perduran Unless

[Yeetboy0206 1574]

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TW: Extremely depressed thoughts and mental illness. Hope you all enjoy! Maddock sure isn't lol. Anyways, will be online on Wednesday if anyone wants to look for where Maddock is.

 

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[!] Maddock Tam sits as he finished his poem in the middle of the night, scribbled in a fit of uncontrollable emotion amongst the chaos of his burgled home, as he sent it around Azuras. He didn't know who'd see it, and to be honest, he didn't think it would reach any of the people he hoped it would...but he still hoped...just a little. 

 

 

"Unless"

I look upon my people

And I slowly break apart.

So long I fought to keep them safe,

Yet now they break my heart.

 

The enemy of man is pride,

That parasite is inside all men.

It drives them to homicide

While pretending that it’s to benefit them.

 

That pride I see in so many of us,

In refusal to try and seek what’s right.

Now they all do wrong and cause a fuss

As I weep alone in the dead of night.

 

This home of mine now becomes a tomb,

For my dreams, loves, and community.

Emptied and pillaged, my own children’s room,

Yet I can’t bring myself to hate the crime against me.

 

For their anger is human, and their hatred of me,

It's something I can understand.

For you see, I hate myself more than anything,

For the failures to protect this land.

 

I apologize for my naive sins,

For believing the best in all of you

So much so that I didn’t see

The problems that will take me away from you.

 

I cannot eat, I cannot sleep.

My belly is empty, my heart is frail.

It is only a matter of time,

Before I reach the end of this sorry tale.

 

My heart beats slower by the day,

So I leave you with my very best

In well wishes for all of you, I pray,

Even as your hate spears through my chest.

 

I love you, Elly, I love you, Viv.

I love you, those I call family,

Whether Greye or Rovare, I pray you live,

And treat each other a little more kindly.

 

I love you, my sons, my daughters, my wife.

I love you, old friends, my Rex, and Mama.

Even if I remain hated in life,

I hope I left something of worth in the drama.

 

I wish I could see all of you one last time,

Even if you have nothing but swear words to say.

To have all of you in one room, regardless of crime,

And look upon you, just one more day.

 

I am sorry for failing you in how I die.

Writing now as I feel that forsaken caress,

But the many tethers that drove me to try,

Now lay cut and severed forever…Unless.

 

Unless people choose love and try to be kind,

Unless people forgive and choose to overcome crime

Unless people seek justice, not vengeance, to find

Unless people unite, or try one last time,

 

Unless I see clearly that there is still hope, 

Unless they still care about whether I die,

Unless my faith doesn’t make me a dope,

Unless they show me that we can still try

 

Unless all of you care a whole awful lot,

None of this is going to get better. It’s not.

 

And Maddock walked off, not really leaving. He just stepped outside the walls and went down to the river. He didn't know how much time he had left; his heart felt so weak. He had a couple days at best. But he knew he wanted to be outside and see the sunrise one last time. His mind was so foggy now. A healer would probably say that Maddock's mind was ill, that he wasn't thinking straight or understanding fully what was happening. It was like trying to ride a horse, but with incomplete instructions. He needed help.

 

Maddock started seeing things in the dark, glimpses of face he hadn't seen in years, faces that crept in, whispering in his ear of his failures, of his worthlessness, of his complete and total mistake of an existence. It was one particular face, the woman who was the closest thing to his mother he had, that made him lose what clarity he had. She didn't say a word, but Maddock didn't need to hear the words to know that Juni wished he stopped thinking he could ever be loved by her after all this time.

 

Maddock reached the riverbank. He sat down and just shut down, waiting. No one was coming to help...unless.

 

Edited January 19 by Yeetboy0206
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[Cheese 8883]

A letter was penned in reply to Maddock’s. Though the name of the author remained anonymous, each copy was signed with the letter J.

 

“I remember you small; how I watched you grow,
When we held your hands, paved every road.

 

The world has never been kind, especially not to us,
And yet we both tried to be better, to protect one we thought our son.

 

The world crashed down again on that dreadful bloody day,
We were abandoned, accosted, and forced to run away.

 

Building anew always takes time and care,
But it also takes virtue that lacks in your leader, Peter Rovare.

 

So heed me now, take these words from a poet of old,
Do not so blindly follow, Maddock, what you are told.

 

This is your warning, though I owe you none,
By your hand, your foolishness, your end has begun.

 

Unless you set yourself straight, to abandon those who have proved themselves unloyal,
You will find yourself dead and alone; the damage will be brutal.

 

Unless you detangle yourself from this delusion of salvation,
You will be a puppet, a traitor, who stands on nothing.

 

And I, from my new home, will watch the death of a fool I knew long ago,

And I will laugh, because I told you so.

 

—J.”

[Yeetboy0206 1574]

10 minutes ago, Cheese said:

A letter was penned in reply to Maddock’s. Though the name of the author remained anonymous, each copy was signed with the letter J.

 

“I remember you small; how I watched you grow,
When we held your hands, paved every road.

 

The world has never been kind, especially not to us,
And yet we both tried to be better, to protect one we thought our son.

 

The world crashed down again on that dreadful bloody day,
We were abandoned, accosted, and forced to run away.

 

Building anew always takes time and care,
But it also takes virtue that lacks in your leader, Peter Rovare.

