Falling Promise To A New Dawn

[ℤ∃ʁ∅ 823]

 

 

On the lonely night of 9th of The Amber Cold, 1479. In the shadow of the warm camp fire, A tall elf would be by the fire seeming to be looking deep into it.

 

“Who am I really ?”

 

“What real purpose am I to this world..?”

 

“What all remains in my life to be real..?”

 

“When did this all change..?”

 

“Where am I in this place to call a peaceland?”

 

“ Where is my life going..?”

 

“Why must this cycle continue..? “

 

“Why does the pain continue to linger in my heart...? ”

 

“How must I go on from this pain..?”

“

How can one bare so much pain and remain as calm and relaxed as I..?”

 

The countless question invade his mind

 

Ramza looks up the moon with a sadden expression on it his, tightening the grip on his chest closet to his heart. “Why does it hurt so much..?” he looks down to the fire with a painful face.

 

Images of scattered memories flash through out Ramza’s minds, familiar voices echo shattered words.

 

“Rammy you are the best thing that happened to me.”

 

“Ramza my son, You are growing and becoming stronger than you think.”

 

“Daddy you are the best daddy in the world.”

 

“Maln, Never leave again.. I can’t have you end up like mother..”

 

“Father, you cling to such pain and walk the lines of depression. Suck it up be a man.”

 

“Young Ramza, Enough of the dishonor and take pride in oneself. Quit roaming around with your tail behind your legs and straighten up your life if you want to be happy.”
 

“Ramza, Why have I never seen you happy? What is in that hat of yours?”

 

“Until Forever ends Ramza, Always remember that.”

 

“Never give up Daddy, We are Mantisuku’s right? We are suppose to be strong.”

 

“Ramza, You are different from most guys and I like it. Stay that way, you have surprised me in many ways. I regret it had to end this way and I am sorry for most..” voices of his past lovers say all together.

 

“We love you Ramza Mantisuku and there is nothing that will change it. Don’t give up.” a mixture of voice can be heard by his family,lovers and friends.

 

  Ramza closes his eyes tight as the tears flow from his eyes.   “How can I do this alone..? Why must I always be alone to do everything alone..? “ he ask himself.

 

 

 

 

 

As the night slowly continues, He looks to the side of him where lays a ring on the ground.

“With such an hope.. one of pain and such sadness… Why do I keep such a burden.. what must be done..” he picks up the ring, slowly raising to his feet as he looks deep into the ring.

 

“I will miss everyone..”

He says tightening the grip on the ring as he walks away from the campsite.

 

Soon Ramza appears to be on the edge of a cliff looking out to the gaze of the ocean. He takes a deep breathe as he closes his eyes.

 

“What more am I..?”

 

“What really makes me a different person than most?”

“As a father to the future’s generation of Mali. Even though I am not a holy man myself, I still pray every sleepless night that whatever god there is to watch over you all..”

 

“Prishe, My sweet little sister keep our name in honor..”

 

“Ouity and Isabella..My dear mother and father that took me in..”

 

“Elswyen..Thank you for helping me regain my memories..I am at most grateful.. you are an beautiful and strong Mali, and do not let anyone tell you otherwise..”

 

“Grandmother Nienna.. You are my role model..Please take care of my children..they are all I have..”

 

“Sarriet..I know you are up there some..watching me I hope you are in peace..”

 

“Rydia..there is never a day I do not think of how I was blessed to have you as my first child..”

 

“Rhyme..I am sorry..how things turned out..when you past..I did keep the promise for so many years..Our daughters have grown up into great women..”

 

“Mikazuki..my second daughter… I know you have passed on and I hope you can finally be happy with your mother..I know she misses you and your sister so much..”

 

“Meiko..You have always made me so proud becoming a cleric..you have given the family new hope..even though you and your sister fought I love you both.. I am sorry for not telling you about her..I hope one day you can forgive me..I miss you so much like your mother and sister..I do hope you are safe..”

 

“Aveaan..I still remember the day the day I saved you from that monster and took you in as my own.. From that day I have always been proud of you just like my other children..I know me and you had a great bond and you wanted to make me proud.. which is something you’ve always done.. I am sorry about what happened in the Conclave..I know you forgive me..but I can not forgive myself.. ”

 

“Laurira..I still remember how we met..in the Fringe, I do not regret meeting you at all.. even though things went into chaos..we both knew we wanted to protect each other but had the opposite ideas..I still love you.. I wish for your return.. and can only think back to the good times we had in Fringe.. I only wish that you were here with Raury and we’d raise him like our perfect idea..but things changed...I do not regret it though..I only wish you are out there somewhere..safe and alive..I am sorry..”

