A College Level Analysis On Why Im An Ass Or Something

[Coaster 2086]

I joined the server September of 2011, and was banned for approximately a third to half of the time I played on the server (Meaning for every three days I was active, I spent around one to two as a banned player). Even though I think a lot of ya'll people are ******* or whatever, I won't say I didn't have a good time.

 

For a time, I really did love LoTC, I found it awesome that I could find like minded people and play games with them and **** or whatever we did. I am known, almost exclusively, for starting the Flays - in truth just a rehash of House Bolton from Game of Thrones with my own spin. In the beginning, it was something really special, something completely different from the run of the mill goody too shoes pole up the ass nobles houses in Renatus at the time. I loved how it spontaneous it was, how unique, despite being heavily influenced by outside sources.

 

When I created House Flay, it was done with a single intention, unmarred by my own personal aspiration for internet glory and infamy. I wanted to replace the void left by the removal of the undead, a player run antagonist. To me, it seemed entirely more organic, as it was, and  entirely possible with the backing of Mogroka and Renatus (however nominal and lackluster it was in the beginning). No more pre determined battles, no more instances of the playerbase only being allowed to look on as the selected few got to make their impact - no - I wanted to create something that made people, and the choices they made, matter. 

 

Very early on, I saw why it had never been done before. Not only the majority of the server, but almost every single other person in the nation I had just joined had characters completely white and black in their characters' morality, just white knights everywhere. It was clear that to prevent myself from being wiped out very early on, I had to play along with the entire noble house game and get myself a standing.

 

This is the point at which my own goals got in the way. The rate at which I rose in the ranks and in power in Renatus was unprecedented. Players swarmed to me, I was protected by Mogroka (both IC and OOC), and to the ire of many other players and groups, I seemed a little untouchable. It wasn't long before I started to notice this as well. I logged on one day and realized I was the strongest in Renatus, had some of the best PVPers on the server, and had so much influence with so many members of the staff (you could say they were in my pocket) that I knew I had nothing to worry about OOCly. The pixels called out to me. They were like : yo motherfucker dont you want these motherfucking pixels, and im like: **** yea dude.

 

Where it was once about providing an interesting new spin to RP and a new antagonist, it was now about making the daily raid, taking other peoples items, robbing players on the road, conquering their nations and town and hovels.

 

In a way, I accomplished what I had wanted - about half way through House Flays lifespan, people legitimately hated us almost universally, both OOC and IC. I will admit, my overly eccentric quest to take everyone's pixels and to just have singularly combat RP, if any RP at all, made me an obvious target for peoples OOC dislike. However, from my own perspective, I was under siege OOCly for things I had done in the game, which I thought should just be handled through the same medium. This desensitized me to any and all criticism, why should I care what others think? So, I just ignored it, and played along. Brought the hate from the game into out of character. This was some parts frustration, miscommunication, and simple disgruntled ire.  

 

My next mistake, probably one of the biggest. Not only was I under constant judgment and criticism, but those that played with me as well were. We would sit in our teamspeak channel and hear whisperings of what GM said what, which player mentioned what, as our own dislike for the rest of the server population fermented and grew into a massive pile of **** you guys. I watched as my friends were shunned for being associated with me, insulted because of the way they played the game. I decided it was no longer about the community, it was just us, and them. I no longer gave a damn about providing fun RP for other parties, as long as I had fun, and if someone complained about something I did, who cares? **** em.

 

From that point it was just a spiral of hatred, spite, and backstabbing. Whatever I could possibly do to win, I did. It mattered that much to me to be better than the other people on the server, to prove that we were in the right and they were in the wrong. I broke rules, I harassed people OOCly, and I manipulated my friends into hating the others on the server more and more.

 

House Blackmont in Anthos was a big step forward, but the same core problems were still there. The mentality of it being us against the whole server, the focus on items, and the complete lack of a real purpose besides being my little play thing after I got off work.

