Exits, In Her Own Time

[meg 1994]

 

 

 

Five years ago I joined this server at the age of 15. I joined to impress a boy in my class that I liked, who told me it was like an online DnD campaign. I was already very familiar with minecraft, having spent most of my time gaming in a minecraft building and streaming community. I was rather quickly enamored with the fun and whimsy of it. In the later portion of that year, when I became very sick and  LOTC became a large part of my life. I spent time, made friends, and became  far too involved. For the next 5 years, I played on and off, taking at most a year or so break from the server entirely.

 

I’m saying this now because I am now twenty years old, starting my second year of college in a month and it’s time for me to go.

 

I’ve thought about this post and this server a lot, for the longest time I felt a pit in my stomach full of words and thoughts about this server and the people on it and my time here that  I never could vocalize. I think I have finally unwound it, and this is what I have to say.

 

In my time on this server, I’ve met all kinds. I’ve met wonderful friends and partners who I hope to know and cherish for the rest of my life. I’ve met odd people, strange and backwards in their actions and words. I’ve met kind people, who I wish I had gotten to known better or been better too. I’ve met awful people, worst of all, who harass and attack and HURT people over some concept as intangible as roleplay.

 

I’ve grown a lot as a person, partly due to the people I’ve met and experiences I’ve had here. I think I’ve always put on a persona of bitterness and tiredness, but really, if anything lotc has turned my optimism into just cynicism. I hoped for so much out of the people here, time and time again, and I was disappointed every time. It got to the point I’d hope for the best but expect the worst, and work around it.

 

Somehow, in the end, I don’t hold any hate or ill will towards this server or the people on it. In fact, I think I’ll always have very fond memories of my time here, and truth be told, I wouldn’t change a thing. I don’t really have any regrets, except maybe Space Carnival. I am beyond happy with where I am in my life, the people I consider close to me, the person I love, and with myself. And I just don’t think LOTC has anything to offer me anymore. And that’s ok.

 

If I have one final request, it’s be good to each other. Respect each other and each other’s experiences. You’re here to have fun with each other, so have it. Learn to forgive and to grow, try new things and meet new people, you might be happy with what happens. Goodbye.

 

 

[JEEGK 1367]

I respect you

[luv 3469]

Bye grandma... Gonna miss you!

[Eurielle 1189]

 

[fighting evil by moonlight 455]

goodbye meg!!  i owe you for so much of what has made lotc a fun place for me.  thank you for everything and good luck in college, i know you're gonna do great.

[Daisy 9736]

o7

[GodEmperorFlam 3447]

One of my favorite LT members, you've contributed a lot to the team and the server as a whole, we'll miss you. Good luck with whatever you'll be pursuing in the future!

[Leric 1097]

This server didn't deserve her to be honest. 

[Taylor 504]

o7 farewell, meg. wish you luck for the future

[Nate1450 111]

I didn't really know you that well Meg, but you seemed hella cool! I wish you the best of luck in college and throughout the rest of your life!

Godspeed.

[Angmarzku 1251]

I'll miss you meg :c

[AC 68]

I met no one better at solving disputes and helping others along. Things won't be the same without you.  

[AGP 3169]

Constantine breathes in the scent of freshly cooked pasta.

[ski_king3 0]

Best of luck, Meg. You're good and I wish you the best.

[Delmodan 855]

;_;  hope you do well. I will miss you