Farewell for now

[Cosmopain 22]

As I write this, I am hopefully getting closer to my destination. If I knew exactly where that was, I would tell, but I myself don't even have the slightest clue.

 

This letter goes out to Vikela. Specifically Medea De Astrea, and her children. However, it is for anyone to see. Although what I told Medea before I left was the truth, it wasn't the entire truth. As some of you may know, I have no recollection of my childhood, anything before the age of about 16 to be exact. The only memory was a family tradition that was passed down for years. In recent years though, I began to experience vivid lucid dreams about my hometown. Nothing very specific, nothing that would help me find it, but it was enough to give me hope. 

 

I've always wondered what my haelun was like; if she was as beautiful as I would imagine her to be, or if my maln was a medic as I was. After a while, I began to lose hope, so I decided to settle down. I wandered about Celia’nor for a while, where I met the Medea. Almost at first sight, I knew there was something special about her. I knew she would be the one for me. And to this day I still believe that.

 

You may be wondering why I would decide to leave. I had the most amazing wife, Beautiful kids, and what could seem like a successful life. I am still unsure of that myself. There are reasons I know for sure. As I do not know how long I will be absent, nor if I will even survive my journey there, as well as my return. I don't want Medea to be tied down to the hope I will someday return. Every time I left to travel around, a great weight would sit heavy upon my shoulders as soon as I left Vikelas gates. That weight was the guilt from leaving her all the time. It would be my greatest regret leaving her in that state, and that's why I decided on the divorce. I want Medea to be able to find someone that makes her heart beat even heavier than I ever made it. I want her to find someone who will be there to care for her all the time. Most importantly, I want her to find someone who will be a better father to our kids than I ever was.

 

Yes, I do still love her—more than anyone in the world. I don't think I could ever stop loving her if I'm being genuine with myself. That is why I chose this route for her happiness purely. If I were to one day return, and find her happier with someone else, I will admit, it is going to hurt, but no anger will co-exist within me. Because then I know my prayers have been answered. And likewise, if I return, and you are not courting someone at the time If you could find it in your heart to forgive me. If you wish you would like to give us a second chance, and only if, I pledge my heart to the husband and maln I never was before.

 

Oh and Walter, If you see this - 

Promise to take care of her for me. I know you probably already are but, just do me one favor I beg, promise to me that she nor her family get hurt. If you break this promise, I will personally hurt you in ways beyond imagining,

 

And to the kids - Orn, Luthien, Thaedas, Fernando, Raeliana, and Lorenzo -

 I know you may despise me, and rightfully so, I just want you to know that I love you all so much, and I am so…so sorry that I wasn't there for you all as much as I should have been.

 

I wish for nothing but the best for all of the people of Vikela, I hope that you will grow and prosper while I am gone. With the help of a paramount of course. I am not looking for any forgiveness or pity. I just feel that now I can state my reasonings. Because I did It beforehand, I know for sure I would still be in Vikela Right now.

 

                                                                                                                                                                                                 With deepest apologies and regards,

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       Aerin Sinan

 

 

OOC: Um so this is like 5 years late BUT I DONT CARE. So yeah, Aerin is getting shelved for now because I just don't have the time or the motivation to get on anymore. LOTC was one of the best experiences I've had in a while and I met so many amazing people. And I really wish that lasted longer than it did, but I've had a lot going on in my personal life which I won't get into for obvious reasons. Thank you again to everyone who made my LOTC journey memorable, and I hope that someday, I'll be able to join you all again in rp. (Probably Aerin getting killed but oh well.) I hope you all have an amazing rest of your day. And if anyone ever needs anything, that being someone to talk to, or you just miss how amazing and funny I was, you can always reach out. I don't bite I promise (most of the time :D)  

Edited November 18, 2023 by Cosmopain

[Violet Medea 778]

Medea would be standing on her balcony when her owl flew onto the railing with a letter in its beak. Medea took the letter, opening it to read the content inside. As she red, she felt warm tears streaming down her cheeks as a bittersweet smile rested on her face, “I am happy to see that you are alive and well…and I wish you nothing but luck and fortune..Aerin..thank you for everything you’ve done for me, thank you for choosing and loving me…if we were to meet again in our next life and be together, I would have no objections. Do ne worry, I will care for our children and they will be well taken care of, just worry about yourself and stay safe on your journey..until we meet again my cherry blossom..” Medea would hold the letter close to her heart as she looked up at the clouds that were forever moving in the wind, understanding that times were changing and it was up to her now to make that change for the better.

 

OOC: Cosmo, I love you so so very much, meeting you and getting to rp with you was one of the best experiences I had on LOTC. I enjoyed very rp and every conversations we had, and don’t worry, I will keep messaging you and nothing you, you’ve become one of my closest friends and I’m holding onto you, that’s a promise <3