 

“Raursaur..my first son..you have no idea how blessed I felt when have my first son..such hard to have in our family..I’m sorry I was not there with your mother..to help raise  you while I ran the Academy..I should have been a better father than a Headmaster.. I hope you out there alive.. you are a strong man..both me and your mother will love you no matter what..I love you Raursaur..”

 

“Crystal..I know..you were right...I am too good for you...and you want me to be with someone else.. that can handle the luxury and peaceful life..I understand..thank you for being with me and the blessed times we have spent with each other.. and our children..as you said..they will follow their parents.. thank you for being with me and the twins, even though we are not together..I care much of yours and their happiness..They are our future..and our hope..I do not regret our years together..please stay safe..and in the childrens life..they need their parents in their life..”

 

“Luna..Freyr.. my children… please listen to your mother…take in the lessons I have given to you both..I am sorry that me and your mother did not work out.. do not ever blame yourselves..we love you more than you will ever love us..Please take care of each other..keep the family close..change our future into peace and happiness.. ”

 

“Eren..You have grown so so much..I am glad and proud of my first student.. you impress me more and more.. you’ve changed so much and grown in your mind and heart.. Keep it that way..I always thought of you as my son..Please keep yourself and Poppy safe.. she needs the love and care she deserves..you and her are both my closest friends and family I will ever have.. no matter what.. I love you both..”

 

“Poppy..You still wearing shoes… It seems you have grown up as well.. but still not as tall as me.. even though you have not fully trusted me in the past, all the pain I have caused you… do not think that it was on for fun or to harm you.. I did many things from the shadows to protect you and Eren.. so you don't have to waiver on me..I love you so much my growing Poppy… take care of yourself and Eren..you both are perfect together.. ”

 

He confesses as he hangs his head and body trembling, more tears stream from his eyes.

 

“I love you all so much.. I would do anything to make you all happy and see the smiles on your faces once more..”

 

 

As something dark and robed lurks from the trees watching him as he speaks, listing all the names into its mind.

 

“What can I keep to our promises..?”

 

“How many promises have I blindy broken..?”

 

“Why did I make promises others have trusted me with..?”

 

“I continue to make promises I am too foolish to overcome..”

 

“How can I promise on things I simply can not do with my hands alone..?”

 

“With the bonds of such a life filled promise.. what am I to others..?”

 

“Am I really different from others.. men of loyalty to their nation or family to soon betray one or the other..? “

 

“Can I really promise such of this I will be betraying of what I love so dear to my life..?”

 

“What promise can I hold to me so close that will fill my happiness..?”

 

“Is the promise of forever happiness such my strive to achieve..?”

 

“With what promise has been told to me and broken..?”

 

“How much has been broken in me..?”

 

“Can I really help others without helping myself..?”

 

“Who am I to the ones I help without the worry of my own safety..? Am I different..?”

 

“What promised path in my life did I embark on ? It has changed ever so..”

 

“Is death really the last hope of a forever happiness..?” He opens his eyes to the gaze of the ocean , with a long sigh.

 

“Is such strive we want as a promised land.. of no chaos, just harmony..? Is that really promised?”

 

“I’ve been promised many things.. but how many of these promises have been broken..?”

 

“To think.. have those promises broke me..?

 

  The dark figure seeps back into the shadows of trees to make sure it is hidden  .

 

“Can something or someone that has been broken so many times ever be fixed..?”

 

“I have tried..many things.. to fix what is broken… but they become broken again.. should I let what is broken say broken..?”

 

“If its meant to stay broken and can not be fixed..Does that mean I should stay broken..?”

 

“I am broken.. the people that hold me together.. can not fully fix me.. such sad times where the helper can not be helped from the ones he has helped.”

 

“Is that why I am so different after all..?”

 

“I promise… this pain will end…” he says taking a deep gulp.

 

In few moments of silence, A large flock of birds come up from the cliff, as the noises of the birds and the roaring waters are left.

 

The only sign left on the ground would  be his red feathered hat.

 

The tall figure would step out from the shadows. He looks to the site and lets out a deep sigh as he sits next to the edge.

