaning onto my character, and me as a person because I will be 100% honest, some of the comments I've been getting in dms and openly on my application, I have cried over some of them. I'm a human being that makes mistakes, no one on this server is perfect. I genuinely and whole-heatedly love this community but I feel like I'm being driven away, and not welcome anymore. I've said several times that I've wanted to give up and leave the server altogether, but I haven't yet because I still have friends here. I want to be held accountable for my actions, but I do not want to be called harsh names, or be told that 'I don't do anything right', etc. Remember that everyone behind a screen is human, and things you say can hurt them, so please watch the things that you say.
Thank you for taking the time to read this post, as I have taken the time to write it. I didn't really know how to go about writing this post, but I guess this will do for now.