rukio

 I can play the fool you need
You can have the only part I need
the lie you can't repay
You can't take enough of me
Hollow me, hollow me, hollow me
I am not letting go
No matter what you do
I can play your fool

We swore we’d never change
And we’d stay the same
But time changes everything
Kept getting wasted and pilled out
The highs that I feel now are nothing the same
Keep to myself
Keep ignoring my health
I let my days slip away
I kept them calling for days
I’m just the ghost of a good soul just a phase
Swallow my problems
The ones that I can’t touch
As I drift away
Fade away
Can’t forgive myself
Can’t forget yesterday

Sleep, sweetie, let your floods come rushing in, And carry you over to a new morning

I can feel you fade away
Your steps keep me awake
Don't cut me down, throw me out, leave me here to waste
I once was someone with dignity and grace
Could you find a way to let me down slowly?
A little sympathy, I hope you can show me
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
Cold skin, drag my feet on the tile
As I'm walking down the corridor
And I know we haven't talked in a while
So I'm looking for an open door
Don't cut me down, throw me out, leave me here to waste
Now I'm slipping through the cracks of your cold embrace
So please, please
Could you find a way to let me down slowly?
A little sympathy, I hope you can show me
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
Let me down
And I can't stop myself from falling down
Could you find a way to let me down slowly?
A little sympathy, I hope you can show me
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby let me down slowly
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby, let me down slowly

All I want is nothing more
To hear you knocking at my door
'Cause if I could see your face once more
I could die as a happy man I'm sure
When you said your last goodbye 
I died a little bit inside
Why did you leave me
'Cause you brought out the best of me 
A part of me I'd never seen

And you know what you're doing
And if my body's dead and cold, I'd die for you
In the name of love, I'll kill for
In the name of love, I'll follow you
You're fatal but I love who you are

I woke to blood on my fingertips, the blade was starin’ at me like we go back
Like true adults, we should be proud
There’s still pain seepin’ through your skull
I just forget you’re not the ***** I once knew
I've got this feeling in my bones
And I swear it’s as pure as my soul will let
I’d take a body for your plate, just watch you eat and wait for crumbs
I’ve got some worries of my own
Like what if one day you explode
And jab a knife into me for words I’ve said?
I promise you’ll get the best of me

It's not fair
I found love
It made me say to get back
But I'm just a motherfucker that want to be dead
Stare into the violet fluorescent lights, makes me violent
I'm trying to get the highest I can get before I overdose and die
My ribs are nothing but an empty cage, black hole in my chest
In my head, I feel like I'm a guest, so I'ma throw it all away
Because when I am dead I will be nothing decomposing in a grave
I'm matter, but I don't matter
Grey stains won't dissolve, gonna have to paint it all
It's not fair, I found love
I'll never see daylight
Always burn my bridges 'cause I'd rather fall in ditches
It's not fair, I found love
It made me say to get back

2015

But I found in you what was lost in me
In a world so cold and empty
I could lie awake just to watch you breathe
In the dead of night, you went dark on me

I left a message on IRC
You never replied
I see your face
You ghost of mine
You're taking up all my time
Thought I heard you saying my name
Oh no what a shame
You're under my skin
I swear I barely ever sleep

Well, I was there on the day
We watched our lives on the screen
I hate the ending myself
But it started with an alright scene
It was a lie when they smiled

And said you won't feel a thing
We laughed so hard it would sting
Now, will it matter after I'm gone?
This never meant nothing to you
Bring out the old guillotine
If I'm so wrong 
How can you listen all night long? 
You're just a sad song with nothing to say

Open your eyes and see me
Tell me it's not too late
Whisper to me of a sad song
I always said I believed you
I know that you never cared at all
It's not about wasted time
I should've paid closer attention
But I didn't bother reading the signs
Tell me the thing you've never told a soul
When did you turn on me?
I'd cry if I thought it would change your mind
Cry for the one I'd hoped you to be
 

I've gotten way too carried away
And I will never make the mistake
How many times do I have to fight
It's always different when it's face to face
Don't question what you've never seen or had to chase
With no words to say, dismembered every frame
What's left in me?
Didn't see this coming

I don't want to hug
I just want to sleep
'Cause I get lonesome sometimes
Whilst I see how much drink I can take
I shouldn't have called
'Cause we shouldn't speak
You make life hard
And he makes me weak
Just wait till I give you a sign
Then be my mistake

You were not there
Living in fear
Obvious tears
The bleeding heart perched on my shirt
Die, withdraw
Hide in cold sweat
Quivering lips
Ignore remorse
Crowned hopeless
Limbs tied, skin tight
Self inflicted his perdition

Drowning in the morning
Drowning in the evening
Drowning when we're meeting
Drowning in these feelings
Surrounded by my demons
Bleeding out from the hole in my chest
The outcome was anyone's guess, what a mess
This heart will beat again
You need an ending to begin
Kill me with every could have been
By picking the fights that I can't win
I didn't mean to cause so much harm
My shattered frame will never be the same
Love of a life to an ache with no name
It's difficult to say his name even out of context
The letters stick together like pain is just a contest
Have a good look in the mirror and pull the trigger, it's self defense
In order to fix your heart you have to kill your innocence

And you shrug it all off and leave it alone

 And I will follow you endlessly . . .

I'm cornered in fire so break out the secrets
I'm tired, you're angry, and everyone looks blurry
I love you, I'm leaving; so long
I'm so scared of what this could have been
The places I took you, they seem so ******* empty
I have trouble going anywhere at all
So passed out, black out, drunk in another bathroom stall
How long must I justify my pain through these songs?
How long, how long?
I know that today I lost my only enemy
It's raining, it's sunny
It doesn't make a difference
I don't care about anything at all