 

 

“It’s okay my son… You have done enough.. your promise is kept with me.. rest your mind and soul.. I am sorry I wasn’t there to help you like a father should.. Your mother would be so proud of what we brought into the world. My grandchildren will always be Embervales and Mantisukus.. I love you my dear son Ramza Mantisuku..  Maln was always proud of what you can do..”

 

Hours later, what it would seem to be a stone gravestone with a wild rose planted with Ramza’s hat on it.

 

Engraved on the stone.

 

“Here rest Ramza Mantisuku

 

A better father one could ever be.

 

Rest in Piece

 

Snow’s Maiden,1427 - 10th of The Amber Cold, 1479 “

 

“True love is selfless. It is prepared to sacrifice, with all that is sacrificed for others happiness and joy.

Think outside the box. Do not let the curiosity take you down the wrong regretful path. Take in all of the happiness as you can, once you have achieve that happiness brought by one. Do not let them leave your life.

 

Never say goodbye. If you don't say goodbye then you aren't really gone, you just aren't here right now.

 

“ -Ramza Mantisuku

 

Days after, There would be no sign of Ramza around any of the areas he goes to.

 

Can a shadow be remembered if nothing made the shadow?

 

OOC

 

Well guys, sorry for the sadness of the post. Thought it was something worth to type up. If this made you cry I am sorry.. it was hard to type at the end. If there are any mistakes my apologies. this is strictly an RP thread. Please respect the RP of this. If you would like to comment please make it mature. :)

 

I’ve been playing Ramza since I started a year ago. He was quite the unique character I must say, playing him was very emotionally fun and I learned a lot about roleplaying and trying out new things when I joined the server. There was never a time I wanted to rage off the server when I was RP killed or pvp killed, hell even mob killed. LOTC has made me many friends and experiences. DONT think when reading this, “Oh no Ramza is dead now does that mean Zer0 is leaving?!” That is a great question. No i am not leaving LOTC , even though it has been changing for the good or bad. I think we are still a standing Roleplaying server and still growing. The hate is something though, but hey we are all beings in this world. I do not hate anyone on the server, I just hope one day the server will be happy and everyone will enjoy what others put onto this server. I mean the art,videos,builds,and stories.

 

To me, Lord of the Craft is just a huge story that never stops changing. The experiences of new players and old player interacting with each other can change someones life.

 

That change has changed my life for the good. I would like to thank everyone on the server for that, I have learned so much and grateful of it.

 

I’ve learned from Ramza’s life story, we all have pain and struggle in our lives. We all have different ways to overcome that struggle in our lives. Whether together or alone we must raise up and not submit to our fear,loneliness,depression,hate. You must find the strength within ourselves and overcome it. Even at a young age, in time we will grow up and face even harder challenges. This is a game, and every gamer should know you learn something from the games you play.

 

Its in our hands to do what we are given.

 

But enough of that Deep stuff.. If you wonder. “Is Ramza really dead? Why would you kill off your main character? What is the reason..?”

 

Answer is: I never said anything about it, in all great book series there is something that the reading always wants to go back to.

 

So yeah guys hope you like the post! see you later ! ~

 

Zer0
 

Edited November 4, 2014 by Zer0

[Mystearica 5]

Mikazuki sits with her children. Her weakening health keeping her from doing much more than being tended to by her children. "Papa..." she murmurs softly as she reads the letter knowing her father was gone. She coughs into a rag, seeing the blood stain the cloth. "Wait for me please."

[monkeypoacher 8055]

Mikael clutched his chest and heaved, his spectral figure lurching forward. The light of his eyes wavered and he sniffled and broke into racking, dry sobs. Truth be told, Mikael had never spoken much to Ramza Mantisuku. He didn't know much, but what he did know is that Ramza was a better man than he'd ever be, and he respected that. A man who had gotten so much worse than anyone could have deserved, while so many, including Mikael himself, had enjoyed far better. A volatile stew of guilt and sorrow boiled in his veins, and the poltergeist lied hunched forward until he eventually faded away in the sunlight.

 

"Why..."

 

((...damn))

[Ryn Chirr 224]

((I didn't get a goodbye... :( ))

 

Ryn hears the news of Ramza's death and sits quietly for a long time, staring at the ocean waters on the other side of the walls of Thess. Her hand reaches up and brushes the hair back from her eye as she thinks about life. "Ramza, I loved you at one point as my father. You took me into your home when I was in need. You gave me my mother. You taught me a lot about what family is supposed to be through your actions and inaction. You were misguided and so wrong on so many things... But you were in the end a good man... a loved man.... I've lost you and Dresmorlin.... Maybe you both can find peace in death.... I love you...."

