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Dedicated to Iskander Constantine Basrid,
my dear son, who shall live on.
I am not a storyteller of fiction, but this tale is more true than it is fictitious,
despite the fantastical conditions.
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A lowlands road where children play,
artist’s rendition, ca 1928
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FOREWORD
AMIDST THE ENIGMATIC DANCE OF LIFE, death and the unheard whispers that permeate the universe’s masque which a child wonders about, a tale unravels, threading through the labyrinthine paths that a needle takes, verily pricking one's innocence with spilt blood and worry. It is a narrative interwoven with the essence of a being’s heavy heart, where the ethereal and the mundane converge, beckoning the seeker to partake in its riddles. A cruel mistress it is, surely; I know her well. That is to say, we engage in the affair of knowing, for the price of the journey that comes with upon the “white road.” Moreover, we hope it trails to the holy road, where each and every person belongs individually.
The way is already set to the rocks, the sun, the darkness, and the embers. The impoverished spirit swivels, to turn their back from the road, but they shan’t escape it; their blindness does not negate what is there. Even some rich and arrogant men would confess “I too must halt. I too stop before the white road.” Here, they travel eternally until they are astray with little compass backwards, leading them to folly or death.
All roads lead home. It is here and it has ever been here, and will ever be here. One could come back not by seeking it, rather by looking, finding it at a glance, by turning their eyes to the right or left or looking ahead. The rest is present but unseen, albeit presumed. What has to be, what will always be, is here.
At any one moment all my life is here. Let any moment change, and I would find myself in a new place, and that would indeed change my life. I would live then in a new life; but now, here, all my life is. It is my belonging, and my birthright, to where I stand and plant my feet. Here in the tapestry of each year according to time, I walk. I see it clearly in all my thoughts, all my sensations, all my feelings. At any moment everything and naught is clear to me. So clear that if I were to be given a clear cup of water to drink I could drink and drink and never be thirsty, though I would still drink again... The water is never pure, nay, there is always some mud; it only appears so clear. Such is life.
Simply, life is the road which stretches outward; life is the water; life is the sun, and the sun shines on my soul. It does not make me run from life, it makes me seek to live it. Water passes through the body of the earth and eventually returns to it. Like the water from the earth, life flows into us. All we are, what we have, is only what is in us, but we absorb what we are made of. We are the sun, our essence is the sun. All we imagine to be is in us. In that way, we are not different. We are all Man. We are the same, cursed. We are still the One. This is our truth. It is the One. It is Life. It is the discriminatory glances they do not recognize, glancing within the mirror which reflects the dark end of the spectrum, and it is the ultimate tragedy.
And here, our chronicle embarks.
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A PILGRIM COMES TO WHERE it seems to him a long way must be gone to regain the road to the light, and the white road, that which appears to bring one home. Yet, there is no such thing as a truly white road. All roads lead home, and all homes lead back to the road. So he walks on and on. It seems that he has no farther to go to find himself and his home, yet he continues to walk; he seeks more.
When his feet tire and his eyes remain eager for the sights he has not already imagined, he comes to a great white church. It lacks windows and spires, and is without a door, resembling a box. Before his imagination constructs the inside, it as if he has lost himself in it; he asks himself:
“Why was I here?”
and he asks,
“Was I on the right road on the wrong road?”
and he asks,
“Was I in the right place, or the wrong place?”
and he asks,
“Was I in the water or the embers to begin with?”
He does not know. As his eyes cling to the church whilst his soul wanders miles offward, he clutches a book he has not written in. It is his own to keep and he retrieves a charcoal pencil and writes:The Book of Death.
He walks to and fro but cannot escape the church's exterior garden. It is everywhere and nowhere all at once, much like the road. It lurks, and like a fractal, repeats without a corner or endpoint.
The pilgrim, in his bewilderment, keeps walking. He walks for days, through the nights too. There are no breaks or rests or meals. His hunger lies with the road. Everywhere the pilgrim goes, he sees himself without listening, and he sees the white church without a door.
Why had he begun? Where was he going? Where did he begin?
The pilgrim does not know, and he keeps walking.
He wants to be back to health and unthought. He wants to cry, to plead to his master, “Please! I do not wish to know! I wish to live in the light, so that it blinds me more than the dark, or church would.”
But it is too late. He has already taken the step, and he has already drank the clear water. He wonders if his master is dead.
He wants to get back to the way he used to live.
He wants to be found, even if his master is dead.
Then, suddenly, without knowing why, without giving a thought to anything else, the pilgrim walks to the side of the white church. He stands there looking at it.
“I am here,” he says to himself. “I am lost, but I am here.”
He thinks: “This has been my way. I know it...”
He keeps on looking at the church.
The road, his road.
For thirty minutes he stands there.
And for the first time, he recognizes a silhouette within the walls, which he recognizes are, in fact, paper thin. Reluctantly, he treads closer, and closer, until he can feel his breath against the cool stone, and he steps through the exit whence he’d come — the one he had not seen and everyone ends — to the church. A child is being baptized.
He is here, and he is not. There is nothing he can do.
He peers to a plaque aloft which reads in a language he doesn't know, in a typeface like his own handwriting.
“God is asking me to tell my master and prophesy that he has made the clay, but He is making a book out of a bowel.” He murmurs to himself, and being unable to finish his thought whilst snickering, another voice chimes:
“God is ‘good’ as we put it. He is everything, and this is the beginning.”
“But there is no beginning. It has passed…” The pilgrim remarks, preceding his alarm from another soul that recognizes his own strife. He turns then to face a man who resembles him closely, but not so much that they were quintessentially indistinguishable. He was older by years.
The pilgrim found his mouth hanging agape there, gawking just as he had for thirty minutes, thirty minutes which he now did not recollect.
“O bold child, you are not to find words. I will teach you to teach yourself.” Murmured the old man.
“I believe you,” said the pilgrim. “I will be a teacher. You will teach me, for you have made me a student.”
With this, he was taken in to view the baptism and eat, drink and bathe comfortably. The pilgrim consumed his rations scarcely and only filled the tub halfway. He waited to meet the old man, who asked him, “Is there anything in this world which you do not understand?”
The pilgrim sat in a small chamber. “There is nothing that I do not understand. There is nothing that I do not know.”
“Say that then,” said the old man, “And you shall find love and money.”
He knew the old man did not believe him, and he could not blame him, for he did not believe himself. He knew not what he believed, only that his feet ached to move once more, and for what reason? This, he also did not know. There was a transitory goal, like most goals were, but that was not here; it was elsewhere, and elsewhere he was not.
“I do not seek love.” He said.
“Then what do you seek?”
“What I seek is knowing what I have sought. I do not know, I’m afraid.”
“I see.” Mumbled the man.
“Now, there is something else,” said the pilgrim. “I am ashamed to say, but I must say, I am also afraid of death. I fear you may kill me when I have told you about the white road to the light and the dirtiness of my soft palms.”
“What!?” said the old man, astonished. “Why should I kill you, when I know you have told me what you have? When you have exclaimed the truth with foolhardiness? When I have taken you in, fed you, saved you, and you have sought to kill yourself?”
“I speak with you, without knowing you. If I had never said a word to you before, you would find this strange. But now I am speaking of me to you, not knowing you, as if I had. You are more frightful to me than I to you as I live in the unknown. I do not know if you have lived many years, or just the right number.”
“Why, you are a clever fellow.”“Leave it to the life which my master led; it is not my own to take claim to. He taught me all that I know. Everything.” He confessed.
“Then what life will you lead?”
“I will live for a long time to come, I suppose.”
“Not if you let yourself die.”
“I do not intend to. I don’t wish to… I told you I feared it.”
“Oh, but it may consume you all the same. The light and dark, they are the same coin, boy. No different from you and I, only different moments surrounding the same place. This very church — it was once grand, and now it is not. But that does not matter. It is the past, and we may not change it. We live here, pray here, die here.”
“And you do not rebuild?”
“We do. Always, and always.” The old man answered without a thought.
“And you do not wander elsewhere?”
“Where else is there to wander? All roads lead home.”
“I lost my home, long ago.” He thought aloud.
“Then you are not from here.” The old man lofted a brow.
“No.” He answered, nigh snapping.
“You are not from anywhere. You are everything, at every time and place, at the same time. There is nothing that you have not seen and realized, and there is nothing that you will not see…” The old man paused. “...That is what you believe. That is what your master told you.”
“How might you predict it that way?”
“Because I am similar to you. I drank and stepped onto the white road as well.”
“Then…” But before he could finish, he had already forgotten what he would say. The clock, although ever slow, ticked closer and closer with each second to when he reckoned he would leave. Of course, he did not know, and neither did the old man, even that book he carried. Although the road had been set before him, he had yet to cross it. That remained his responsibility.
The path was predicated with footsteps shaped around the soles of his shoes, but he had not crossed it; no, it was not fully decided, only presumed. He was free of fate, yet trapped within himself, trapped to drink and drink without the pleasure of thirst.
“...You are wondering what you shall do when you leave here.” The old man had read his mind. He looked up, locking eyes.
“I wonder if I shall find my way back.”
“There is no place to find your way to. This is it.”
“And if I’d like more?”
“Then you may drink and rejoice and face tragedy, but never stop treading onward…” He trailed off. “-But you will feel no differently. You walk without changing, and look while thinking too much to see. You carried a book here, but your pencil was sharpened so that I knew you had not written.”“I meant to.”
