THE PERMANENT GUILT

[sanriu 738]

THE PERMANENT GUILT



      


   

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Dear Late Kristopher, I feel as I have no right to be writing this.
Your death will forever be a blame, I shall bear with my conscious.
If I had been more capable of fighting you wouldn't have bled out against that wall.
You would be able to hug your children endlessly, dying from a natural cause..
I should have been bleeding from my heart against the wall, you died defending me.
A Ignorant foolish woman who couldn't defend herself.
If I hadn't been so foolish, and just continued to run from the man I could've rung that bell, and saved your life.
Alas I was Ignorant and instead had gotten myself robbed while I cried because I now carry so much guilt.
Carrying the knowledge that if I had the ability to fight, I could have saved you.
Your death, I feel as it was my fault I will forever be carrying the guilt that It most likely was..
I deserve to sit alone in solitude, alone with no one around.
Seeing as I'm incompetent and cannot defend myself nor anyone else.
For I am weak, I am powerless. 
I had felt like I was bearing so much guilt, that in a moment of distress I had pushed my own daughter away.
I regret this dearly, I regret holding in all my feelings.
I regret so much, but theres nothing I can do to reverse what has been done.
You are now dead, and I now bear the guilt of your death.


[!] The diary laid open on the woman's desk as she left the room to try and fix things with her daughter.