 

Ryn stands from her place on the wall and wipes her eye. She walks back to tell her husband and kids the bad news...

[H 820]

As Ayche recites his daily "M'Ramza"s, a sudden twinge of sadness overcomes him. 

[GodEmperorFlam 3447]

[Reserved]

[Lark 2227]

((You should play a Steelwall now))

[Lark 2227]

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[Taylor 504]

(( Reserved~ ))

[Clayphish 149]

Crystal looks down upon his grave after being told of his death and where the marker lay. She wipes beneath her real eye and stays silent for a long time.

She had been the last one who had spoken to him, and even then had left in a hurry because she felt emotions boiling over and refused to make a scene in public ... This was her fault, and she knew it. After four dead husbands, she had wanted to save Ramza's life from whatever curse plagued her romantic life. She thought leaving him before things went too wrong and watching for the "red flags" (men breaking into the house for her cactus green and people coming after her because they believed her a cultist to where Ramza would risk his life to save her) would be enough to let him live after she realized her mistake of allowing their flings to turn into something else, but no, she was too late, and now the blood was on her hands ... what was she going to tell their two young twins? Where has daddy suddenly gone? Crystal had little time as it was before that to care for the twins, and now their father had fallen victim to same fate as her four husbands, they would be alone much more ... Crystal bends down in front of the grave stone, placing down a tightly sealed bottle of water from the tiny hot spring in Pravets.

"I ... Am so sorry .."

She says shakily to the grave, then stands, slowly walking back down the path, heading home.

[L0rdLawyer 2272]

Hu-din stumbles upon the grave. He runs off to find a goblin to read it for him. The name Rumzu is read to Hu-din and he gets a look in his eyes. He sits near the gravestone, just trying to think about who Rumzu was. The clouds clear and a thought that hasn't happened to him before happens. Hu-din remembers who Ramza was and how Ramza helped him. Hu-din kneels before the gravestone and mutters, "Latz wuz hozh frund. Krug wull rumumbar latz. Thunk latz fur hulpung mi." The clouds in the skies cover the sun once more and Hu-din walks off to find a halfling to eat. Hu-din ends up finding the halfling and picks him up. A strange feeling occurs inside of Hu-din and he just drops the halfling and walks off. 

 

((I never got meh last goodbyes D:

 

Dunrid stumbles across the grave as well. His memories of Ramza were short and breif but he mutters a few words, "Ramza, I  neva' knew ya dat long but ya were a good souled man tryin' ta 'elp all ya could. Ya shall 'ave a tree in ya  name."

 

Ooze hops around and hears people talking about the death of a person named Ramza. Ooze just continues to hop around and eat flowers. 

[Heff 2460]

((You should play a roost))

Fumble cheers as yet another anime edge master falls to The Pumpkin Lord's power of death and life.

[Lark 2227]

((Srs post time))

Avgust stands before the grave, a gentle breeze nudging up against the stone, as if to move it and deny the reality, He lets loose a puff of smoke, cigar in hand and recalls his brief fellowship with Ramza. As a fellow Seeker he payed his respects to the elf and lowered his head in prayer.

"While niet agree with your choice of departure, will pray to Godani to guide your soul regardless. May we meet again in afterlife, Ramza."

Avgust incinerates the cigar on hand and spreads the ashes around the grave, fertilizing the memorial. He turns away from the grave and begins to walk off. His yakhide cloak flaps in the breeze.

"Dravo."

[Guest]

A Subudai comes out of hiding,  "This one paid tribuwte tuw us once. May thah elemewnts watch ovawr his soul now."

[LeonXCG 40]

Eren sits under a tree next to his little home, rubbing his eyes a little as a tear rolled down his face. He brings his knees up to his chest and looks up at the sky in thought for a moment, shaking his head.

"Please don't let it be real this time."

He says quietly to himself, not wanting to embrace the fact the he might actually be dead this time around. He closes his eyes and buries his face into his knees for a moment, then gets up and walks inside his little abode. As he walks in, he looks over to Poppy for a brief moment, then walks over to the table and sits down beside her, wrapping his arms around her in a decently tight hug.

"Ram... Ramza's dead... But I don't know whether to believe it. Or not."

He says to Poppy, the thought still disturbing him as he doesn't want it to be true this time around.

'It's not true, it can't be. I know he must be alive. Some how...'

He thought to himself, closing his eyes shut as he rested his head on Poppy's.