“Regardless.”
“I’ve faced temptation. I felt it would be inappropriate to write of something that attracted me, much like a moth to a flame, more than what I knew.”
“You will never write again if you rely solely on certainties. You will find certainties through assumptions made to be true, fulfilling the footsteps in the footsteps of your ancestors. Of your master, and predecessors.”
“I don’t recall them.”
“Then learn. We live here, but rejoice about the past without dwelling. That does not mean we act willfully ignorant. We walk for a reason, not simply to walk.”
The pilgrim paused. He had not considered this. He had indulged in historical pursuits prior, but they went no further than impersonal intellectualism. Now, his eyes turned red; he had not meant to cry. Suddenly, there was a handkerchief atop his palm, and he looked up to see the old man looming above. Five minutes had passed. He ought to go.
“I don’t remember the way… Who I was… Who I ought to be…” He whispered.
“You will find it with time. You may stay here if you wish. I believe you are clever, and that you might make a change.”
The pilgrim shook his head. “I cannot. I must continue now, but with purpose…”
“You have a look in your eye as if you remembered something. Do tell.” The old man pried, offering a hand as they both stood up together.
“...I had seen the sun before I came here. And I had strayed from the road, so far that there was nothing but land, and a lack of anything else surrounding me… Strangely, I did not care.”
“And?”
“And I had asked myself, had I gone the right way, or wrong?”
“Neither.”
“Yes, but it was very dark, so hard to tell.”
“Did you rest?”
“No, I continued to walk.” They were walking now, whence he’d come and entered the church days hitherto. Whence he’d crossed onto the road, and looked into the walls to the baptism of the child, a child he saw himself in.
“And when the sun came out?” Asked the old man.
“I remember the sun,” he smiled. “How its light, like that of a fire-fly, floated from the sky, through the drapes, and faded, and blew away. Then it becomes dark, but in a minute it is light again. I do not remember whether I sought to thank the fire-fly for this, or to be angry with it.”
The old man shook his head and scoffed. “You do not blame God for His absence. A partial creator would be an evil one… lest you are God, which I do not reckon you are, you do not understand the fireflies.” He considered his own words, it seemed. “They must be off galavanting on their own travels too. It is the evil men, who you blame, the ones who do not act as students.”
“...I mean it metaphorically.”
“And so do I.”
“Hmph.” Grumbled the pilgrim, but not out of ignorance, rather perturbation of what he had already known. “I am still a Creatorist.”
“Yes, I know.”
Exchanging meaningless talk and pleasantries foregone prior to the rest of the trail, the duo arrived at the threshold where the pilgrim had arrived, a baptism being hosted the same. It was as if nothing had changed, nothing had.
The pilgrim takes a step.
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POSTFACE
WHEN I NEXT OPENED MY MAW, I felt fresh air inflate my lungs, which dried the moisture from a muddy path and the water I had consumed. It had been months since I’d seen winter, or drifted to a hearth; that day I drew onward to a place I had not been and found a house with a plaque which bore my name and a book titled Death. It had waited for my arrival, my deja vu. When I tread within, I found there to be a dancing flame.
Dancing and dancing, in spite of its surroundings, in spite of its fleeting nature. It paid no mind, and I considered it a fool. Temptation burned me to put it out there, though before I could, I thought better and left; it would be inescapable otherwise, lest I was not a fool (certainly, I am.)
By the time I awoke in the night, fireflies scattered the sky much like specks of tiny sunlight. I smiled, remembering what a friend had once told me, and continued to pray for equilibrium during the eclipse. Soon, thereafter, I returned to the white, snowy road, and ventured back home to my son where I had made another home. I do not partake in wishful thinking, but I hold arduous faith in the white road I had oft taken in my youth to draw change from a cruel era. Echoes of God, we are, and a harbinger of death: humanity. But, that never stopped victory, nor hope, nor enigma filling us to the brim until we spill into our kin’s essence, one — that way — together at that, simultaneously a downfall.
With each passing moment, I felt the weight and rush of responsibility upon my shoulders. I was not just a bystander in the universe; I was an active participant, a vessel of light and dark, of class and exile and a mirror of the divine for all its sin and power that came with.
Humanity, with all its flaws and virtues, embodied the paradox of existence. We were capable of great acts of love, yet so indulgent in our promotion of suffering and instrumental evil. Despite this, I look around, knowing I’m alive; here is what matters and shall we never forget what preceded our place in the road. The world deserves that.
I took a step too. The sacrifice was worth it.
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Irene Basrid, Countess-Consort of Susa
Published 1929 FA
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Spoilerlive footage of irene writing this (and me), wrote this when i felt like i was dying but now i feel better enough to post it so we ball. big thanks to @esotericasto being a real one and reading excerpts of this when it was even more insane
yes this is a 100% unironic schizopost, dont @ me.
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imagine MY expression when i had ALL OF THESE MODS INSTALLED ON 1.19 and my face when 1.19 doesn't WORK ON AEVOS
0/10 server!!!
Spoilerunironically S tier list for mods though, had some i didn't know about it so thanks king!
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MC Name:
RainedropF
Character's Name:
Túrin Ibarellan
Character's Age:
old
Character's Race:
High Elf
What magic(s) will you be learning?
Fire Evocation
Teacher's MC Name:
JoanofArc
Teacher's RP Name:
Éowyn Nullivari-Ibarellan
Do you have a magic(s) you are dropping due to this app? If so, link it:
No
Do you agree to keep Story updated on the status of your magic app?:
Yes
Are you aware that if this magic is shelved, it will be unavailable to use?
Yes
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An artist's portrayal of Mount Garmont
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WHAT STANDS NOW as a historic monument to the past is MOUNT GARMONT, left in ruins since the Acrean Revolution. If you have dwelled in Petra longer than a month, then you would recognize its appellation in any official release or ceremony. It stands at the summit of Petra — overseeing the growing Commonwealth from the North.
Although its deadened state is naught glamorous, I hope that in documenting its history, the legacy may be honored and revered so our children, and their children, may know what preceded them. Akin to a family's ancestor, these things require a modicum of respect and acknowledgement. In spite of its name living on, its actual life deserves the same action as aforementioned.
H I S T O R Y
INITIALLY BUILT alongside the County of Mardon in the mid 1850s, under the last Emperor Philip III’s reign, known then as “Castle Garmont,” it stood as both a strategic keep and silhouette to guide travelers and citizenry alike. Occupied by who would grow to become King Frederick I in wake of the brother’s war, Garmont acted as the focal point of Mardon.
Architects and portrayals suggest that the Castle’s appearance was one to be nigh envied. It reflected the County itself, predominantly made up of sturdy stonework and painted tile along with terracotta. The roof was not wholly arched, flat, rather and made up of crenelated parapets and battlements, usually reserved for sky reaching walls of manifold nations nowadays.
Regardless, the Castle was not built for excitement and allure alone, notwithstanding the fact that it was the King-to-be’s home, Garmont provided an advantage to defenders, come wartime. Given its high altitude, guards would be able to spot invading forces long before they came anywhere near enough to properly attack (ranged or otherwise.) This aided the soldiers of Mardon to potentially ready the full aptitude of their military, allowing no room for an abrupt ambush.
The Castle Garmont remained and was blessed with peace for years to come, throughout the Brother’s War and after that, up until the Acrean Revolution.
T H E F A L L
CONTEXTUAL UNDERSTANDING is needed to truly see the nuance of what came next. Amidst the revolution, Petran settlers (predominantly of Temesch blood, or those who had sworn loyalty) began to flood Mardon, which had been abandoned since the Brother’s War several years prior. Yet, some soldiery remained, guarding the pinnacle of a County (even a home) bygone. Many of these men were without proper leadership, and what kept them from anarchy was an eagerness to heed Oren's command, as loyalists.
During the Acrean Revolution, the late King Frederick’s first son and namesake, Frederick Aurelian, sought refuge in Garmont. As Acre easily overpowered the remnants of the Kingdom of Oren on its last limb, it is to be speculated that Frederick Aurelian foresaw that they would reach Castle Garmont next.
Before fleeing, or dying, there is one certain thing that the soldiers of the time saw: forces in numbers incoming. Naturally, the immediate assumption was that it was surely Acre. As a result, Frederick Aurelian provided a final order prior to his disappearance, to burn Castle Garmont before the enemies reached it. This was to prevent them taking control of it in the following regime.
Haplessly, for the next three days to come, an inferno enveloped Castle Garmont, leaving the ruins we know today, and henceforth known as the "BURNING OF MOUNT GARMONT." If he had known that it was instead the Petran settlers, then perhaps the outcome would have differed. However, its initial advantage came to be its downfall, a lack of communication providing no further help either.
By the time the Petrans arrived at the mountain's peak, the new Regent Paul Salvian stated that it would be honored, over the sound of coughing and sickness from the smoke. Since then, Dame Catherine of Furnestock (the late King’s sister) has verified that it has and will.
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IT WOULD BE foolish to dwell on the philosophy of the decisions of dead predecessors, but we may concur that the actions taken were quite unfortunate. Many adults who are now active in the decisions of Petra’s future were children who grew up in a realm which only knew war. The Acrean Revolution promised a new, better era; we came to witness that this did not survive the test of time under the Harvest Confederacy.
