The Aftermath of Sorrow

[TheCapybara 1803]

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Spoiler

Trigger Warning : This writing has the themes of depression and attempted suicide. You have been warned.

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A young ‘aheral stood near the beaches of the druid's grove. The woman took a deep breath and looked up the night sky with her amethyst eyes into the starry night filled with such mystery and many unknowns for a descendent. The Seregon would question to herself in a sorrowful way- what is her life now- who is she? Her life was so joyful, she knew what her life was, she knew it all and what to do. But now they simply walk the empty beaches alone. Without friends- alone- no one to comfort her and embrace her. Friends- pushed them away or they left her as she slowly went mad. 

 

The girl- the woman who walked upon the sandy beaches would look into the crystal clear waters- empty and alone. As she looked down- she would question once more… What is her life now? Who… who is she? The Seregon she once knew was gone- all gone- her joy- her family- her heart. She didn’t know what to do. She tried to get new friends- new family. But so far it failed and only seemed awkward. Even when a certain ‘aheral said they are friends and he is there for her. She still felt alone- heartless. 

 

Finally- after minutes of thinking- looking at her reflection of a ruined life- she would simply leap her body into the sea. Embracing the warm and empty feeling of the waters- knowing that she had lost her mind… there was no Alyssa anymore but only madness. She tried to fight off these feelings since she came back to Haelun’or. She knew she could never impress her mother or any friends she made. She knew deeply inside- she is impure. Impure to the core- she doesn’t think and believe her people’s way ever or before.

 

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As the frail and pale body sunk down- she would struggle to breath- closing her eyes- seeing the bright moon before doing so. But then- she would hear a voice inside of her head. The voice of first her brother- telling her to open her eyes and get out- then her haelun- then her father… only a small voice but heard it loud. As she heard this- she would try to get all the way up to the beaches… but couldn’t she was losing too much air and was drowning in the empty sea and beach- where no one would see her demise.

 

But then- she heard- the voice of her friend- Margaux. As she heard her friend’s voice within her head- the same friend who she felt like she lost after an argument after an event which drove to these actions. She would push and force herself forward to get onto the sandy beach. As she went to land- she violently coughed out water- looking back into the sky- as the water dripped down onto the dry sand- tears would forum to come out from her purple eyes… Letting out a cry as she would finally break… her mind- cracked and her heart. Broken. 

 

As this ‘aheral wonders.

 

Who is she- is she even worth it… but on this night- she knew she was worth it.

 

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