I'm Begging You

[luv 3469]

The blonde mali'aheral woman adorn in silken red robes lays before an altar lit by candlelight, a book

open on a rather specific page, however, dust gathers on the pages. She would be bent at her knees before this 

altar, her hands intertwined before the book and her head bowed, praying. However she'd soon shift positions

to bring a hand to her mouth, trying her best to hold back tears as she spoke.

 

"I tried to change for you, but the thought of being nothing and the thought of being weak filled my very soul.

Corrupted me.

For years and to this day I have not been able to look into mirrors, for the sight of my own body brings me 

nothing.

I cross myself in thought daily about what I had done and by association what happened to you. 

Selfishness.

Nobody but I could have saved you, nobody but you could have saved me. We were perfect for

one another.

You had color in your cheeks, pep in your step, and a glimmer in your eyes. Beauty untouchable

by the gods.

I read the note you wrote left for me upon fleeing the city, I read it every night until the tears soon

put me to rest.

I find myself crawling to it, without your stern voice of reason in my ear to tell me I was good enough

without.

But now it has gotten much worse, for I fear I see you once more, but not in the light of the meadow in

which we married.

But now it has gotten much worse, for I fear I see you once more, but not in the home in which we shared

our space.

No no, I see you in my dreams, I see you holding animosity towards me, your rage being the only thing

I can sense.

I am sorry, for I have done you wrong, for I had let you down in your time of need and I was selfish,

I was wrong.

But I hope that you know, Fahim, I was too busy being yours to fall for somebody new. I wanted

you.

But I hope that you know, Fahim, if you were the moon and I the sun, I'd set every day to let you

glimmer in the night.

But I hope that you know, Fahim, I swallow the sword that is guilt in my hear for what happened

to you.

Only fools would have done the things I had done, and for that I have come to live with my foolish

actions.

So for this, I am begging you. I am begging you to keep on haunting me, for it is the only way I 

can see your face again."

[Wendigo 786]

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