Although endings are oft inevitable, death in such a way as Castle Garmont’s may be prevented in the future by the guidance of its ruins, and the people within. I foresee that there are no guarantees, but we may rebuild and look to the reminders of our past to avoid similar mistakes. Hence, the soul of Garmont stays with our nation; we are not helpless.
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"Finally, it's out..."
The signatory IRENE declared with a huff, recollecting the Saint's Day prior and cramming which followed. She rose sluggishly from her desk strewn with papers, freed from her work... if only for a fleeting moment.
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[!] A printed flyer was distributed across Orenian territory, neatly handwritten with an illustration to match.
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ISSUED BY PRINCESS FRANCISCA IRENE NOVELLEN
12th OF HARREN’S FOLLEY, 1883SORT OF ESTABLISHED IN 1879, the SCHOLARS BOOK CLUB served a group of best friends, initially prompted by Countess Halstaig Sadie O’Rourke and myself (Fran!) via inspiring speech. It brought inspiration to not only be exciting, but to pursue more things and share commonness between everybody (like any club probably should.) To put it simply, it aided the process and motivation to potentially write and absorb books, which there have been a dangerous lack of in our Kingdom [books.]
Since then, there has been a pause due to the isolation and stillness during the recent war which is now over. Now, it may finally truly launch especially amidst Aster Calia, hence this missive being released. The SCHOLARS BOOK CLUB aims to bring the world to our fingertips. In fact, my old tutor once said that the ability to read is very, VERY powerful. As a result, it is my belief that everyone should read.
With its publicity, I — Francisca Irene Novellen, Princess, writer, and ward alongside the other founders — hereby announce the real start of this club, open to most.
You may ask, “How does this differ from any other old school?” That is a wonderful question. There is autonomy sought in this very club, to acquire more knowledge and impressive wit. That is the goal, after all. If we do not have our context of times before, then how can we do good things in the future?
Although most books have been lost from the Stassion Court library, I hope to see more [books] through this exclusive club. To join, there are two requirements.
You must be a kid.
You must like to learn and read, or learn to read.
If this applies to you and you are a lovely person, then please travel to Castle Stassion and speak with me or reply and send a bird to the Royal Aviary. I tend to the birds, so your letter will reach us. Future meetings will be hosted and sponsored by BOOKS & BOOKS in Florentine thanks to generous donations from the Countess Halstaig and Mischa Falcone.
BEST WISHES
Her Royal Highness Princess Francisca Irene Novellen
SpoilerHey there, send me a bird, respond with a letter or hit me up to roleplay sometime. My discord is rainedropf#8659
No drama will be accepted or court ladder climbing; this is just a cool little RP centric idea I had several weeks ago for writing stuff, reading, poetry, et cetera. A discord server may be in the works if you are interested.
first unofficial meeting :)
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16 minutes ago, DrakeHaze. said:
An LoTC supervillain was sent to the shadow realm and you want the mod team to start a revolution.
Although a call to action may be silly in premise, considering we've seen it exhausted many times to no avail, you cannot discount the point and rebuttal of the post. To say that Twi was maniacally laughing about ruining these players real lives is a biased oversimplification. Although she may have been competitive, and even joked about conquering their communities, not only have other nation's done the same (if not a lot worse) she did her best to make amends with Haelunor OOCly with several screenshots to attest. There may have been OOC bickering, but when can you name a war that hasn't had some roots that aren't solely in RP? Warring a nation does not equate with harassing real people.
Why do you excuse the actions of other nations, including about half the server, refusing to consider that Twi isn't that bad in the grand scheme of things. Perhaps there is a screenshot of her saying "kys," or something along those lines. Anyone with half a brain can comprehend the fact that its in a joking, sarcastic manner. I won't claim that Twinny was faultless as a NL, however I will not pretend that administration has not only fumbled this verdict but shown their virtue signalling hypocrisy wholeheartedly.
Moderation should not be an excuse to remove communities abruptly based on lackluster evidence. We still have no idea about the victims, or damning proof. Cropped screenshots are usually not difficult to provide, and we have seen that courtesy for much more heinous ban reports.
Free Twi, or if you won't do that, then hold the majority of the server accountable for the supposed toxicity that she displayed. We can all count a few places and people a whole lot worse off the top of our heads alone. Those people that still roam the server freely, without any deserved consequences. That much needs to be recognized, truly.
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Twinny’s Ban
As of approximately an hour ago, Twinndolin (Twi or Twinny to some), the NL of Celia’nor was banned without an explanation. Some of you may already be aware of this. The ban is for 6 months without expectation of being unbanned, on the grounds of a Community Guideline Violation for "Harassment." What is the issue with this? Problematic players should be removed from our community, after all.
The fallacious nature of this ban becomes evident when we realize that this is the extent of the knowledge we have. No moderator knows why she was banned. No mod manager was consulted on the ban for this supposed harassment. In fact, they did not even know why. There was no consultation beforehand with an influential player in the community. No follow-up to answer the common question: why?
It's absurd to consider this proper procedure in any way, shape, or form. And highly unlikely for those who know her. Twinndolin remains anonymous, regarding her voice, opting for text-to-speech. It's rather difficult to justify such intense harassment when using a robot. And even then, she does not leave the confines of her discord and has no logs whatsoever regarding what she says through said bot. So what did she do that deserved a six-month harassment ban?
A message through a forum would be quite sufficient with some evidence to show what she did wrong. But here’s an addition to this ban. This Community Guideline Violation comes with the added fact that she is forum banned. Locked off from the community and anathematized from interaction with others. What terrible thing could she have said to deserve a forum ban to block communication?
To add to the strangeness of the timing, the heir of Celia’nor was unbanned the day prior to Twinndolin’s ban. The timing works perfectly for an easy transition from the current NL to the next NL. Maybe even shows the mod admin's preferred NL in charge. Perhaps that might be an answer as to why she was banned.
To sum it up, no moderator knows why she was banned. No manager knows why she was banned. She is forum banned, so she has no way of hearing formally besides discord, in which no message was sent. A Community Leader and friend to many completely silenced just in time for a preferred player to take the mantle of the nation.
Silence is the best way to treat those you do not like. Every avenue Twinndolin could seek was taken from her, and she has to pry away to understand so much of the reason she is banned. Banned by one person who never particularly liked her or wanted her to achieve.
Its poor treatment of the average player and the server itself. Bias within the mod team has been a hot topic, but we can’t begin to argue either side when we don’t know what she did. She doesn’t know what she did, and it was not a mod decision. It was a decision by the admin alone. Admin bans like this should not be done on a whim, and we may all unanimously agree on that aspect. There needs to be a valid rationale and proof behind it.
Please, itdontmatta, clarify this situation. Until then, we can only make fair assumptions from what we’ve gathered. Give us the reason why she was banned.
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Within an ivory prison locked from the inside, a messenger bird soared into the royal aviary housing beloved birds. There, a girl found solace in tending to them. She plucked the invitation without hesitance and skimmed the contents... Everything had to be out of her favor, didn't it?
FRANCISCA brooded that day, visage riddled with sorrow.
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1 minute ago, JoanOfArc said:
An Oyashiman woman weeped over the loss of her favorite Baron that she fangirled over.... Her, along with the twenty thousand other women in the Barony of Acre and the Kingdom of Oren beyond. How could life be so cruel that they could take such a handsome, strong, and brave man like Hannes de Vilan, Baron of Acre, and Lord Commander of the Petran Legion.
Matteo clenched his jaw and seethed; no one knew over what exactly...
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The Anti-Treason Ordinance
17th Sigismund's End
1879
With a marked increase in treasonous activities against the Kingdom of Oren by rogue agents, including rioting and threats of assassination towards members of the nobility, the Lord Inquisitor has deemed it fit to enact a policy regarding anti-Orenian activities within the climate. Treason, as defined in the Revised Orenian Code, but not limited to, is:
- 204.01 - Treason and Sedition Act (1751): On Treason
- 204.01A - Where an individual commits acts with the intent to compromise the integrity of the Crown and its constituent institutions by waging insurrection and seeking the destruction of the Orenian State by impugning the character and person of the Crown through subversive means such as collusion with enemy entities and actors against the State, this shall be the crime of treason.
- 204.01B - Where an individual commits acts with the intent to compromise the integrity of the Crown and its constituent institutions by waging insurrection, committing acts of violence, or raising flag in rebellion against the state, this shall be the crime of treason.
This policy will include a swift crackdown on any supposed threats against the Crown and its citizens, ranging from slander of the Crown to violent terrorist attacks. We will give Inquisitor's complete authority to carry out justice as they see fit in order to bring terror and its associates to justice as soon as possible.
This policy is unable to be completed by the Royal Inquisition alone. We require the assistance of all of the Kingdom of Oren to effectively police against traitors. If you know of anyone related to, committing or attempting to commit subversive actions against the State, you are required to send a letter directly to the Royal Inquisition or report this behavior directly to any member of the Inquisition so we may review the evidence and deem the appropriate action. Failure to report any evidence you may have knowledge of will be deemed as being complicit in the crime.
Please direct all inquiries and reports to the Lord Inquisitor’s office. With unity and virtue, we may rid the world of evil and continue the peace we live in.
ISSUED IN THE YEAR OF OUR LORD; 1879
Matteo Basrid
Lord Inquisitor
Helen Basrid
Inquisitor Secretary
SpoilerSend all reports and inquiries through forum messages in the form of a letter addressed to the Lord Inquisitor to me. Aviary messages also work.
