Nothing is as What it Seems

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Nothing is as what it seems 

A voice so soothing, now it haunts me in my dreams 

Pleasure turned to poison, infecting all my memories 

Sensual silhouette turned demonic as if possessed 

Hopeless love turn soured, can't escape its dread 

My reality's been shattered, manipulated by the lies you fed 

Even when I'm happy, I just want to be dead 

 

And I guess

You know the rest:

Melancholy lyrics to a song I'll never write 

Somedays I just want to have another fight 

Write a song to piss you off, never to win your heart 

Why would I when you tore mine apart? 

 

Nothing is as what it seems 

Persevere through withdrawal of your love and all our dreams 

Addicting like oxycontin, toxic like methamphetamine 

I miss the way you'd tear me down and make me feel so dumb 

I miss the kisses you'd leave behind after leaving me so numb 

We'd get high in the night and melt our brains when we were young 

Can I rewind and unwind with you one more time, or is that done?

 

And I guess 

You said it best:

"I'll never forget the love we had,

A love like yours I'll never have again"

If that were true why can't you change?

I grew for you but all you left for me was pain

 

You're never as you try to seem 

What you say is never what you mean

Cognitive dissonance has you by the reins

When you act this way what do you have to gain?

When you talk to me, your voice, it sounds so pained

No emotion in your eyes, baby you look so plain 

Like your soul has died and the life has left your veins

 

Damn baby girl, I guess I must attest you're the same as I 

Lets address this depression as we hold each other through the night 

Lets make a mistake that at least will make us feel alive 

For a time 

 

I forgave you then, I would forgive you now 

My mind, it scolds, by my heart knows how 

To look behind the bruises and the scars 

To see the beautiful thing you are 

Buried down and hidden so far 

If I can change, so can you 

I only changed just for you 

Without you what do I do?

Who am I a better person for?

Life without you is such a chore 

And this rumination I must ignore

These lingering feelings I just abhor

Throw this love away; I want it no more 

I don't regret walking out and closing the door

Forget those nights close your eyes hold me more

 

Nothing is as what it seems 

A voice so soothing, now it haunts me in my dreams

Pleasure turned to poison, infecting all my memories

Sensual silhouette turned demonic as if possessed

Hopeless love turn soured, can't escape its dread

My reality's been shattered, manipulated by the lies you fed

Even when I'm happy, I just want to be dead

 

And I guess

You know the rest