Xerdun's Resignation - All Ends Tied Up On Page 2

[Xerdun 117]

I wanted to make this post as I don't feel its fair to keep everyone in the dark any longer and wanted to give everyone an accurate idea from my own mouth fingers.

I want to begin by saying that I love you guys - each and every one of you who has supported, helped, contributed to or become a Kharajyr. Every one of you. It gives me such an immense feeling of pride that I've had the privilege of working alongside all of you people and you have all contributed to me having an immense amount of fun on this server. Its truly been an honour. But this is where the issues begin to arise. As many have noted the Kharajyr have been struggling. I don't want to point the finger but I think this is due to a lot of problems, many of them perhaps of my own creation. Stress has played a massive part in my life since this race came to fruition and alongside the immense stress of university I've been experiencing recently, what with exams and deadlines creeping in, I've just not had the time I would have liked to commit to the race. The story doesn't end there though, unfortunately and for reasons that I will go on to explain, my enthusiasm has died. The failing nature of the race alongside my general boredom with minecraft has led to a feeling of forced-ness when logging on to the server. Its not something that I feel I want to do anymore, it feel likes a chore I'm doing for everyone else. This normally wouldn't be a massive issue, but since I hold a position of responsibility I feel I'm being fairly selfish. Which is further nulling my enthusiasm.

This, coupled with everyone's love for teamspeak. Usually I give in and go onto teamspeak and I'll admit, I've had a lot of fun on there. But at the same time, its also contributed massively to my stress levels, what with people constantly asking me questions and the admins ever persistence that the race is falling apart and the only way to save it is by culling the playerbase.

So this is me, not resigning yet from my position, but giving it some very serious thought. There's no way I'd be able to be active over this weekend anyway, but I'm going to be giving resigning some very serious thought.

I'm so sorry that my enthusiasm is gone but I don't feel its fair to anyone to continue playing half-arsedly when someone with genuine enthusiasm could take over the role and inject some much needed life into the race. I want to stress that this is no one's fault (except my own really) but nothing lasts forever and I fear this could the end of my time on the server. Thank you to everyone who has given me so, so many fond memories of this server which I'm sure I'll hold with me for many years.

I shall give my official decision on Monday night. Please, feel free to leave your honest opinions of what I should do below. Thank you for taking the time

[Eledyr 85]

I am going to be honest when I say this,

Dear xerdun I have "helped" on this race since september and I have always known you as a hardworking loyal and most of all kind person. I would hate to see you leave but I would understand. Always remember nomatter howmuch fun this game is it is what it is,...a game. Never put it before your own personal life and especially not infront of your study's since they are your future.

So that is why I say xerdun, if you think you can keep doing this and still pass your study's then pleas stay. If not however than give the position to someone else, temporary untill you are ready to claim it again.

[Lirinya 4021]

This is me speaking as a person who has spent time talking to you and interacting with the race.

There will be issues. The server it's self is having them. Now the cats have 'been let out of the bag' there are bound to be teething problems. Especially deciding on how to interact with the world around them.

I respect the fact you think it would be better for somebody else to take over - as you don't feel as you cando what you wanted, or feel you have lost the love for them - But I honestly think that if RP was enforced on the island, bringing in more religion, more cultural events - which is what I initially wished for, something to separate them from the rest, that they would flourish.

This isn't a race which you want to be general like the rest. They need to be detailed and deep.

My honest response to this post is, I think if you did what you planned initially. Surely you had views on how you wanted the race to be? They may just become better than you think. They just need guidance.

[Praetor 1550]

Well, I for one know you put loads of work in, and <3 you for that, but if you don't have the enthusiasm, then if I were you, I would step down, nobody will blame you if you stop because you don't have the will.

[Wretched 2075]

We are all so pleased with all the effort you have put in. Leaving your position would not be a choice you would take lightly, I know that. And I understand exactly why you would do it.

Not many can say that they created a new race on the server. You have left us all something that will never be forgotten. Just take this into consideration, what if this is just a stage? I'm sure that if you managed to get through all this then you would reach your 'light at the end of the tunnel'.

