being alone hurts af, the pain my heart feels is as physical as getting punched, i was kinda used to be lonely and felt it was normal and i could deal with it normally until I met some people in a very unual day of my life, I kinda felt this huge hole going away and a ******* happy energy in my body flowing like when i was used to feel when i was a kid, i tried my whole life to be happy alone but i can't fight my inner needs, socializing is a must and i have to leave my basement or i'm dying of depression, it's scientifically prooved it's impossible to be trully happy alone