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SpoilerMORNING GLORIES
Theodosia Illaena O’Rourke
1826 - 1876
“You have to be strong… You’ll be okay.
We’ve gotten this far, hm?”
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It started when an arrow soared across the cloudless summer sky, and a scream followed, echoing throughout the ivory capital; the sniper was unseen but the aftermath was oh too evident.
A man keeled forward with it lodged between his spine and shoulder blade. Soon, a cacophony of deafening yells and chaos ensued– medics were called, army men paraded about to find the perpetrator.
The man was alright, and the nigh assassin had escaped, but the source of that scream– a girl, was not. Her name was Theodosia, aged only five. Haunted and disturbed after her young father’s almost-death, she cried and cried till her eyes were dry. Then, she’d hold her head high and muster a relieved, meager smile in the wake of his survival. He lived, and life went on.
That was the day she was reminded of the transience of being; anything could be taken in the blink of an eye. Although she may not have realized it then, the aftermath was oh too evident.
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“AAAH!” She once shrieked, aged eight. Two figures, masked and foreboding, had entered the Augustine Palace prior and held her mother as a hostage; she and the other noble children were mere helpless witnesses to the horror afar. That is until she was stabbed in the leg, around her calf.
She’d be alright, as would her mother, but a limp followed her forever thereafter– as did a cane gripped in her right palm. As did questions about the aforementioned things: irksome questions, and judgemental stares she was never unbeknownst to.
So, Theodosia changed; she tripped and stumbled, staggered with little grace, but she gathered her bearings and adopted an almost-normal gait. Similarly, she stifled her Northern accent to take a voice fitting of an Orenian peer.
She wasn’t weak; she wasn’t feeble or odd. There was no room to be. No room to be at all.
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Seven years preceding the world unraveling and her passing, the solemn Countess grew perturbed; those times she wondered what her mother would think of her now. After all, she’d gotten past the age whence her mother had died. And what a strange thing it was, for in her youth she’d sought to divert the blame to her.
Theodosia had sworn she would develop to be better, stronger, different. Yet, here she was, with her estranged father’s face, and the worst of each parent. Distant as ever, when had she become so cynical, so cold? It was the curse of her lineage, to transform into husks of bright-eyed adolescents, she figured. She wasn’t sure, though. Psychology had never been her particular forte.
Time slipped away too quickly, at this pace, at this point. Just yesterday, she could swear that she was a nomadic teen escaping that drafty estate halfway to nowhere to end up somewhere she knew not. Somewhere unfamiliar, somehow feeling more welcomed than she ever did at home. Though she’d never ever admit it, Theodosia resembled her father in that respect. It was her way of connection, and-
“Countess.” A voice called out, abruptly removing her from her absent-minded reverie. A red haired girl sat across, maturing to that of a young woman — maybe seventeen, eighteen now.
“Oh, Cass.” She spoke up, clearing her throat. They sat opposite within the exterior greenhouse, light pouring within upon the flowers freely rising in midday’s wake.
“What were you saying?” Cassia asked, offering a slight smile.
Theodosia reflected it, a bittersweet edge remaining which she couldn’t conceal.
“...Botany, the likes,” — “My sister would know it better than me. It’s a nice pastime though, at least when there’s less time to paint. Sadie is at that age.” She mused in part jest, eyeing the blooming morning glories across.
Her ward snickered. “Oh, I know. She’s what, two now?”
“Almost three.”
“My, my…” She trailed off, faintly amused. Silence festered thereafter.
Theodosia ruminated. She interrupted the quietude with a casual notion. “You’re lucky.”
Cassia frowned. “How so?”
“You have a lot of free time. More so than most. Not just your age, just… generally.”
“I’d say that’s too much time.” She jested with a half-smile.
“And that is a wonderful problem, dear.”
“I know… What are those, right there?” The ward diverted the subject, gesturing to the blooming flowers facing them.
“Hm,” Theodosia squinted. “Morning glories. Not the most popular flower, but they grow well in the West and I like them quite a lot.”
“Why are they… rejected?”
“I didn’t say rejected.” She retorted, rising with a quiet huff on the way. “Only that they’re unpopular.”“Sorry, I just assumed–”
“It's a valid assumption.”
“Would you tell me about them, then?”
“They’re not particularly special.” She remarked, withdrawing a pair of scissors from a bag, briskly snipping a flower which had begun to wilt.
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Beads of sweat lined the Lady’s visage, derived from the heat exuded from a bonfire ablaze which she sat beside. How long had it been? Five hours? Six? She’d lost track hours ago, only that she must wait. Patience and endurance were virtues, after all; waiting brought about better times.
"Waiting brought about better times…"
Better times…
Nothing ever seemed to happen, perhaps she was just asking for heatstroke in the quieter hours of the night. It wasn’t fair.
She gazed to her left, toward her best friend. At least he made things a little lovelier, although they spoke little amidst the trial. Ioannes Temesch, Owynist Lector to be. He too stared into the flames, wiping his brows, and she couldn’t help but wonder if she was missing the point somehow. Perhaps he knew, he was really smart.
Before she could speak up, the seventh hour had passed, announced by an exuberant Hyspian calling out for “mijo, mija!”
Her pensive musings were flushed away with the best drink of water and hardtack she’d ever had. It was ironic, an Adunian on the Path of Owyn against her very own ancestor; she prayed she wasn’t like her forefather Harren even if most treated her in such a way till proven wrong. That Temesch boy didn’t mind, and they were the best of friends.
It was only when Du Loc turned so tumultuous and her responsibility turned out to be too much that Theo visited less and less.
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“They don’t bloom for long.” She explained, grasping the flowerbud betwixt her digits and swiveling toward Cassia. “Only for a day, mornings even.” She chuckled.
The girl nodded with a smile, quizzical looking.
“I suppose that’s why some people don’t like them. They’re short lived, see- this one’s starting to wilt.” She said, gesturing to the flower in hand.
“That’s a shame…”
“It is. But they’re very pretty living, don’t you think?” She chimed, tucking the flower into Cassia’s jacket akin to a makeshift corsage.
“Some deeper meaning in that…”
“Probably. Don’t worry about that stuff too much, though. Enjoy the flowers.” She joked, faintly chuckling as she reclined to gingerly sit down beside her.
“I won’t. You tell me to be careful though.”
Theodosia paused, her smile diminishing momentarily. “That’s a little different, dear.”
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For survival, we do what we must. A friend had told her, or something like that. Steadfast, she had abided by this rule; strangely enough it often seemed that most disregarded the idea entirely.
People disappeared, venturing across Almaris and acting unruly, the world ever enveloped in chaos. Wars sprung up like errant moths drawn to the light, even her very own antagonized uncle had briefly treated her as an enemy, and vice versa. They made no sense; the very world made no sense.
She didn’t want that everlasting worry for her children, as hands-off as she was. It was the sole guidance she gave the lot of them: cooping the kids up within the confines of Halstaig. Nevertheless, they found their way as rebellious children do. Everett snuck out from the premises more times than she could count on her hands, and Alexandrina was too outdoorsy to be bound.
Was she a bad mother? Was she insane? She’d tried her luck at a family as a wife, as a mother, as a sister, a Countess; some of it hadn’t been her choice at all. Or, was there no point whatsoever; how different would her life vary had she been the second child born?
She wondered, notwithstanding the melancholy and doing what she must. Even if that meant neglecting her values or being the “villain,” even if it meant growing into the icy effigy she’d inadvertently become. The alternative was much worse, at least Theodosia covertly hoped. It couldn’t be all for nothing, her mistakes, her clashes, her struggle and strife eternally awaiting a happy ending.
Though, those storybook conclusions were all made up for her kids, leaving her unsure.
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Leopold de Ruyter was a man, her husband specifically. It would be plain incorrect to hail the couple as “madly in love,” or romantic platitudes akin to it, but they shared a mutual respect. He wasn’t around often, and just this once…
Theodosia was alright with that. Had she wed for the sake of love, perhaps she would very much mind it, but their union could better be described as utter convenience.
He was a scholar, she was Countess. She spared no sentimentalism over it. She couldn’t. She was too old for rose tinted romanticism to view the world from.
There came a time when the question of children and marriage became a tad too much to bear. She knew how her younger self would judge her now, but couldn’t bring herself to grow too bothered over her state. She was lucky, more so than many— a lady with everything a proper lady ought to desire.
And yet, when she stared over the balcony at night like a cliffside overlooking the abyss, a sudden wave of dissatisfaction was unshakeable. Of failure, and every other bad thing in between. Where would she be were it not for her luck? What had she truly achieved? What of everything she’d not yet done, and wouldn’t do? Would anyone remember her name or wonder about her well-being after she died? Was she any more than a title mentioned in a brief tabloid?
Had she failed?
Was she a failure?
It was her fault. It had to be.
Her decisions, her idle idealism awaiting foolhardy hopes. A foolish woman with foolish children, only known by her title and home.
Theodosia crumpled to the ground, overcome by smothered grief as she wept over her many errors and her family estranged ‘till her eyes were surely dry. It got to be lonely, bearing the weight of it all without aid. There was no comfort in the depths of the night, and no meager smile to wake with either.
None of it wasn't fair.
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“Countess,” A voice which she recollected called once more, ringing in her ears like tinnitus.
