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Nothing goes as planned
People say goodbye
All that you rely on
Will leave you in the morning
Oh, you're in my veins
Oh, you're all I taste
Oh, you run away
'Cause I am not what you found

You're in my stars you know
Hoping that my words find you somewhere
I'll never recreate the Time that flies
The consequence is hanging there
No one but you could ever fill my night
Your love is haunting me
And all I want is more to set me free
Do you hear me call your name
I know we will never be the same
The consequence is hanging there
No one but you could ever fill my night

Now I've got you alone
And I'm watching you quiver
So much blood on these sheets
And you're begging me please
Shame on me
I never knew
That I was a killer
And now I've lost control
Please forgive the life I've had
And find me love in Hell
I want to mangle your heart
Finest blade from the kitchen
Razor sharp
Cut you real deep
Just like you did me
Please forgive the life I've had
And find me love in Hell
Where no one knows me
Or what I've done
When the damage done
I'll stay close to your body
Safe and sound
Holding a gun
And playing with the trigger
All alone

Staring out to the cage-like walls
Time goes by and the shadows crawl
World's out there singin' the blues
Twenty more dead on the evening news
Think to myself "really, what's the use?"
I'm just like you, I was born to lose
Why oh why can't you just fix me?
When all I want's to feel numb
But the medication's all done
Why oh why does God hate me?
When all I want's to get high
And forget this so-called life
Can't wait to feel better than I ever will
Hate myself, if I can go for miles

I tried it once before but I didn't get too far
I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart
And all I really wanted was for him to come back
But I waited there forever and he even looked up
I tried it once before and I think I might have messed up
I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough
But maybe I'm alive because I didn't really wanna die
All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
I died to be the white ghost
Of the mess that I was meant to be
I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut
I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough
And I should have told my mother 'mom, I hate you' I'm a bad son
And this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one
I tried it once again and I think I might black out
I should have left a letter but I had nothing to write about
My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up
The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked
This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one

I know what to say
And I, I know how to play
Now if I keep my eyes closed he looks just like you
Now if I keep my eyes closed he feels just like you
Would've gave it all for you, cared for you
So tell me where I went wrong
Would've gave it all for you, cared for you
(My lover, my liar)
Would've trade it all for you, there for you
So tell me how to move on
Would've trade it all for you, cared for you
They don't realize that I'm thinking about you
It's nothing new, it's nothing new
But you've been replaced
I'm face to face with someone new

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 Will you tell me – See you soon in a while 

I will disband my heart in your hand
Will you tell me - See you soon in a while
Devour me and fill my heart with courage
Rip out my lungs and kill my fever
Will you tell me - See you soon in a while
All the happy faces and memories are killing me
Please tell me that I only sleep
Close the circle, come to an end
Metamorphosis begins

 Can you feel the love tonight....

Heavy-handed, rapid fire
To a senseless beating, crippled and barely breathing
I tore off my skin, I'll hang from this noose
This is what happens when I show you my demons
Repeating the cycle that turns love into indifference
When I chase after affection, it won't chase after me
But honestly
The day I met you
I started dying
Feed me to the wolves
Like I don't have a pulse
Tear into me like an unknown disease
It's a certain sense of apathy that hangs directly over me.
You make me happy...
You'd make me kill myself
I should've known a little better
Good things never last forever
But I can't be happy if I'm dead

2015

You're like the ghost within me
Who's draining my life
It's like my soul is see through

But I ain't got a thing to lose, nothing to defend

You're the guy now, ave fm

 
I wanna sleep next to you
And I wanna come home to you
I'd rather fuel a fantasy than deal with this alone
I wanna hold hands with you
And I wanna get close to you
If you don't mind, I'll walk that line
Gray areas and expectations
I wanna hold hands with you
I wanna be close to you
But home is just a room full of my safest sounds
So come over now and talk me down

Kick me when I'm down

Keep me on the ground