Dreaming of Hope
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As was the case for most of his life, sleep was something that had been fought against and resisted, but tonight was different. As Alistair surrendered to the abyss of his dreams, his dreams tonight would be different.
The young Oyashiman sat atop a lone hill at the centre of the valley, overlooking the awe inspiring landscape around him. The verdant plains stretched out around the base of the mountain and the undulating hills and forests were full of life and splendour. The clouds in the skies above danced and shifted, each one a memory playing out for him to see. Beyond that, the skies were filled with stars that each twinkled like a diamond.
He took a deep breath of the cool and crisp fresh air, the light upon his face was radiant and full of warmth. He felt at peace, a sensation that should have felt out of place and unnerved him. To his right, a small pond with almost crystalline waters sat undisturbed. Colourful Koi fish circled each other in the depths and as he watched them he was graced with his own reflection in the waters.
Gone was the visage of the Jade Prince, those up curled horns and green skin that he had been cursed with fading before his eyes. Instead his gaze was met with the man he had always wanted to become, yet it was the man that fate had cruelly denied him from ever being.
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A cool breeze blew across the mountain top and through the branches of the blooming cherry blossoms around him and he was greeted to the sound of clattering chains in the wind. The weight around his arms suddenly felt heavy and his throat felt as if it was encased in wrought iron, a suffocating tension. The mirage in the waters shifted, his reflection torn between the man he would never be and the devil he was. Thick and heavy black chains were clasped tightly about his wrists and were connected to a ring of iron around his neck.
The bonds of slavery and the mark of his damned fate.
For all the landscape around him had changed from the blasted hellscape riddled with the hordes of Hell and for all he struggled to defy his fate, the chains were a constant reminder he was doomed. A stray beam of sunlight caught his attention, momentarily distracting him and drawing his attention to the landscape beyond. A feminine voice called out to him in the back of his mind, as ethereal and Aengulic as one could imagine.
“Isn’t this better?”
Another deep breath. It was.
For all the pain he had suffered, for all the suffering he had caused and for all the choices he had made to lead him astray. Here, in his own mind, he could at least pretend to be free. He set out down the winding path from the mountaintop, descending into the lush valley below with his sights set on a blooming grove nearby. The chains around his neck and wrist were dragged behind him as he went, a looming shadow he would never be rid of.
“So what do we do now?” the voice called out from his side and as he turned to look, a younger version of himself walked alongside him with a hand held in his. Alistair could not help but smile at the boy, he could see in his younger self the dreams and aspirations that had not yet been smothered by the suffocating powers that had been his downfall.
“Although these hands of mine were destined to be of Ruin and Destruction, I would see them instead as tools of Creation and Hope. What do you think, Renji?” he replied to his younger self, taking his hand as they continued walking through the tall grass and fields of flowers.
“I think.. I think I would like that. That seems nice!” the exclamations of the boy, his enthusiasm sent a mix of emotions through his own heart. He could remember being excited about the world of possibilities, a world he would never get a chance to explore
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As the two of them stepped beneath the canopy of trees and into the secluded grove, the ground was covered in blood red flowers and at the centre of the grove was a small unmarked grave. He knew this place, he had been here before and it was sacred, but it was a secret he held dear not for himself, but for another. His attention was immediately drawn however to the excited yelp of a dog in the immediate area.
“Kaida!” the boy exclaimed in joy, releasing Alistair's hand and rushing forth as the young pup came bounding out of the grass with several flowers stuck in her mane. Alistair swallowed hard, a hand coming to his chest as he felt the pangs of regret and guilt eat away at him.
“Kaida..” came his own words of disbelief, dropping to his knees as the young boy and the dog chased each other around the blooming grove. He recalled how his father had forced him to brutally murder her, a sacrifice to the Hells and a lesson which would corrupt the innocent soul of the dog forevermore. Here in his dreams however, she was safeguarded as she always was meant to be. The young pup bounded up to him and nestled her head against his leg.
“Kaida.. My sweet girl.. How i’ve missed you..” as his arms came to wrap around her in an embrace and as tears welled in his eyes. The reunion would slowly fade away as consciousness dawned on him once more.
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In the Waking World
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In that secluded cavern nestled in the mountainous range south of Lichtenwald, the sound of a hammer rang out repeatedly. The echo of metal on metal in short bursts of activity, followed by long silences filled with naught but labored breathing and gasps for air. Alistair held a strange relic in his hands, the toolhead of some long forgotten Artificer he had claimed beyond one of the many sealed doors on Aevos. He studied it intently, sweat dripping down his forehead and staining his clothes as he slumped against the cave wall with hammer in hand.
The Hells had sapped his strength and it had been some time since he had been forced to push his aging body like this, but the efforts would be worth it in the end.
"Let this be a token of a changed man, let this be a solemn vow that i will become the man you always thought i could be."
As the light of day dwindled once more, the distant echo of hammer strikes would sing out across the mountain for some time yet..