Cassia Daphnia: her ward, such a sweet girl, cheerful too. More than Theodosia was,, with unwavering diligence and kindness. She was her firstborn, hidden from the wider world since she could recall; that could be why she was so sweet. She favored her, admittedly.
“What happened to my mother?” She asked the very last question that the Countess had hoped to hear.
Theodosia faltered, clutching her teacup within her interlaced palm. She swallowed a lump which had formed in her throat, stricken with a sense of unease she couldn’t quite conceal.
“I don’t know.” She replied, coming off harsher than intended. “Matilda went off with my father.”
“She- what?”
“I thought you would’ve figured it out by now.”
“She… hasn’t written.”
She sighed. “Patience is-”
What was she saying?
“She’s not your mother, Cass.” She muttered thereby.
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Theodosia loved her children, she just didn’t want to see them. They were reminders of her shortcomings, and the state of things. Of course, that wasn’t their fault; they were just kids after all.
She prayed they’d have a little more time to be just that: just kids. She never did. At every turn, her interests were cut short. Who else would bother to gather the pieces? It was the O’Rourke’s against the wider world, at times. Then, as the family began to splinter whilst she clung to the remains, it was just her. She knew that when her mother left her to her own devices, even after she'd sobbed and nearly perished. There was no point for resentment anymore, not when she'd been taught that what she wanted had to be done alone.
Leopold was gone; Michael was gone; Woodes was gone; Iduna was gone; Alexander was gone. Even her anchor, Uncle Auden, was dying and she knew it. Then again, she was dying too.
Her vices in youth had caught up. Escapism's consequences loomed over her very face, having once extended solace from countless regrets and brooding. Even if she was clean from cigarette smoke and drugs, the damage was done.
Each day, it grew harder and harder to maintain her stalwart demeanor.
After all, she desperately sought to never miss a thing, even when deep down, undoubtedly, she’d die before her children got to be adults, and die before Cassia would forgive her.
She dreamt that Everett would never feel this lonesome or troubled.
Alexandrina would never be plagued with worries.
Sadie would triumph past her naivete and shyness, at least one day — some day.
She dreamt they’d be different from her. They’d be tight knit, and they’d have each other: that they would be free, and capable, that they would be liberated from the weight of things, that they’d never wait so long for things which never came.
It was all the Countess could do, dream. For others, even after she’d been left in the ruin of all things long ago. If only she wasn’t so moody nowadays, maybe she could give better guidance than, “Don’t worry.” If the world could stay still for awhile, she'd be okay.
If she couldn’t do that, she could be proactive, or maybe try.
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”Little one.” A gruff voice called above the bustle of Old Providence.
The green eyed girl turned; she wasn’t quite an heiress then. Her grandmother was still alive, and that humble Providence home hadn’t been taken by flames of arson just yet. Trauma hadn’t settled in.
“Ave!” She exclaimed, a guileless grin across her face. She’d just won tic-tac-toe against a new friend. Things were pretty good.
The source of the holler was none other than Woodes O’Rourke. He was a tall man, and his appearance matched his attitude. Despite his age, his visage was aged by an unruly beard and countless bar fights. He bore a cane, then.
He knelt down to meet her eye level. People offered them odd looks from the sidewalk.
“Take this, alright?” He said, extending it to her with a certain poise and formality.
“Why?” She asked, like the child she was.
Woodes snickered. “It's an heirloom. Your great grandfathers. Great man, you might live to his legacy one day.”
“Mhm…”
“Keep it with your soul, yeah? Might just need it someday.”
“Okay!” She assured with a prompt bob of her head; the cane was twice her height and more of a staff but she managed.
Woodes gave a rare smile and stood up, towering over her. He turned off, waving as he went. Perhaps if she were older, she’d have noticed his empty pockets and missing weaponry. She could have offered a proper goodbye, had she known that was the last she’d see her uncle.
She went on her way with her braids flopping against the wind. That was before it mattered; that was before she cared or even noticed at all. Instead, she carried that cane; Theodosia carried that burden like everybody else.
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Theodosia heard of her newfound position on the Council of State when she sought to import pineapples to sell at the reopened Paddy’s Pint. She might have been a highborn housewife and failed artist, but she’d be damned if she didn’t have a pineapple. It was a novel thing, but she’d lived life straight. If this was an adventure, so be it. Her inclination came from her dim subconscious, but that was irrelevant.
She’d been a mediocre Lady Vicar, and a mediocre Countess. She presumed she’d be a mediocre stateswoman. Justice this, justice that. Most of it was gobbledygook to her; she wanted a pineapple. She wanted to be happy, but found herself very tired. The cough was worse too. Things were better, but she felt worse.
Bleak.
She covered it up, for others sake. Being a burden was the worst fate, and her prerogative had to be some kind of justice in an unjust world. It was on a normal night which she manifested this, after bidding Sadie a sweet goodnight in the maid’s stead for once.
“Alexandrina,” she beckoned her daughter’s attention, inviting herself to a seat opposite from the young teenager’s bed. Alex resembled her great grandmother more than either of her absent parents.
“What is it?” She asked, pushing herself up from the mattress to sit upright.
“There’s… a talk I ought to have with you, that neither my mother or father really did with me.” Theo began, offering a bittersweet smile to alleviate the newfound awkwardness.
“Oh- uh, okay.”
“Don’t worry.” She laughed, then. “I hated these dramatics when I was young too.”
Alex frowned, puzzled.
“You are… gonna face a lot when you’re older. Already. There’s a lot of hardship in this world, and a lot of beauty.” Theodosia mused with melancholic eyes, swallowing the lump which had formed in her throat.
“I won’t be here for all of that, and there won’t be someone to catch you all the time either. You’re going to have to look over your family one day, but know that they love you too. And it’s okay to fall sometimes. It's okay to be hurt, as long as you pick yourself up. No matter what, I’m on your team. You’re already getting it… looking after Sadie.” She laughed, looking away, enveloped in a brief reverie.
She’d made the same mistakes her mother had, and her mother’s mother. It might have been too little, too late, but it was all Theodosia had left to give: a last hurrah. Had she more time to waste, she could amend her wrongs with Cassia and raise Alex right; she could see Sadie grow up.
Alas, perhaps some things were destined to be missed; true closure eluded her.
“Seize the day, alright? Time is precious for human beings. We don’t get all that much of it.” She chuckled, fiddling with her hands in her lap. “I love you, and you’re growing up to be better than I ever could. Cassia is there, so is Everett. Don’t forget about you.” Theodosia concluded her spiel with a sigh, shifting to be a little more upright. It was rare: her vulnerability, that is.
Alexandrina frowned, appearing familiar to her namesake. Theodosia wondered whether her mother felt this way, fostering her late brother to health when his illness was imminently fatal. She was just waiting, when both parties already knew how it ended. To her surprise, Alex drew forward to her mother’s lap.
They embraced, and she spoke.
“I love you too, mam. I’ll be sure to do that… look after me, everyone, and- and seize the day.” She reassured.
Glossy eyed, she gave the best response she knew. “Good, you’re strong. I know you can take on this world. And, I-I’m sorry if I haven’t always done well by my own advice.”
“You’re strong, mam. I guess that’s where I get it from.”
The Countess smiled, clambering to her feet from the sofa. The evidence of her brooding was bygone, extending half hearted comfort where she could. “O’Rourke’s aren’t quitters, love.” She pondered, standing still like a thoughtful effigy in the door frame. “Goodnight.”
She turned, shutting the door and pacing down the hall. Unseen to a soul, she silently wept. With much left to do, and much unfulfilled, there was nothing to be done. Powerlessness was her greatest fear, and it taunted her that night and the following days.
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Promises were broken; relationships were rekindled; friends were made and lost. Things always went wrong. Faced with the fleeting grandiosity of a mediocre life lived, Theodosia wondered what she’d missed. When she was a child, she swore she would never grow to be an irrelevant wife. Here she lay, gazing toward the blank ceiling anyway. She wasn’t a great artist, nor a particularly notable politician. That didn’t really matter though.
Whatever she sought, she stayed unhappy. Even after Auden had narrowly survived a grim situation, and she carried on amidst it all, she felt a gaping void in her chest she could not shake. It was her unspoken grief, in pursuit of so-called strength.
Where was Eloise? She was so very guileless, in spite of her loss. That horrible man she’d almost married; what happened to him? Questions all unanswered, now (more so than ever) was the instant to take a gambit. It may have been too late to amend her heartache and lamenting, but something subconscious urged her.
Theodosia gave brief goodbyes to Calahan, her children and the tenants, then there was the quiet Sadie. Together, they wrote a letter.
“I’m going to go out. I need to meet with a friend and tend to some things, okay?” She said, bittersweet.
“Okay.” Sadie nodded. “C-Come back to… tuck me in.”
“I will.” She promised; she could hold on long enough for that. “Be good, will you?”
“I will."
Then, Theodosia had gone. She ventured from Halstaig to the cold reaches of the Kingdom. Everything had shifted, but the plains had not. They were bewitching, gorgeous. She discovered respite in the unknown, as if she was a girl once more. But, she had a purpose. Her oldest friend wished to confide. She could hold up a promise there, at least. She reflected if she was as sure as she thought on what he longed to say. She would never truly know, because she had never acknowledged it — too late, now. She loved him, just not in the way he suggested. How she missed the days of her early adolescence alongside the Lectors nevertheless.