 

I look back sometimes, maybe while I'm taking a **** or going on a walk, and think about what I could have done differently? What would it be like if I had just stayed the course and not let my own anger and pride get in the way of what could have been a wonderful thing for the server?  I would call many more people my friends, and a lot fewer people "******", that's for sure.

 

A side point for a moment. A lot of people know me as a bigot, a close-minded, unintelligent hick from Virginia. Yea, I talk ****, yea I say some terrible stuff, but no matter how many times I was told by Gm's and whoever, I was never going to change who I fundamentally was for a minecraft server. It seems facist really to even ask something like that. I made it a point never to directly assault people verbally, though for real though, I talked **** about like all of you behind closed doors, as I'm sure ( I know) many of you did to me.

 

That aside, my conclusion, I want to get a ******* burrito so I'm going to wrap this up. It's been a long time since I was last banned, for whatever bullshit I was banned for (I am very well aware the flimsy motherfucking reasonings for my ban, and the sketchy, rule breaking evidence or complete lack of evidence and the extremely convenient timing, thought Idc really so w/e), and as a college bound ****** I'll just make my amends I guess.

 

Sorry it didn't turn out better. It could have been great for everyone.

 

To all my friends and some ******* who were in House Flay/Blackmont, I have never in my life met such cool motherfuckers from all over the world (except Firefly sorry lol but that was the ****)). I was truly blessed to have been able to play with you guys and girls (2!!111) and have fun, and during the hardest parts of my life (getting arrested, losing my mom, nearly getting evicted) ya'll were there and not ******* or whatever so thanks faggots. Some of you were upstanding members of this community before you got to me, and I'm sorry If I fucked you up in the head and ruiend your e reputation. Here's a list of almost all of you, you guys were the best (well most of you).

 

Thank you for letting House Flay die (FINALLY), you guys who are doing you own thing are making me proud. If you're still trying to make it happen give up, House Flay was essentially just a personality cult base on my OOC self, and I'm just being honest.

 

man im going to eat the **** out of this ******* burrito

tell me if youre not on the list i guess

 

Falkor whatever your MC name is who cares 

mylas the elf gm

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[Space 2335]

Ok.

 

Dunno if admitting to talking **** behind closed doors and not to peoples faces is very good, but meh.

[Coaster 2086]

Ok.

if there was a legal record of all the things ive said about your tiny asian self id be executed by the state of virginia

[Evilbanana5757 154]

lol

[Space 2335]

if there was a legal record of all the things ive said about your tiny asian self id be executed by the state of virginia

FMs do not delete this please.

 

I'm native, not asian :^(

[dude 230]

lel

[Bat Druid 140]

You have a Calvin and Hobbes forum avatar so you're okay in my books.

[Jahrmann 37]

I don't know this man 

 

If you had an interesting story today you can share at my interesting story thread

 

Thank You, 

Jahrmann

[Dreek 1633]

i liked pvping with you guys, flays were my favorite(most of the time :3)

[Booklight12 481]

I <3 U

[oblivionsbane 714]

Eh, you didn't completely fail. My character was extremely affected mentality wise by the WR and Flays/Blackmonts. Not in a bad way per se for RP, but an interesting way. He used to walk around Oren and have to deal with Blackmonts robbing random citizens in the streets which he quotes IC. So it wasn't a complete downfall, it did in fact provide interesting character development.

[nordicg_d 1847]

Cheers for taking us under your wing when we were Blood Eagles, then most of us finally became Blackmonts/Flay. May of only been for a few months, but boy. I had the most fun I'd ever had on the server with you guys. Miss them days. Yeah, we got hate but we didn't give two shits. All of us were just so like minded, such a great bunch of lads. What you created was great and Flays surely wont be forgotten.

[John Ivory 4546]

This was a good post, good luck at college Saint Augustus.

[Rig 17580]

I wish you weren't banned!

C'ya on Oc.Tc

[Jahrmann 37]

I wish you weren't banned!

C'ya on Oc.Tc

 

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Liar

 

Thank You,

Jahrmann