 

So heed me now, take these words from a poet of old,
Do not so blindly follow, Maddock, what you are told.

 

This is your warning, though I owe you none,
By your hand, your foolishness, your end has begun.

 

Unless you set yourself straight, to abandon those who have proved themselves unloyal,
You will find yourself dead and alone; the damage will be brutal.

 

Unless you detangle yourself from this delusion of salvation,
You will be a puppet, a traitor, who stands on nothing.

 

And I, from my new home, will watch the death of a fool I knew long ago,

And I will laugh, because I told you so.

 

—J.”

A letter found its way to Maddock, dropping near him. He looked at it, and he slowly tilted over, before hitting the ground. The sad truth was that he didn't see the beginning; he didn't see the warning. He didn't see the love. He just saw the last two sentences and heard his Mama whisper in his ear a confirmation of one of his greatest fears, "I told you so." 

Edited January 19 by Yeetboy0206

[fizzyquack 564]

The pink lady looks upon the poem while walking down the road and sheds tears. The 'aheral would then grab a sheet of paper and begin writing a letter... Sitting upon the grass below.

 

"Aspects and spirits guide you Maddock."

[Yeetboy0206 1574]

Just now, fizzyquack said:

The pink lady looks upon the poem while walking down the road and sheds tears. The 'aheral would then grab a sheet of paper and begin writing a letter... Sitting upon the grass below.

 

"Aspects and spirits guide you Maddock."

Another letter joined Maddock, and he didn't look. He couldn't look. The voices grew louder, their venom dripping into his ears as he curled up in the dirt. 

[Travisty 1020]

52 minutes ago, Yeetboy0206 said:

Unless all of you care a whole awful lot,

None of this is going to get better. It’s not.

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did you jut quote the lorax bro

 

 

[Yeetboy0206 1574]

23 minutes ago, Travisty said:

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did you jut quote the lorax bro

 

 

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lol it’s a good quote!

 

[Nathaniel Maxwell 66]

The Confused Tigerasi read mindfully this strange poem that had found its way to him.  "I must learn who penned this piece. Much of this speaks to me and my people.", the Titan Grumbled, folding it neatly and storing it in a safe place.

[Spellblades 749]

A certain Veil Knight received the missive from... somewhere? Soon, he looked it over with a heavy heart. The last few months had almost driven the Maehr to extremes, so he made a decision. 

 

"I should probably check on him, huh.."

 

 

 

[Yeetboy0206 1574]

1 hour ago, ShadowSlashYT said:

A certain Veil Knight received the missive from... somewhere? Soon, he looked it over with a heavy heart. The last few months had almost driven the Maehr to extremes, so he made a decision. 

 

"I should probably check on him, huh.."

 

 

 

Maddock still lay at the riverbank. Time was counting down. Either salvation or damnation awaited him, no inbetweens.

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I'll be next online Wednesday for anyone who's looking for Maddock.

 

[Sir_omni 151]

A  careful and with some tears dripped over written letter was sent to madock as reply

“Dear madock I do not know you for long but as the moment we meet I sensed a care for you, the hope isn’t lost, it can be restored over time, and you are someone I belive that can if he believes in himself and stops blaming himself. You madock did nothing wrong no it’s the opposite you are doing the best, none of us cares so deeply for the land a but we all should. You madock are man of hope a man that can do something. So let’s this not  be the end reconsider the situation and make the best out of it, your are loved madock by evry singel one of us”

sigend by Gaston Massimo

”ps: I hope you liked the potato”

Edited January 20 by Sir_omni
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[Yeetboy0206 1574]

5 minutes ago, Sir_omni said:

A  careful and with some tears dripped over written letter was sent to madock as reply

“Dear madock I do not know you for long but as the moment we meet I sensed a care for you, the hope isn’t lost, it can be restored over time, and you are someone I belive that can if he e lives in himself and stops blaming himself. You madock did nothing wrong no it’s the opposite you are doing the best, none of us cares so deeply for the land a but we all should. You madock are man of hope a man that can do something. So let’s this be the end reconsider the situation and make the best out of it, your are lived madock by evry singer one of us”

sigend by Gaston Massimo

”ps: I hope you liked the potato”

Instead of finding a warm mouth and belly to make its home, the potato laid next to Maddock equally prone. It seemed there was no getting through. The voices were too loud. They grew more hateful, venomous. “It’s your fault, you didn’t do anything. You betrayed your family for the failure of a dream you called home. You didn’t make the world better, you helped make it harder for them. There’s nothing you can do to fix it now, they’ll hate you forever. No Mama, no Greyes, and what will your Cindy think when she looks upon your wretched face? You aren’t the man she fell in love with. You are not the man she once adored. You are not her kind and gentle husband, and you are not the love she knew before. You’ve left a trail of death in all your families, as you traded friends like objects you could use. Failed to many times to count on your hands, all because you wanted to bring them back to you. But no amount of improvement to Beleth, no amount of love for them will change that you are a spineless maggot, finally where he belongs, in the grave.” 

[KeiaTypeBeat 3277]

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Powerful stuff as always. Hang in there Maddock, you know not the waves your words make 

 

[Yeetboy0206 1574]

10 hours ago, RezRatKeia said:

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Powerful stuff as always. Hang in there Maddock, you know not the waves your words make 

 

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Thank you! Maddock does not indeed know what waves his words make lol.