Amura lies in her bed this night - having lost her first real duel - it was a fair fight. A fair loss she thinks. Then she starts to tear up a bit..
"I tried my best and it wasn't good enough. And why was everyone shouting at the start to end it? And why am i tolds its okay to lose but i still feel really really sad inside? Sad not ok to feel, no one wants to feel sad!" the 11 year old hugs her pillow. She tried to keep her emotions hidden from her parents, but now wishes she didnt. She wishes she cried in front of them when she got home. She wants a never ending hug so she can talk bout how scared she felt.
Amura isn't mad at Dyr, they are friends now.. She isnt even mad she lost. She is sad that she failed and no one really prepared her for what failure feels like. She doesn't understand this is normal, and ok. She always wants to be perfect, to strive to not cause issues...but today she feels like she disappointed everyone who trained her.
"I let down tons of people, i know it. " she tells one of her shark plushies
With her parents asleep, not wanting to bother them, she cries herself to sleep just wanting a nice hug when she wakes up.