Julia Quilla Pachakutiq, ne Leomonte, sister to Rodrigo, re-read through the missive again, her heart heavy. It was a necessary step, so that both Viru and Rodrigo could find their own happiness, but she had a feeling her brother wouldn't see things that way.
He had changed, at some point in time. When was it? Before the war? After? She remembered the boy who was fiercely protective of his family, who was proud of his culture. Still, there were always signs.
That time he'd pulled out a macana and attacked her magic teacher for pronouncing their surname wrong. The incidents in school. His bullishness with the Petran woman he'd loved, the way he'd challenged the man his love had chosen, despite the princess firmly telling him no. The time he attacked the leader of a vassal that they were in peace talks with. During the Haelun'or judgement, where he'd gleefully attempted to cut off elf ears until their Ama stopped him. Everywhere she went, she would hear things. 'Rodrigo did this. Rodrigo did that.' People always telling her stories of her brother's violent tendencies. It became a question. 'What do we do about Rodrigo?' The Council had meetings. She knew they did. Letters arrived from other vassal leaders, from Idunians, all with complaints.
Was it too late, when he lost the privilege of attempting a bid for Lord-Paramount? Was that the straw? He'd been so confident that he would be the leader one day. She knew it broke their Ama's heart. He'd already been pulling away, spending more time in the Empire than in Viru at that point, riding around with the Dragon Knights. How he admired them so! Was he a Templar, then? Or was it after? Either way, his rage problem had only grown upon accepting that connection.
They'd tried to temper him. To give him meaningful tasks, a court position, trying to get him engaged in Viru. Trying to offer him a future. He was fixated on one thing, though- a move to the Empire. He wanted Viru to leave Idunia and move to the Empire. He had friends there. Felt like he belonged there. So what was the breaking point? When was it too late? When did he decide that he could never belong here, and instead needed to leave to be happy? When had his frustration turned to resentment, cruelty?
What more could they have done?
Julia looked next to the missive that he'd written, the biting, accusatory words. He loved her, once.
She remembered him comforting her when she'd been teased. Threatening the girls who'd bullied her. She remembered him sparring with her, giving her pointers, helping her learn to fight. She remembered when their Father had died, and she'd been lying in that hospital bed for months on end, recovering from horrible burns- and he'd held her hand. She remembered recently, when that innocent serving girl was going to be burned at the stake at the word of a paranoid nobleman, when she'd begged them to test her with Thahnium, and he'd stepped up with her, to offer his Thahnium. Because she asked him to. He saved that girl's life, because his sister asked him to. He was a good brother, once upon a time.
And she loved him. She still loved him. Even if he went out of his way to never see him again, she would keep the brother who took care of her close to her heart.
Viru hadn't suited him. He hadn't been happy here. But he had friends in the Empire. A wife. A future that he wanted, even if it didn't include his family. And that was alright. So long as he was happy. Maybe one day, his rage would cease, and they would meet again- two Tawantinsuyins, both different, but the same People.
Julia lifted the paper to her lips, kissing it once, before folding it, along with Viru's missive, and locking them up tight in her bedside drawer. "Be free, Rodrigo," she murmured, "May you find the happiness you couldn't find here. Tupananchikkama."