Dear Cruz, I wrote you but you still ain't calling,
I left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom,
I sent two letters back in autumn, you must not-a got 'em,
There probably was a problem at the post office or something,
Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em,
But anyways; f*ck it, what's been up? Man how's your daughter?
My girlfriend's pregnant too, I'm bout to be a father,
If I have a daughter, guess what I'ma call her?
I'ma name her Milena,
I read about your Uncle Ruben too, I'm sorry,
I had a friend kill himself over some ***** who didn't want him,
I know you probably hear this everyday, but I'm your biggest fan,
I even got the underground **** that you did with Romanen,
I got a room full of your posters and your pictures man,
I like the **** you did with Roggvir too, that **** was fat,
Anyways, I hope you get this man, hit me back,
just to chat, truly yours, your biggest fan,
This is Soren.
Dear Cruz, you still ain't called or wrote, I hope you have a chance,
I ain't mad - I just think it's FUCKED UP you don't answer fans,
If you didn't wanna talk to me outside your concert,
You didn't have to, but you coulda signed an autograph for Altiak,
That's my little brother man, he's only six years old,
We waited in the blistering cold for you,
Four hours and you just said, "No."
That's pretty shitty man - you're like his ******* idol,
He wants to be just like you man, he likes you more than I do,
I ain't that mad though, I just don't like being lied to,
Remember when we met in Petrus - you said if I'd write you,
You would write back - see I'm just like you in a way,
I never knew my father neither;
He used to always cheat on my mom and beat her,
I can relate to what you're saying in your songs,
so when I have a shitty day, I drift away and put 'em on,
cause I don't really got **** else so that **** helps when I'm depressed,
I even got a tattoo with your name across the chest,
Sometimes I even cut myself to see how much it bleeds,
It's like adrenaline, the pain is such a sudden rush for me,
See everything you say is real, and I respect you cause you tell it,
My girlfriend's jealous cause I talk about you 24/7,
But she don't know you like I know you Cruz, no one does,
She don't know what it was like for people like us growing up,
You gotta call me man, I'll be the biggest fan you'll ever lose,
Sincerely yours, Soren -- P.S.
We should be together too.