rukio

I tried it once before but I didn't get too far
I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart
And all I really wanted was for him to come back
But I waited there forever and he even looked up
I tried it once before and I think I might have messed up
I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough
But maybe I'm alive because I didn't really wanna die
All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
I died to be the white ghost
Of the mess that I was meant to be
I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut
I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough
And I should have told my mother 'mom, I hate you' I'm a bad son
And this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one
I tried it once again and I think I might black out
I should have left a letter but I had nothing to write about
My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up
The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked
This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one