Goodbye, Everyone.

[Muse of Heart 16]

I honestly feel like I'm going to regret this post in the future but I feel like I'm not going to be able to log back onto LOTC anymore. For a while it was a fun experience for me but more and more things happened and slowly I started to associate it with stress and I had to force myself to get back on at first even if things are fine afterwords. I finally understood that I can't dance around this anymore with inactivity. I honestly can't see me coming back. The only reason I ever did was for my characters... I put fictional beings that I gave life to over me. The main character that I went through the anxiety of "but what if this happens" for was Marie Talines. I've been playing this game for almost 2 years now I believe, I've honestly lost count. For most of that time I have been playing as Marie and watching her mostly negative development. I hate to just give her and my other characters just a dismissive ending for closure, this is what I tried to avoid, but I really can't see myself coming back. I've tried to get my mind to cut it out when I felt dread in logging on. I think I just have too much wrong with my head to keep playing. I'm sorry I couldn't just chill out like people told me to. I genuinely wish I could...

For what will happen to my characters,

Marie Talines has again gone missing as she usually does from time to time. But this time, she has left absolutely no note that she would do so. It is unknown whether or not she is alive, but what is known by the people who have familiarized themselves with her know that she has no sanity left to spare. (It can be up to the people who know her whether or not they find her. Knowing her she most likely got sloppy on purpose with her killings to get herself offed.)

Mary o'Nett has been missing since Athera. It is unknown of whether or not she got onto the boats, but she herself feels as it doesn't matter, as nobody would want to look for her anyways. I wonder if wooden doll children can float?

Bramblerose Bumbleroot, aka Granny Bramble, died of her old age well before the end of Athera. She wasn't discovered because of the prophecy of the worm destroying it, but it would be foolish if the Halflings continued to hold onto the hope that she is alive.

Zulzul, however, did make it onto the boats. The young mentally disabled Kharajyr met a grizzly fate in the new lands of Vailor however, having fallen off a cliff thinking he turned into a butterfly. 

Alys Folet drowned in the sailing over to Vailor. It is theorized that she willingly jumped into the ocean to meet death.

 

If I am to come back, only the deaths of Alys Folet and Zulzul are official. Either way, they are dead. It is unknown that if I come back that I will play as Mary or Bramblerose, but I think Marie will still be my main character no matter what. I would like to thank everyone who rped with me, whether we were friends or enemies. I would especially like to thank Katonah, Novastral, Apiel, and OperationFuego for both their impact on Marie and their kindness towards me.

 

If I'm to get better in the head, I'll be sure to come back. I'm sorry everyone. But I'm sure some of you wanted me gone anyways, so, I'm happy for you.

[Taylor 504]

godspeed cousin

Edited September 18, 2015 by SpiffyTaylor

[Ventai 291]

Who else will I share ice cream with?

[Stephensj 327]

rip

[Nekkore 641]

Even though I have never roleplayed with you I had the feels hit me for some reason T_T

[Ventusyr 233]

I get this. I'm so sorry, it's not fun. If you do come back, good on you, but I don't blame you at all if you don't want to. Take care of yourself kid.

[Kilig 333]

o/ toodles goodluck~

[Heff 2460]

pce

[Angmarzku 1251]

Well good luck

[Birdwhisperer 1174]

Moved to the Archive. It shall be sorted into the appropriate category shortly.