Her steed carried her forward notwithstanding her decaying health. They passed the capital and Cathalon but she was not found with Ioannes or a pineapple. She didn’t find Eloise either, nor that De Ruyter she’d decidedly married. She prayed they would forgive her, as well as her father, children and kin.
That lone steed found its way back without a living equestrian to follow.
The paranoid Countess was dead.
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B E Y O N D
The bureaucracy mattered not, nor did the countless titles or so-called power hitherto, nor did the sympathy towards Owyn and the seven-year patience she held, nor did her desire to be so different from her predecessors. She was the same, albeit naive at times: not a prophet, nor a deviation from the general norm.
Surely, her wariness kept her from either.
Calahan takes care of the kids, or so he had promised as much. Perhaps they’ll visit Elias, for he is their kin from a generation foregone. Eloise returns one day, and the levy will likely be dispersed without Nikolaus. Auden sorts the books and Sadie assists. Cassia grows melancholy. Everett is left with a rather intricate old cane.
The family is a little closer, and things are a little better — pretty good, for now.
Theodosia is not there.
Some will say she made it, others condemn her running away. She’d consider it honorable, to escape a slower end, pitiable. Perhaps had they known, the prior farewells would differ. She arrived at the other side with open arms; she endured. Happy endings are for kids, and ennui plagues adults. Pictures are produced of a brighter world to reflect one back, but she never had time to really paint much.
Somewhere, now, she is happy and free. At least, she is on standby wistfully no longer.
That is her justice.
And at home, a quiet ember dances from inside Erin Hall’s rebuilt hearth.
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LAST WILL AND TESTAMENT OF
THEODOSIA ILLAENA O’ROURKE
I, Theodosia O’Rourke, Countess Halstaig, and resident of Halstaig declare this as my Last Will. All wills heretofore are null, whether influenced by myself or associate partisans (jointly or severally.)
I hereby declare Calahan O’Rourke as the executor of my will, and valid regent in my absence.
- To Sadie Cristonia O’Rourke, my heiress, I leave my garments and emerald tiara.
- To Alexandrina O’Rourke, I leave the rest of my jewels and green sash.
- To Everett O’Rourke, I leave my steed and Kaedrini Rose Cane. May you bear both well.
- To Auden O’Rourke, I leave the establishment of Paddy’s Pint and responsibility alongside it, bound to Helena Avenue 8 within Vienne. I hope it will continue to bring closeness to the family as a whole, and bring about prosperity.
- To Cassia Daphnia Erinsehn, my eldest, I leave any works of art (drawings, paintings, et cetera) I have produced and my unused dagger Custodia.
Cremate my corpse if it is attained. Put me in that blue dress with the yellow floral skirt.
Signed, TRH Countess Halstaig
Theodosia Illaena Anastasia Anne Clover Vasa Cassia Lucia Emma O’Rourke
SpoilerWell, it's been a great run and this is very bittersweet for me. I’ve been playing Theodosia for nearly a year now, and to her let her go feels strange but fitting nonetheless. I’m appreciative it could end on a high note, and even more for just how wonderful her story turned out. I did my best for her, and I did my best with the O’Rourke’s. There were highs and lows.
It's come a long way since I complained in various chats about how boring it was playing a blonde noble girl who’s “so boring!” Theo has easily grown to become my favorite character which I’ve played. Ever.
Huge thanks to @Asutto and the old generation of O’Rourkes for giving me this character. As my second noble since Curon, it's been a whole lot of fun. Can’t forget @Itz_Cookie and @StrongBear either for playing two wonderfully bad parents and having the chance to make amends.
Thanks to @Melpomenne for briefly playing Cassia really well, but you also dropped the persona so I retract this statement to equate to a net-zero of appreciativeness.
Thanks to @Battle Unit and the Lectors as a whole for letting me hang out for a while, even when I flaked on joining the Seraphim. It was a whole lot of fun. I miss Paco everyday :(
Thanks to all the O’Rourke’s @bloomtiara, @CanadaMatt, @Rosey532, @Majesticpasta. Some of you are morons but epic anyway. (Looking at you, @Pyrite) You’re my second favorite mineman family, and I’ll still be around to vibe from time to time. Sorry for leaving the kids, but I look forward to how the characters grow and keeping up with you guys as friends.
Thanks to @Moenah especially for saving my burnt out ass and taking up the mantle of heir. You’re a real one, and your roleplay is something I aspire to match. Keep being cool, even if you’re lame and mute (in minecraft.)
Finally, gotta mention @JoanOfArc / Julius / a moron: you already know my thoughts but I’ll say it here as well briefly. Ioannes is my favorite inbred doomer by far; he and Theo were such great best friends! In all seriousness, the dynamic was really fun and I’m really happy to know you much better than I did 341 days ago. I may hate roleplay, but it was and always will be great hanging with you :)
That’s all folks, thank you everyone, so much. Even if you aren’t included in this spiel, it wouldn’t be the same without y’all. Peace
(sorry i never became a housemage ma)
(dont @ me for the length, i rewrote this PK 6 times)
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but how can i metarally my entire nation's army while stabbing the bad guys with my thanhium blade and running away simultaneously now!
SpoilerGreat plugin, I remember when Dylan started this last map; its long overdue.
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THE ABYSS GAZES BACK
A MASSACRE WITHIN THE CRATER
It was an autumn day like any other amidst Malin’s Welcome, and not a Descendent could have prescience to what was soon to come. A gaggle of Urguani and members of the Mages guild alike ventured into Ando Alur, merely to research and exit by nightfall. Eighteen adventurers entered, while only ten returned to tell the tale.
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In the heart of the fallout decades hitherto was the epicenter — a grand crater rife with raw Voidal energies, enough to overwhelm anyone and certainly stir chaos into spells. The group clambered up the crest of the rocky hills, and with their new vantage gazed upon the crater full of despair. Roars of incomprehensible terror bellowed from the epicenter and the company faltered in their determination to persist. Some advised exploring other areas of the Hollow, though the stubbornly bold pressed onward, descending the crust of the crystalline pyres of mana in the dreadful abyss atop blackened rock.
Eyes peered toward them from afar, and though fleeting spiels of rituals were spoken, none came to fruition. Shadows, larger than life, watched from overhead, augmented by the crystal spires. It was a dwarf by the name of Kronk Stormheart who led them onward alongside another, Grimdal Irongut.
The brazen group feared not, only faltering when the cliffside crumbled under their feet and a draconic, sable beast arrived. A behemoth.Silhouettes ordered them from afar, babbling incoherent tongues with occasionally words in between:
Ľ̶̯̀͂̈̎͊Ẻ̷̬̯͙͎̻̮͕͑ͅA̶͎̬̰͑̐̈́̆̾͛͋͠V̴̨̡̝̪̱̭̰͊̒͛͋̆͠Ę̷͈̻̳̠͉̈́̍
Some fled, evanescing from the dreadful scene, others stayed for a short battle, outnumbered by the robed shadowy figures and great dragon. Panic fell upon the expedition as a sense of dread filled them, few unaware now of the turmoil they stood in. Several sought to escape, translocate elsewhere, far away; some were successful, while others met their end in the ether or simple suffocation.
Air Evocress was the first fatality, followed by the dwarven trio cornered and incinerated by the dragon against an earthen barrier. Eliza, the leader of the Mages guild was transfixed by her own creation — pillars of quartz stabbing through the ground. The shadowmen closed in, having hauled an elfess, Ruina, and another elf, Beranabus away, pulled into the abyss.
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In the end, they returned to what had spawned this deathly sight: a void. Utter darkness, enshrouding their every sense. They were faced with the imminent, to eventually coalesce with it no matter their struggle and strife, without an exit from the pitch black plane. No matter a woman’s musings of alchemical abilities, no matter a friendship cut short.
Even witnessing so-called salvation was only watchful eyes blurred by the darkness, arriving to offer a deadly embrace. Their reality was warped, here, fading in tandem with their consciousness.
It was no use, thence adjoining the shadowmen’s conglomerate within an instant.
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Garbled words had surrounded the group prior, from the harbingers of quietus, reapers of the Void. Perhaps those who had escaped were the truly unlucky ones, left with the injury, the memory of the occurrence bygone. Vestiges of what was to come, in the wake of the Void; whilst fallout grew weaker, it preyed on many notwithstanding this.
Despite their valiant struggle, when faced with eternity and a lack thereof, it returned them whence it came: to the abyss. Gone, forevermore, those left would be the only remaining to tell the tale of the Second Fall- the beginning of the end for Ando Alur, and to recollect the fallen.
Air, Beranabus, Ruina, Eliza, Kronk, Gwydion, Grimdol, Odysseus.
Perhaps brave, perhaps idiotic; they would never know. Ten had escaped.
Nemesis was nigh, and the unfortunate coincidence offered a dramatic irony alongside it.
SpoilerSome cute screenshots from the encounter courtesy of @Islamadon
Credit to @Nooblius for assistance in editing and proofreading this.
Sorry for how this turned out, everybody.
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i too enjoy stardew valley :)
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3 hours ago, JoanOfArc said:
i don't like the gorillaz
blur > gorillaz
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[Do not metagame any of this information; lest you interact in roleplay none of this would be known by anyone.]
