Disklexia 183 Popular Post Share Posted February 20, 2023 Throughout my time in LoTC I had good times and bad times. From the beginning it was my escape from reality when covid hit the world at it's hardest. It was an escape goat from my depression. But just like any drug or addiction the hint of it at the moment might be good. But doing for long term can truly **** you up. Before this server I was a lonely man in VrChat. I met someone on there they were my bestest friend. She was a sweet friend yes she had her problems but still a friend at the end of the day. She would one day introduce me to the server.. She did warn me but I insisted. This action would lead me to joining the server officially. I started off in Norland. Now for those who know this server, when it comes to two or more nations going against each other it is not just rp it's also ooc. Me being a new player did not understand this... My first exposure to the toxicity. I was loved in Norland. Back then it had a settlement. Where my best friend at the time resides in. This settlement would later be known full of rumors and such. This settlement would cause me trouble to come due to it's leader at the time. Which they are now TOS banned. Thank god they are. I lost my best friend due to drama that went out of hands. I tried to defend the person that was getting oocly targeted but I would shortly get attacked. Rumors soon would spread about me. Nothing really bad more like the leader did not like who I tried to defend. I would soon get my character banished and punished over obvious ooc targeting. Later on the leader would come in VC with me and blame me for every little thing that happen within this settlement. He went to an extreme in this. Made me look bad. And even now I have people still saying this even though they were not there for the situation. I mean yeah I get it I had hurt people but lets be honest. Who in this server hasn't? I would soon move to another place.. This place went from a district in a settlement. Turned into a settlement then too a nation. All I am gonna say. I had so much of a breakdown cause once again I felt targeted. And PK'd a character of mine cause of it. Then after all that time I finally found a community. While was very small I did make my first best friend in a Long time. He helped me through alot of the bullshit and paranoia I was going through. Even him and another player would adopt my character into their rp family. At the time I was really happy. I can't thank them enough. Then another community with players like me that had it bad with the one settlement.. They put their trust in me and that made me happy... I never had people do that before in a sense of lordship. I went through my up and downs.. Had good moments and bad moment. All I want to say is that I feel like my paranoia is getting the best of me.. Feeling like I am gonna be attacked again and people talking behind my back. I am slowly realizing my mental health is declining. I am too worried about this server where it put me in a unhealthy position in my own mental health. Now will I come back? Well I don't know. But I am for sure putting up the towel for now. I had a good run and met good people. But I can't afford to be on this server anymore. I do want to thank three communities on making me feel welcomed. Vortice, Helious, and Nor'asath. Thank you for having me as you member of your communities. I am sorry it had to be this way but. I am not well. Thank you all for having me. It was a good run. 45 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
rukio 8910 Share Posted February 20, 2023 Norland's leadership's issues with how they treat people outside of their circle jerk genuinely needs to be addressed by staff. Sorry this happened to you. Best of luck wherever you go. 21 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Werew0lf 12006 Share Posted February 20, 2023 hope u come back dude vrchat is underrated also it was fun trolling people there i once tried to convince someone there to join LOTC 8 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
candyzeroyal 118 Share Posted February 20, 2023 im gonna miss you disc, you were a really good friend of mine and i hope you come back in the future but take all the time you need 4 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
TeawithFrisket 2617 Share Posted February 20, 2023 NOOOOO NOT MY FAVORITE RED HEAD Helious always has the house you will can always call home, Have fun friend and my DMs are always Ocean 4 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fawnytheturtle 705 Share Posted February 20, 2023 I will miss you buddy, I know we had our up and downs, I miss our chats though I give you space as I feel like you need it. I have had my struggles too, I been at my breaking point a few times. I made a few enimies that well make no sense to why, I hope you come back and if you ever want to chat again my discord is open 2 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bethinwonderland 1042 Share Posted February 20, 2023 We love you Disk, and we will miss you while you are gone. I'll do my best to keep in touch 6 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
ValleyOfLavender 192 Share Posted February 20, 2023 There is many toxic people on lotc, but most of the time they are never dealt with, I know I've been ocly targeted and felt ignored when I brought it up, I'm sorry you've had to feel such a way I know there's many that has been in your position all I can say is I hope your leave will help you get better 6 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pancho 2498 Share Posted February 20, 2023 GL in life man, hope this place man be your escape once more 6 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
AnimeWolf0080 1493 Share Posted February 20, 2023 Take care dude, I hope your metal health will start to get better with time. Enjoyed the time we've spent together, Rply & Ocly. All be it short in the grand scheme of life. I'll always be here if you need someone to talk with, even if we don't really talk anymore. You have my number should you need. Take care dude, make sure to rest and drink some water. 3 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
JoshBright 2104 Share Posted February 20, 2023 I believe I have said most of what I needed to in our hours-long VC today after you put this post up, HOWEVER, I will say this once more, you are a pillar of our community, you are a friend - my friend, my dms are open, you can text n call me when-ever, where-ever I will always be here to support you :) 3 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
UnBaed 8910 Share Posted February 20, 2023 Don't think I got a chance to ever see you around before on the server, though I hope things get better for you during your time away <3 I am sorry to hear about your poor experiences, no one ever deserves to go through that sort of stuff. Take as much time as you need away, whether it's permanent or temporary! If you do end up coming back, I'll be sure to keep a lookout for you on the server for RP! 2 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
ThatFunkyBunch 2037 Share Posted February 20, 2023 Go rest up and touch some grass king. You know you're always welcome to chat with me any time you want. 3 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
oryP 960 Share Posted February 20, 2023 Good luck outside of lotc, my ban has made me realize how addicting it is. Good for you for being able to know when it affects your personal life 6 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
ColonelKuehl1 483 Share Posted February 20, 2023 Take care my man, I hope to still vc with you from time to time! You'll be missed my dude. 5 Link to post Share on other sites More sharing options...
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