Heart and Blood

[Kvasir 1121]

    There is a certain way that I feel balance plays into the lives of all of us. Comfort, ideas, relationships, etc. It plays into all of these, and when you are too tipped to one side you will feel one way, but never whole. That is because what defines you as being whole IS balance, one cannot be whole with all heart and no blood, and one cannot be all blood and no heart. You have to keep it balanced, you have to find that balance, you can change yourself by pretending, you can trick yourself easily but there is always going to be a tugging at you, there will never be true contentment, at least not for me. I don't feel that I have enough blood at times, or enough heart at times, I feel horrible about this all. Paranoid, like something is wrong, or too comfortable it feels unreal, I have to fabricate problems for myself to handle, it  becomes too much. There has been balance, and that balance is not here with me now, not true balance ever. I don't feel that blood flowing, is what I'm trying to say, I don't feel much of anything raw really any more, it's like staring through foggy glass most times, just to gravitate back to that illuminating screen and stream of entertainment. Everything I do is just to entertain myself, there is stuff to be done but it is for the entertainment of myself only, it eats me up. I eats me up all the time, so I don't think about it, I patch it up and tomorrow I'll be laughing and joking saying what what was I thinking. I'm just writing this to get out my thoughts. Just writing to get it out

 

[Malgonious 2758]

What

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You don't need to say you feel before you begin a statement, it's already implied because you're the one writing it, it makes you seem unsure.

[Inferno_Ougi 1454]

didnt even read but dab dab dab

[Treshure 5818]

For most of human history, leisure was literally not a thing. If you didn’t work at full capacity nearly all the time, you’d starve and die. The 9-5 is a relatively new idea. Recreational time is also pretty new.

 

Our monkey brains aren’t used to the overwhelming abundance of free time. They sure as hell aren’t accustomed to sitting in front of flashing screens with websites that are programmed to hook you on fractional dopamine loops.

 

Use your time on the computer as a way to unwind after a productive day. Go work out,  study, learn to cook, engage in the real world for a day. When you come home, use the time here to relax and enjoy yourself. But never use it alone - that’s a path to unhappiness and pain in the long run.

 

We weren’t meant for this.

[Zacho 2177]

Moved to The Great Library. It shall be sorted into the appropriate category shortly.

 

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