However we would never force you to do something you don't enjoy. Although I can't say I agree with you leaving, we all love you back so much!

[Wobbajack 119]

It's sad to read this, and I can personally say that when I saw this on the "New Topics" list I had a mini heart attack. It's sad to see this day come, but I assume it is all for the best. It would be no fair to force you into doing something that you don't want to. So if you wish to step down...that would probably be the best option. If you do intend to step down, I would encourage that you set up one last big RP event.

[ΚΨΙΞ 710]

I saw this coming from a mile, we were all putting to much stress on you that it became unstable for you to cooperate. Perhaps take a break from LotC for a while... let someone else take position of Tlatlanni then when you return, attend to your royal liege.

[Admiral_Ackbarf 67]

Xerdun I know how hard you have worked on this race and your contribution to the server with bedrock VIP and I really hope that you can stay. Whether or not you choose to continue playing Minecraft is your decision but we will find a way to make sure the Kharajyr's race stays and that we can maintain all of the people who join into our wilderness area and not wonder off into Ausulon. We need to make sure this happens for our race to continue and I think i'll put out a post very shortly explaining this better. Well anyways Xerdun I wish you the best.

[Xerdun 117]

I'm still going to leave my final judgement until Monday night, but here's what I think is most likely going to happen. I'm probably going to resign and be relatively inactive until after my exams (which aren't actually that far away). Then, once summer hits I'll most likely return again. Obviously I wouldn't expect to be made Emperor again but I'd like to be able to play a Kharajyr of sorts. Your kind words honestly mean so much to me and that's why I don't think I'd want to leave the server permanently ever

[154684321654951 73]

It's totally understandable that you've have thoughts about resignation, when you're in college dealing with exams and all that as well as managing a race of cat people. I can only imagine what kind of stress this builds.

Though, if you think it is best to resign I think the entirety of the Kha player base would understand. Like you said there's always the summer to re-take your position if you do end up resigning.

Tl;dr - Do what you gotta do Xerdun!

[chaotikal 2392]

If you leave, conceive me first.

[Akeron 55]

Let me start off by saying that the Kharajyr is the only reason the Alchemist Akeron is still playing minecraft.

Let me finish by saying that I feel the exact same way. I am offline far to often, and that was why I was going to make Deco the Varkolu sooner or later. She left so I'm going to pass it down to who I feel is most deserving, but I'm not on enough to say who is.

Edit:

I quit LOTC November I'm pretty sure. I rejoined December to restart the Kharajyr idea.

I left again after that was denied, I came back when it was accepted again, and now it is in a state of downfall.

[Wretched 2075]

Downfall will be fixed. Just a phase I'm sure.

[DecoLamb 959]

*sighs and slips on her gloves

I cant leave these kittens alone for a single moment can I? Is it time for another 'peaceful' take over so you can chill Xerdun?

[Samson Option 9652]

Xerdun,

You have had the privilege as I have had to bring something completely and utterly new to this server, from the ground up, primarily if not only on the back of beautiful, creative Lore. Your lore-writing ability I have found to be something I have sometimes felt diminished my own Lore-Writing for the Teutonic Order, Hanseti, the Subudai, and the Ancient Dwarf Lore, for that I give you my earnest respect hardly provoked; you deserve it however. It is truly a great experience seeing a collective of skilled, creative, and ingenious writers converge on Lord of the Craft, you in my humble opinion are one. I do not speak as to sound strange, but your letter honestly seems parallel to my own situation in the past and what I am going through now. My tenure as Hochmeister of the Teutonic Order was of great enjoyment no doubt, having written one of the most viewed and popular Lores in LotC was one that honed my mind and my intelligence in terms of linguistics and literature. Having ushered in a new nation with the Realm of Hanseti, I continued to enjoy, but shortly it waned. Let us both be honest, University is rough, but perhaps one of the most important experiences in our lives. One that we definitely do not want to forsaken and life-changing at that. Ultimately, as will I, perhaps at the end of this semester or after this summer, perhaps it is time to take the high road and move on from LotC. It is your absolute choice, but know that I'm going through the same decision-making.