Fighting Your Violence With All My Compliance

[KeiaTypeBeat 3285]

 

CW: Family Violence

Dark, baggy eyes always watching me,
Chalky, scratchy voice saying I'll never be free
What did I do to deserve all this pain?
All I try to do is stay in my lane.

 

But your chains, they shackle me to the ground
Your walls, they echo with my every sound
I scream and I cry and I beg for help,
Until my throat is so dry I can hardly yelp.

 

You say you do this 'cuz you love me, oh how sinister,
All you have in your heart is ******* hate to administer.
Let's face it, brother, you don't see me as a sister,
You see yourself as God, and all I am is a sinner

 

Because you put me through hell,
And you don't want me to be well,
Bloody bubbly bruises they start to swell,
And my tears, my screams, you've learned to quell.

 

You've bought my silence with your violence
To you, I will be compliant

Because a new sound rings out in the halls today, 
And someday I will need to make you pay

 

The sounds of a little baby newborn girl, 
(Fresh into this world)
A sacred, holy gift, in need of adoration,
(Ha, if only he had the patience)

 

And my heartbeat stops
And I have new thoughts
A fresh baby girl so innocent and new,
And in this hell she's trapped with you?

 

My little baby brother, so innocent, so sweet, 
All grown up now, with a jaded anger I cannot beat
We can run away and hide, live on the street
We can find a nice family, who we were born to meet

 

Flee to a Silver City, with lights so white
Or to a dark and moody forest in the dead of the night
Live with the mortals, watch them all die
We could live good lives, find healthy reasons to cry 

 

Yet in this cell I sit,
Because i always throw fits,
But if I use my wit,
And all the tools in my kit,
Maybe just maybe I'll get away with it

 

Give you a new life, start things fresh
I'll be the only one who needs to feel depressed
I'll save you from the drama, the pain, and all of the trauma,
I'll save you how I wanted to save your dear mama

 

I see it all new, my mission is clear. 
I have to get that little girl far away from here
My brother is lost, fake dreams of his Father,
Repeating his abuse and taking it farther

 

Hush now Vivian, no need to be upset. 
Auntie's going to save you, on my life I will bet
I'll counter his violence with all my compliance,
And I'll never let him know the truth of my defiance