Well, here she goes.
BYE!
I left and came back and left and came back and left and came back to say that I have accepted that the bittersweet moment is now.
I was going to disappear like a ghost, never to return again, without a word, but I can't say that I won't visit ever again. Here's why -
While I'm sort of one of those "this server is crack shit and should die in a fire" jaded old players, I need to acknowledge that I spent such a huge amount of time interacting with this community through my entire adolescence, and it was a big part of my life for a time. Though a... let's say 'unique' way to cope with the stressors of life, this server provided me with countless friendships that I will think back to for probably the rest of my existence. To put it simply, I've grown to a place where I am so happy and grateful for what I've been given and the opportunities I've had in life, and no longer feel any need to use the server as a crutch. But I still thank you all for being there in a time when I did need it.
People don't recognize the power of their simple presence, so I'm here to call blatant attention to it. This place saved me, for real. Kept me together until I was able to gain the courage to get myself help.
I do want to leave this on a bright note though, I have used my resources to specialize in addictions and mental health treatment. That's mostly because of me (gotta take the credit, cmon I've worked hard as shit), but you're all epic for kicking around while I got it together. At this point, I kinda think I'm killing it. Maybe I took the server too seriously every now and then in the past, but I harbor no resentment or bad thoughts about any of you. Only good things to say now.
Please share below some of your most favourite lotc moments, I'd love to reflect on them with you.
Lastly, keep in touch. Discord: _Disheartened, Steam: https://steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561198160671690/ Snapchat: Aliciacjx.
I still do video games, and feel free to just say hello if you'd like.
If you feel like you're in crisis or you need to talk to someone regarding mental health, call or text 988, or you can chat online at 988lifeline.org (per cdc, I believe this is US and Canada) Self care is badass, do it.