Life Worth Living

[Tayelikel 193]

elphaba looked around her hut frowning at how empty It seemed. she hadn't seen sharku Sense the day he took the baby, their baby Into the wild, she had long Since given up hope that her son was alive. It had just been another failure In her life. She had hoped that the spirits she served so devoutly would come to her aid, to bless her son and give him back to her.

so far there had been no sign of him, only the empty grass on her yard.at night when no one cold see. She would leave her hut and go to the water. As a tribute to her firstborn, lost in the cave of the druids to murder and to her Newborn, She would light candles and say her prayers. the other orcs Ignored her or did not care enough to notice her existence. Why would they She was only a half blood to them, not worth their time, no matter what she did she was never good enough.

As Elphaba Sat in her hut tending to her fireplace she noticed a Knife sitting on the tabletop, most likely from dinner the night before. The thought crossed her mshd how easy It would be to take the blade and cut. She had done it before as a child. only an arms reach away. She could end it, the Pain. She could fade away to nothing and let the endless fight stop. She would feel nothing of it. Only let the sweet empty void take her. She could let the world go and be with talion. All her life suffering would end.

"And give up just like that" a voice who she couldn't place as either her own subconscious or a supernatural presence called. Elphaba put her hand on the handle of the knife

"I'm done trying...I fail...every time the fight seems over I still lose" Elphaba looked around but it was only her own murmurs responding to the voice. Her grip tightens on the hilt "i am worthless to them. A nothing"

"And who are you to judge your worth! How can you say what you're worth?! By what you do? By what you build or buy! YOU CAN NEVER KNOW! Only the spirits eyes may judge you..only krug. May judge you"

with a swift motion elphaba threw the knife. The resounding thud of the blade digging into the wood echoed in the hut. Elphaba fell to her knees. hiding her head in her hands. Shaking as once again the inner war continued. The raw emotions. Memories of the pain of the birth mixed with the image of her soulmate carrying their child away burned at her unforgiving in their vividness. She could still feel pain as she woke up to see sharku holding him. The pain of her heart breaking as her helpless newborn was carried off.

Elphaba had forgotten how a good sleep was supposed to feel. Four months since the birth of her child had passed and each day only brought more pain to her. Forcing herself up off the floor of her hut. She heard the loud commotion of orcs outside. Hearing only bits of what seemed to be important news she opened her door and joined her brothers.

Something was off. Something was wrong and Elphaba looked around. Unsure of what it could be. She ignored the most ignorant and pathetic orcs. The one calling her ****. The few giving her dirty looks. elphaba had no interest in them. Looking around it dawned on her what was wrong.

"Sharku?" She called out "where's sharku?" And in one moment. Elphabas entire world shattered.

"Your mate is dead" one of the orcs said flatly. A few laughed mockingly at her. It didn't matter to her. Elphaba stood there. Dumbfounded. With one quick sentence. A few words. She had no hesitation. She knew what she wanted, turning back to look at her hut the calling of another orc had gone unnoticed. Wanting nothing more than to feel the iron blade against her chest elphaba was blinded by all else. With a empty dead gaze. She slowly forced herself toward the house. Dragging through the path. Her mind lost.

Sharku. The one who taught her how to become becomes orc. The one who loved her for her without any hesitation. Elphaba had always confided in him. Shared everything she was with him. The memories of their first klomp. Showing and teaching each other shamanism. The way he always could guide her. No one knew her like he did. The only thing left that was good in her world was gone now. Taken from her. Elphaba wanted to scream to the spirits. How could they be so cruel to her. Everything in her life she had done to try and find her place in life. She gave up her elven side to join the orcs to be free and be herself. How little that served her

"No good deed...goes unpunished" Elphaba played the motto in her head over over and over again. Knowing It to be her life lesson.

"I know where your cub is" in that moment. Elphaba snapped around "you what?where?" She asked. Finding herself back into reality. Not remembering she had been speaking until now. The orc before her nodded and beckoned her to follow. Through the sands and into the forest she was led. For miles she followed until she heard the babbling of of a newborn.

Elphaba ran. Sprinted until right before her slept a newborn orc. She picked the little one up in her arms. The cub stirred. Opening there eyes "blue and green" Elphaba Smiled "you are mine..." hugging the kub tight. She thanked the orc many time over. The cub In her arms her new life. The reason to live. With this cub alive. She to needed to keep fighting she hurried home. Bringing the kub inside and to her room "you're strong...you will thrive my boy...I promise...I won't fail. Not again"

[hellfiazz 879]

Buubztik grunts as he sees Elphaba returning from the wild, kub in arm.

[Tom_Whiteman 949]

              Zogrocka'Rax would watch Elphaba return with the cub. He'd approach her, his eyes staring down at the cub as he gives a slight nod of approval, the only word escaping his lip was, "Hosh."

[Meulin 17]

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[Tayelikel 193]

best post ever! 10/10 love you!

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