THE WAY THE WIND BLOWS
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In the winter season, the wind carried hushed murmurations to and fro over the Empire's domain East and West respectively. It knew where it arrived, where it went, who it hindered with its frigid nature; yet few hearkened those calls. Few espied them whatsoever, or so a young man figured. It was as if they didn’t hear the ineffable words at all.
MATTEO often found himself reflecting over the fleeting wind's halloos; they hollered to him after all. Some would surely act ignorant: hailing the supposed sentiments as odd, bizarre even. Hence, he kept his mouth shut, listening for the manifold calls much more than speaking up.
As for what the young man heard; such would be left unsaid. They were notions he received, and he kept anything and everything to himself, seemingly. It was the safest, sane thing to do. From the outside, his varying spiels and musings of heroic futures and ambiguous ambitions — well, they were strange to put it nicely.
Since his kin’s death, someone he’d not known, nor cared for, the atmosphere had become silent. Perhaps it was mourning; it appeared that most people were. At least, those possessing his family's name. It had been swept under the rug by the Imperials, and though Matteo had never known the late woman who had apparently been his great-aunt, the principal troubled him enough.
That is, an unjust murder with unjust circumstances too. It left a definite melancholia remaining in the humid air.
This was the way things were, the place they lived in: where those who cared carried little sway, and the rest revelled in complete disregard. They were debris brought along in the idle breeze, unseen to most. No one would worry if they disappeared, and no one would stand up to protest. The wrongs were left wrong, and their rights seemed to barely balance upon a thin rope with each passing moment; at any second it could all go to hell. Either way, he had no say.
There was no one left to fix it, for even those that recognized it would soon concede to the situation that was. Some would seek to abuse it, and others would ponder endlessly. Matteo had yet to meet a man or woman that advanced forward amidst their complicit lifestyle. What that implied, he knew not. No one lingered here or there long enough to tell him.
Since a child, he was taught this is merely the way things are. There was no mind paid to the impending future, giving him no peace of mind. Shouldn’t they dither and hang around a little longer? Shouldn't they swallow their judgement and accept this fate?
Rabbits, waiting to be hunted.
Nevertheless, an irking notion stuck with him that this was not enough, nor was he. While men recited wistful eulogies in sable garbs, he clenched his fists and hung his head. While his kin rose to success, he mulled over what was to come. He wished for a placid world. A placid, just world would be lovelier, and a “placid world” was not the host of Almaris, nor the place where the Illatian lived. If only he had the slightest indication of what exactly he ought to do. If he did, he wouldn't feel so bad.
Instead, whether he would or seek to deceive, Matteo wasn’t so different from the rest. Albeit, a little more of a troubled recluse. A lot more of one, in fact.
The past perturbed him, as did the future, and he knew not how to act. Was he really living, or just existing without a real purpose? Somebody had to work it out, he only wished he was privy like the rest. If only this, if only that. He hung around faltering, ever unsure as he survived day by day, never with any specific pursuit. He traversed here and there, and even that wasn't much help.
What use was an understanding, if only to sit on one's hands?
Showers of rain pitter-pattered on the desolate lands that once hosted Redenford. There, the brick house wherein Matteo lived stood, over the outlook ahead. It had not been so wet when he’d ventured outside, he thought.
That was beside the point, as he found himself sprinting from the rain with a lit cigarette as his torch, finding refuge beneath a large bridge — where frogs and spiders alike dwelled. Perhaps he would have minded them, but his discernment was stifled with a deviation of his attention to the outside soon enough.
“HELLO.”
The voice sounded like his own but it was evident he’d said nothing — otherwise it would not have caught him by such surprise. It overlapped akin to a chorus with the downpour, one with the ambiance, carrying a fickle lilt in its bitter tone. The wind; others would not have heard it.
The young man flinched, huddling into a ball akin to a tortoise shifting into its shell.
“AH, FIGURES. THERE’S NO FEAR, BOY.
WE’RE ACQUAINTED, NO?”
“R-right, ah…” He stammered, relaxing somewhat.
“YOU ARE HERE TO ESCAPE THE RAIN.
BUT YOU DON’T MIND THE DAMPNESS.”
“Mm…?”
“AN AVOIDANCE OF BEING WATCHED, IS IT?”
“Si, well…” He blinked, sputtering over his words. “You put it like I’m paranoid.”
“YOU’RE SMART.”
“Thanks.”
“...YOU COME HERE TO THINK.”
“I suppose so.”
“WHY HERE?”
“You know why. You know everything. Especially about me.” He snarked with a roll of his eyes, unamused by its antics.
“DO YOU KNOW?”
“Of course I know.”
“WHY, THEN?”
At that, he turned very very silent and began to feel overwhelmed with an unshakeable sense of utter loneliness, fraught with worries of why. Somewhere, he was aware, but it is one thing to think of something, and another to confess aloud.
“IT'S AN ESCAPE.”
“I suppose so.” He echoed, quieter to himself as he stared toward the reflective ripples in the riverbank — searching for a source of the voice he knew was nonexistent.
“It's loud over there, and I don’t know what to do, so I come to think. I get stressed when it's extra loud, y’know. No one pauses to hear anybody, lest it's my brother…”
“DOES HE KNOW WHAT TO DO?”
“I don’t think so, but I think he’s doing what he does real well. That’s enough for him.”
“AND FOR YOU?”
“Like I said, you already know that.” He remarked, fiddling with his quenched cigarette, tossing it into the water. “I’m gonna fix things. Somehow. Do you know how?”
“THAT’S YOURS TO SORT OUT.”
“Yeah, yeah. I’ve heard it before.” He snickered, shaking his head with a scoff.
“THERE ARE MORE CONSTRUCTIVE WAYS
THAN PROJECTING IT UPON YOUR FAMILY, MATTEO.
THEY KNOW NO BETTER.”
“I thought if you were gonna come around again, you’d tell me something constructive.” He retorted, mildly irritated as the rain began to pass. He sought to brush the mud from his pants and rise, almost hitting his head in the process.
“DID YOU FORGET WHY YOU’RE HERE?”
“Didn’t come to talk to myself.”
“YOUR MISSIONS TAKE WORK AND THOUGHT.
MORE THAN CALLING YOURSELF A
‘FIXER’ TO STRANGERS.”
“I know.”
“YOUR AUNT IS DEAD.”
“I know.”
“AND YOU DID NOTHING.”
“That's not true.” He faltered out.
“NO ONE DID.”
“Right, they watched. I didn't.” He muttered, tense in his shoulders. “I didn't even know her...”
“YOU'RE ALRIGHT WITH THIS?”
“No.”
“THEN WHAT WILL YOU DO?”
“I don't know. Why me?”
Matteo had begun to swivel on his heels and meander in the opposite direction toward the house. Perhaps it was his own angst or weakness, with a false haughtiness in his gait, veiling a certainly unsure expression. In whatever case, it was his foolhardy escape from the very wind, though its message grew no quieter.
“YOU’RE GOING BACK TO THE HOUSE.”
He winced. “Would you LEAVE ME BE?!” He shouted, coming to a sudden stop.
It befell an unabashed silence, at that. The still air was heavy.
“...WILL YOU MIND THAT THIS
WORLD IS NOT RIGHTEOUS?”
He opened his mouth, vexed by its final taunt, only too soon to realize he’d made it inside already. Things were truly quiet then, and he was well aware of the answer, too wary and prideful to possibly admit. Previously, he’d felt isolated — from the world, the land, the God damned Imperials. It differed now, beside the hearth, like waking from a prolonged reverie — a nightmare during the day.
Maybe if he was like Drudo, or his brother at the opposite side of the bottommost floor, things would vary. He was just Matteo: determined as hell and just as clueless.
“Eugh,” he muttered, storming upstairs with muddy tracks in his stead.
When he drifted to a short lived slumber [a rare occurrence,] he was wise. When the stars still illuminated burnt crops and that dastardly plot of land he lived nearby, he could anticipate what lay forth. Perhaps he could even prepare, and scream from the rooftops: Something is wrong!
He could do something.
But he never remembered. By the time he sat up, by the time those memories of prospects ahead festered, they turned vague. Such was the way of nightmarish musings: soon to pass. He was left only with an unshakeable kind of malaise, one which danced across his spine and made him shiver even beside the fire.
One day, he would remember, and brazenly pace into the light. Taking up arms without another to tell him how — that would be a start… He was independent. He could be, at least.
So it went, and there were more constructive ways to make things right. Any way the wind blew, he followed ‘till he was off the roads into forestry far from any Descendent being. It was there he turned up swathed in a bothered reverie, depressed and decisive.
Now was the time, more so than ever, to speak up by his own accord. For the first time, he almost had a solid idea of what venture he intended to set about. His self-preservation was minimal for a sense of grandiose liberty like the open skies extending far in each direction: wanting to be a hero whether right or wrong. Being there, alive unlike some, it allowed him to fight. For his mother. For his aunt, his family. For himself, and the future rapidly approaching.
The myriad gales began to pick up, bearing louder messages once he'd journeyed back.
Deep down, Matteo still wasn't certain.
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Someplace, at sometime, the news of the Vuiller patriarch's death made its way to a certain elf and doctor- weary, worn, and long forgotten. A brief frown met his tan features as he stirred. The last remaining familiarity he'd clung to from his formative youth had fallen.
Akan Vuiller lit a transient candle flame for the only father he'd ever known; the man he couldn't save in a country he hadn't lived in for a long, long time.
Spoilerapologies for not playing akan for a good year, and bad formatting. i shall fix it in the morning.
