Peace

[simpleglitchbro 529]

 

It’s been around two and a half years since I first joined LOTC, and you know, frankly, I never would have thought to see myself in the position I am today when I first joined. I wasn’t expecting to be making an entire realm, having the build done, and having people look forward to seeing the end product. Though, in that train of thought, I never expected to be even considering leaving the server, much less committed to the choice. There’s a variety of opinions I’m expecting from this, but I’ll just run through my thought process, and perhaps that can shed some light on things. This is one stream of thought, unfiltered and unedited, so it may jump between topics here and there, just to be warned.

 

I haven’t had fun on LOTC in over a year.

 

This is just the truth. To be honest, I believe it started with the transition between maps. Nobody’s to blame, but around that time it felt like being on LOTC was more an obligation to do than something I enjoyed. It felt like a job, like I needed to log on. Around this time I started taking breaks, and every time I logged on, I got messaged immediately about wanting to roleplay, but due to the already entrapping feeling I had, it made me feel more claustrophobic. Soon, I started making decisions in roleplay on what was “best” rather than what I actually wanted to do.

This all came to a head with the moment that many point to as the reason I left my previous community, but that moment wasn’t the sole trigger, it was the catalyst. Straw, meet camel’s back in a sense. When I made the decision to leave, I found myself feeling a bit more freed. I knew this could be good, I could make some new things and start having a lot more fun again. 

I left my old group because I knew our visions didn’t align, and I was okay with that. I made sure people left the resources stocked, and tried to keep things civil for others. Though many have been told that is not the case, it was the truth. I called out people for being aggressive and hostile to those we had left as I didn’t want to stir up any problems. Though, in the end, I was made aware that a sentiment was spreading that I was OOCly attempting to stoke flames and act in the opposite of how I had attempted to. But that’s neither here nor there. It’s in the past, and I try to avoid dwelling on the past, even if it’s hard not to in times like these.

Creating Vansk was some of the most fun I’ve had.

 

And that’s something I’ll stand by always. Being in voice chats and piecing the build together with the talented group of amazing people, it was like nothing I had felt on the server before. I began to feel hopeful, like the atmosphere that kept me on the server in the first place, the vibe I had been chasing so much, might come back.

Though, everyone here knows how this story ends. We got warclaimed while trying to raise mina for the build. Without any tile mine, or any fortifications, or even a build that people could live in, I had to concede it. Some might call this a cowardly move, but the honest truth is much more simple: I’m tired. I have no more fight left in me at this point. I’ve been told this is just how the server is, that it’s something I should just get used to. And if that’s the case, then this really isn’t the server for me.

I’m sorry to everyone who looked forward to Vansk, and those who poured months worth of effort as well as their own money towards the build. I was thinking it could have been something truly special, but I don’t have the strength to see it through any longer. I’m going to be leaving a link to a document that entails a large majority of the things that we as a community have gone through and dealt with before and after our leave. I don’t intend for it to do any damage, I only hope that it helps provide added context to this entire situation.

 

Goodbye to all of you wonderful people I’ve met on this server. It truly has been an amazing time with you, even despite the things I’ve said about my time here. 

 

Catch you on the flip,

• simpleglitchbro

 

Here is the link for any who are interested, or who have read this far.

 

[Sebbysc 744]

Hey man, you were one of the first people I met on this server. It was fun interacting with you, and I wish I would've done more on Loys with the 2023/2024 Norland community as a whole. Roleplay during that time was the most organic I've experienced.

Some of what you've said I can 100% relate to. I hope you do well outside MINEMAN LARP.

[Gavin_ 2027]

LOTC is best enjoyed in small doses with big breaks in-between. Wishing you all the best!

[Tav 4336]

i still remember your first day on the server fondly, getting you settled into Alisgrad when i used to be head steward.
it's a shame you're leaving under such circumstances, nonetheless i still wish you luck with everything. :>

[Borin 7645]

If you werent having fun u shouldve stopped playing and done something else

 

Turrah!

