An Ocean of Emotion

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My emotions are an ocean 

And I'm flowing with the motions

My mind is the pilot

A storm is brewing, it ain't quiet 

 

The waves are adrenaline 

Choppin' up the waters, messin' with perception 

Wind in my face: the sound of my voice

Washing ashore just isn't a choice 

 

I need a quiet island

all Im findin'

are violent islands 

full of starving' lions,

 

And 

 

Wrecks of broken ships full of dying pirates

Each lived a cruel life filled with violence 

They're representing each and every choice that I've made

And I got no choice but to wade

Through these icy waters full of icebergs 

Praying my ship's bow stays strong and firm

 

Deadly chunks of ice

Hiding in plain sight 

But I fear they are no jest,

They are my traumas manifest

 

Floating to and fro, moving with no purpose

Never know how deep they reach, what lurks beyond the surface?

 

I need to anchor now

The ocean roars so loud

Each and every cloud 

Is a memory I've buried down

 

Every clap of a thunder's just a tragic 

synonym for a sudden flashback 

Taking me back to a time when I was young

No point in dwelling where I'm coming from

 

Need to push forward and move ahead

If I think about it now, I'll end up dead

The chilly air is all of my dread 

I don't feel safe inside my bed

Doesn't matter that it's all in my head

 

But I've been here all before 

Each time it's less of a chore 

Give it time and I'll find safe shore

Just fall to my knees and hold onto the floor

 

I can brace this force

No need to scream until I'm hoarse 

Theres nothing to gain,

from suppressing all the pain

Like it or not it will come out 

Just have no fear and do not doubt 

 

The storm will blow over 

Sit down and write a poem

Get my thoughts and feelings out, 

that always works without a doubt

 

Turn the pain inside my heart

Into a passionate work of art

Then the clouds they'll start to part

Then the darkness will finally start

 

To drift and fade away

The sun will shine; I'll be okay

I'll live to see another day 

 

The truth be told, this ocean is prescious:

for each and every trauma there's a bit of bliss you cannot miss 

To say there is no reason to exist,

would be to speak of ignorance 

 

My emotions are so profound

It's no doubt I'd feel them loud 

I am safe and I am sound

My therapist would be proud. 

No crashout inbound 

I am safe and I am sound. 

 

Look at it now, I'm okay 

And oh it is a lovely day 

To set sail and chart a path 

And enjoy the aftermath 

 

The ocean is beautiful after these storms,

Clears out the wreckage in all of its forms

 

Oh these waters I do adore

And when the seas get rough, I'll just write some more