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A weary and worn traveller paused to peer over the missive, a great grimace growing across his usually apathetic features as his gaze fell over each line... "Hm."
Quickly, he scurried off from the territory around Providence in avoidance of befalling the same fate as others and being robbed of everything he had! Boy, that ivory city had become something indeed.
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one must be strong
“Promise me, darling, you won't build up walls around
your heart no matter how much it aches?”
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“...Things will be better after the war.” Theodosia concluded a tactful spiel of her's; characteristic and ever ironic, she was unbeknownst. So very sure and confident in her assurances hailing a paranoia underlying as naught. Little did she know, little did she know indeed.
In the blink of an eye, one week had passed. Everything felt so quiet, solemn and isolated from what had once been shrouded in warmth from the hearth- from a family now estranged. Michael was at war, and her mother had fled alongside Nora somewhere surely. Perhaps she’d find the duo in Sunbreak. Perhaps there would be some fleeting, bittersweet rendezvous. For now, Theodosia would linger around the South; travel was dangerous after all.
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Two weeks passed, and dread began to irk the back of her mind. No letters, no word from her wonderfully reckless sister Eloise. Nothing. After two weeks, Theodosia did not drift from her spot, steadfast despite her anxiety- characteristic. Things were quiet, but such was life. Waiting would bring about better times, her father had told her.
She’d wait.
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It had been a month and the O’Rourke “emerald’s” worry had only augmented. She found herself meandering to and fro, to and fro around those emptied halls of the estate. If she aimlessly walked around, then that worry could be downplayed. If she aimlessly walked around, she wouldn’t miss a knock on the door from her mother or father.
Theodosia was alone; how it bothered her so. Her heart stung with a lump always in her throat. Cheer and mayflowers bygone, the guileless stupors expected in youth had turned few and far inbetween with her. In their stead: great fear she mostly concealed. Of course, there were brief distractions, brief “hello’s” exchanged. Even in her younger years, she'd indulged in these deviations from the bad things: travel, vice, shallow acquaintances.
Nothing did quite shake that imminent bad news, though. 'Till one day, it arrived. One day, on an unexpected afternoon, somebody passed a crumpled letter into her grip- stained with damp marks of the sea. She couldn’t shake a sensation of deja vu of the period five years ago- five years since the news of her brother's untimely death.
For five days, Theodosia mustered the strength to ignore the letter, to treat it as little. In the back of her subconscious psyche, she was practically privy to the contents within. That was why she sought to ignore it. Because, when she read it and her gaze skimmed each line, Theodosia was left to lament. Droplets hit the page as tears freely fell, as choked weeps escaped her. She crumpled the creased page, clenching her fists and verging on toppling over against her bed. The shock was unshakeable, despite every folly hope to mentally prepare.
What was she to do? Who was she to look to? How was she to go on? Why had her mother left her too? Why? None of these questions had simple answers. The O’Rourke’s anguish settled in, as did initial denial; Iduna wasn’t dead. She couldn’t be. She’d return. The very heir to the Empire had, and so would she.
And deep down, Theodosia knew it was a lie. The ugly truth cemented itself in her mind when she idly waited at the dock for hours on end for an unknown ship to arrive at the lakeside.
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Seconds of bliss would all pass; this had become a fact in Theodosia’s world. The seconds were sweet, but never forever even if it seemed so. To trick oneself only brought more profound pain and disappointment. If only she was aware what was soon to ensue (soon to pass,) when she had last really spoken with Iduna.
It was a cool evening, hence the incessant downpour outside. She had broken some horrible news, and naturally Theo stormed off without bothering to reconcile thereafter. Maybe had she been different, had she been a greater daughter- a happier daughter, things would differ; maybe they’d be sweet. Alas, it was left to the philosophers to speculate someday- forever unanswered just as her gripes and questions were to her mother. Just as those promises were unfulfilled.
She couldn’t summon any anger, nevertheless, grief squeezed her weary soul. To and fro, to and fro she strode around those empty halls like an apathetic phantom. She revelled in her grovelling, and no one could blame her merely seven days after her mother’s death. She was surprised to discern her father (usually elsewhere) around, idly in the library alongside her uncle. She was equally surprised when she found her red eyes welling with tears once more.
Soon, she melted into a deep embrace with sobs escaping her and words unexpressed hitherto. She opened her arms to a man she’d shunned from her life out of resentment and previous wrongs. Theodosia opened her arms to her remaining parent, holding on for dear life. Things were getting…
Better.
Maybe.
A month later, a short missive was posted.
SpoilerIt's with a heavy heart that the family announces the death of the longstanding Countess Halstaig Iduna Anne O'Rourke. Recently, she took a voyage to the ocean, wherein the ship failed her alongside tenant Nora James. Please put your hearts and prayers out for them both; may they rest in the Seven Skies as those bearing the "O'Rourke" name mourn. She was a wonderful woman, my very own mother- beloved by us, and myself.
Signed,
Lady Theodosia Illaena Anastasia Anne Clover Vasa Casia Lucia Emma O'Rourke
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The missive came across an Imperial, Theodosia O'Rourke. Her brows knitted together upon skimming the words, a grimace growing across her visage. She recollected attending a lovely festival in that village... passing through it amid travels. A true shame, surely.
"Hm," she hummed under her breath- going on her way, perhaps to spread the word in passing.
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“We all have a burden we must carry.” A friend had once told young Theo.
She never was around Halstaig much, these days; there was too much to avoid. Too many memories. What had once been the home she longed to return to was now a place she dreaded to see in the eve, for she knew something was imminent. And so, Theodosia arrived. She was right.
Somehow, the walls felt more imposing. The air was cold. She crossed her arms upon her entry through those wooden gates, minding her limp. She passed by Calahan, paying him no mind. Soon, she found herself burgeoning inside; her lower lip quivered.
Where was her mother? Where was her papej? Where were they to comfort her?
And with every wayward step further into the estate, it grew apparent that she was alone. That is, 'till someone or another, perhaps a maid, passed through the halls- somber. Something was foreboding, and Theo knew it. She'd known it since she was a little girl. There was always time to wait for something better, though. There had to be time. She wondered if it was really true.
That individual passed Theodosia the note with a simple bow of their head, and then they were gone; a passerby like the wind. It seemed like a common occurrence, these days. It wasn't fair, but neither was life. She had to be strong, for Eloise, for Alexander... for everyone.
She set that familiar cane of her's aside, taking a seat in the sitting area as she prepared for the very worst. As she scanned each line of the missive of her brother's death, her hands grew o so tense, crumpling the page. It was the very worst. She let out a sharp breath, reeling forward with an anguished whine. The world spun around her, a blur of viridescent hues.
Yet, her expression was blank. She'd never known him well, after all. Naught had really changed. He was always an introspective boy, seldom leaving his room. He took after his uncle. What did his absence possibly change? Theodosia couldn't quite answer that question; but surely, there was a difference. There was some awful lack thereof in the atmosphere. He was dead. Only thirteen, and he was dead. Why hadn't she sought to know him? She'd done everything despite her resentment, and he was dead!
Soon, the young heiress closed her glossy eyes in prayer, wishing for a better place in the Skies for her poor brother. She would never forget the wails of her mother in the confines of her room.
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MC Name:
RainedropF
Character's Name:
Dima Amedeo Ostrovich
Character's Age:
26
What feat(s) will you be learning?
Alchemy
Teacher's MC Name:
Bvrzvm
Teacher's RP Name:
Fyodor Ostrovich
Do you agree to keep Story updated on the status of your feat app?:
Yes
Have you applied for this feat on this character before, and had it denied? If so, link the app:
No
Are you aware that if this feat is undergoing an activity trial and fails said trial, that you will lose the feat? And that if it is apart of the Lore Games, it might drastically change soon?:
Yes
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Somewhere, Reece wondered why her name appeared upon the list of those eligible ladies, and misspelled at that! Curious, as she had not signed herself up, surely. Perhaps it wasn't so bad.
"Odd," she murmured under her breath, promptly deviating her attention elsewhere. She couldn't get too worked up about it. Nevertheless, the young woman began scribing a short letter off to one particular Tuvyic sister...
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THE FIRSTBORN
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Posted
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In the far reaches of Adria's dominion, IRENE BASRID, once Francisca, reclined within her chair tucked within a study, gazing out the window to a rainy day. She had a family of her own, by now. Her days as a Dame in Petra had long passed her by. Yet, when the letter had ultimately reached her with the news, it was as if she was a teenager being knighted atop that peak which hosted the ruins her forefathers looked after once again. She was not an old woman anymore, rather, an oblivious young girl with too many questions to subdue.
She read the final line silently over and over: Your Everloving Sister...
Your Everloving Sister...
Your Everloving Sister...
Your Everloving Sister...
Was she so deserving of that everlasting love? She had not been a good sister in many years, memories making the bottom of her stomach knot. So often, she claimed that it was never too late, even in death, but did she want to find out? Perhaps it was too late, and perhaps there was no point. Irene did not know; she wept. She had not cried in a long, long time; only when the reminder of her mortality and the loss of someone she had not known for so long did she weep. She wept until her collar made it evident, until her eyes were dry, and she did not know why.
Maude had always been the wisest of their family, their generation. A generation bygone, she realized. They were the last of a lost era, but never forgotten; she swore that unspokenly. She swore that.
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