[Netphreak 510]

Enjoy your freedom.

[EmiliainWonderland 2309]

Welcome to the gang. 

[6Dark 431]

Hey man, you were one of the first people I rped with after my hiatus. Although we haven't rped too much after that, I still consider you a great friend. Sorry to hear that you're leaving as well as what made you leave. I hope everything works out for you! Thank you for all the fun moments Grimm!

[____Spectral____ 168]

14 hours ago, simpleglitchbro said:

 

It’s been around two and a half years since I first joined LOTC, and you know, frankly, I never would have thought to see myself in the position I am today when I first joined. I wasn’t expecting to be making an entire realm, having the build done, and having people look forward to seeing the end product. Though, in that train of thought, I never expected to be even considering leaving the server, much less committed to the choice. There’s a variety of opinions I’m expecting from this, but I’ll just run through my thought process, and perhaps that can shed some light on things. This is one stream of thought, unfiltered and unedited, so it may jump between topics here and there, just to be warned.

 

I haven’t had fun on LOTC in over a year.

 

This is just the truth. To be honest, I believe it started with the transition between maps. Nobody’s to blame, but around that time it felt like being on LOTC was more an obligation to do than something I enjoyed. It felt like a job, like I needed to log on. Around this time I started taking breaks, and every time I logged on, I got messaged immediately about wanting to roleplay, but due to the already entrapping feeling I had, it made me feel more claustrophobic. Soon, I started making decisions in roleplay on what was “best” rather than what I actually wanted to do.

This all came to a head with the moment that many point to as the reason I left my previous community, but that moment wasn’t the sole trigger, it was the catalyst. Straw, meet camel’s back in a sense. When I made the decision to leave, I found myself feeling a bit more freed. I knew this could be good, I could make some new things and start having a lot more fun again. 

I left my old group because I knew our visions didn’t align, and I was okay with that. I made sure people left the resources stocked, and tried to keep things civil for others. Though many have been told that is not the case, it was the truth. I called out people for being aggressive and hostile to those we had left as I didn’t want to stir up any problems. Though, in the end, I was made aware that a sentiment was spreading that I was OOCly attempting to stoke flames and act in the opposite of how I had attempted to. But that’s neither here nor there. It’s in the past, and I try to avoid dwelling on the past, even if it’s hard not to in times like these.

Creating Vansk was some of the most fun I’ve had.

 

And that’s something I’ll stand by always. Being in voice chats and piecing the build together with the talented group of amazing people, it was like nothing I had felt on the server before. I began to feel hopeful, like the atmosphere that kept me on the server in the first place, the vibe I had been chasing so much, might come back.

Though, everyone here knows how this story ends. We got warclaimed while trying to raise mina for the build. Without any tile mine, or any fortifications, or even a build that people could live in, I had to concede it. Some might call this a cowardly move, but the honest truth is much more simple: I’m tired. I have no more fight left in me at this point. I’ve been told this is just how the server is, that it’s something I should just get used to. And if that’s the case, then this really isn’t the server for me.

I’m sorry to everyone who looked forward to Vansk, and those who poured months worth of effort as well as their own money towards the build. I was thinking it could have been something truly special, but I don’t have the strength to see it through any longer. I’m going to be leaving a link to a document that entails a large majority of the things that we as a community have gone through and dealt with before and after our leave. I don’t intend for it to do any damage, I only hope that it helps provide added context to this entire situation.

 

Goodbye to all of you wonderful people I’ve met on this server. It truly has been an amazing time with you, even despite the things I’ve said about my time here. 

 

Catch you on the flip,

• simpleglitchbro

 

Here is the link for any who are interested, or who have read this far.

 

Thank you for your service here on LotC, even though I may not have really met or interacted with you, this post kind of hits home for me too; I wish you well on your journey outside of LotC, perhaps a break from the lunacy that is politics and whatever else here is best for mental health and general well-being. . Please enjoy your new found freedom