Something To Reflect On

[Burnt Toast 198]

(Sorry for the lack of formatting, I am no guru)

   Hello one and all, you may know me as Toast, IBurnedTheToast, or just a general madlad. If you don't know me, lucky you. I wanted to talk about what this server means to me, since everything is doom and gloom right now. Feel free to ignore me or pass me over, that's just fine. This was done on a whim to hopefully make people feel better.

 

   What this server means to me is not silly roleplay,, although I do love that. And it's not creating a narrative either. I play this server to actually feel like a real person. I deal with so much issue in struggle in my day-to-day life that being able to sit down and play a game with people I care about means the world to me. Not everyone can go touch grass like people joke. Some struggle to leave the house, for reasons medical and emotional. This server, albeit highly toxic, provides some level of outlet for these people. I play this server when I am bored, or have too much time (Which is way too often). But I also play to connect with friends i'd never meet otherwise. Friends who have helped me grow as a person through this hellhole of a server.

 

   I have lent an ear to many on the server, sometimes the wrong people too. I have encountered... far too many TOS banned players in my year on the server. I will not name them out of respect for my own peace of mind. But... what that has helped me realize is that we are all people, different, unique, and complicated. I have always struggled with the need to be perfect and can never say no. Some of that is still true to this day... but having the knowledge that there are people like me practically everywhere is comforting. People here have helped me stand up for myself for the first time in years. They have been kind to me even in times of failure. And to think this all started for me because I got bored one day...

 

This server is insane, and probably on a downward spiral, but I wanted to reflect on the good it brought, at least for me. I don't support everything here. It's just one of many insane places on the internet... but it's a place I chose. Thank you all for being my friends, or at least frenemy. I hope we all can lookback on this place fondly in the far future. (Who knows)