Letters from Leyu Liewyn

[Melpomenne 2032]

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A bright, sunny day of Snow's Maiden in Arcas.

Leyu would be sitting at the study in her home,  twelve things would be laid out on the desk before her:

• 4 tan coloured slips of paper
• 4 tan coloured envelopes 
• A red wax candle
• A box of matches
• A 'L' stamp
• Ink and a quill 

She'd take a deep breath, organising everything on the side before setting one paper and one envelope on front of her.

Leyu would lift the quill up from the side and hover It over the ink, letting out another deep breath before dipping it in, three times to be exact.

She would then slide the paper closer, looking down to it before bringing her hand down.

As the quill met the slip- she'd begin to write the first of four letters.

 

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Firstly, 

To my lovely sister,

Astrid Palmer

@SrongBear

 

[!] A nicely folded, tan coloured envelope, sealed with a red wax would rest nicely in the mailbox; addressed to Astrid  Palmer.

Along with the letter, a sword, the tearjerker, would be leaned against the mailbox with a tag reading: For Palmer

The letter would read:

Spoiler

"To my lovely sister,

Astrid Palmer, 

 

I wish I could have said more to you the last time we met- but I was to apologise. You were one of the kindest and most welcoming people I have ever met. Of course, we didn’t start off on a good foot, I would say meeting someone as they kill someone in your living room isn’t too dandy, but we still moved past that.

 

Next thing we knew, we were growing closer and closer and became family. You were always the one to help me get through things, with our late night talks over tea and the way you were always able to perfectly get me out of trouble. Thank you.

 

You helped clear my mind and allowed me to see things clearer, moving away what was irrelevant and helping me focus on what was most important. Thank you.

 

I also want to thank you for watching over Andria. You have been a great aunt and role model for her. I hope she is happy and safe in your arms. If I may ask of one thing of you, please remind her how much I loved her, remind her of the things we would do when she was younger and how loved she was. I don’t want her to turn out like me."

 

 

Thirdly, 

To my daughters,

Andria Syrivir

@AudTheOdd

 

[!] A nicely folded, tan coloured envelope, sealed with a red wax would rest nicely in the mailbox; addressed to Andria Syrivir

Along with the letter, a jar of strawberry seeds would be packaged along- the seeds from the last time the Andria and Leyu went picking. 

 

The letter would read:

Spoiler

"To my daughter,

Andria Syrivir,

 

Firstly, To my sweet Andria,

How are you? I hope you are well. I also hope you are adjusting well with Astrid and her friend. In due time I am sure you will be back with your father.

 

I am sorry.

 

I am sorry for not being the mother I was supposed to be. I am sorry for not spending more time with you. I am sorry for endangering you so many times. I am sorry that other people had to help raise you because I ‘had too much going on.’ I sore not to be like my mother, but here I am.

 

I am sorry.

 

I don’t want you to forgive me. Instead, I want you to be better than me

 

I want you to be stronger, happier, smarter, more brave than I was. I know you can be. With Kallian’s guidance and the huge support system you have, I trust you will grow up and be great.

 

Ever since you came into the world, you have made me so happy. You were a bright light- you were the best gift I was ever blessed with.

 

Don't be a coward and never take the easy way out. Never take the easy way out. You can get through anything and you know it deep down.

I hope you stay that sweet, loving, strawberry-obsessed girl I housed and loved so dearly.

I love you so much. I hope we meet again one day.

 

 

 

Lastly, 

To my dearest love

Kalian Syrivir 

@NLThomas

 

[!] A nicely folded, tan coloured envelope, sealed with a red wax would rest nicely in the mailbox; addressed to Kallian Syrivir.

This letter would be the longest out of the six others.

As he'd open the envelope and look inside, he would see a dried, dead, red rose- perhaps one from the bouquet Kallian had gifted Leyu all those years ago. Who knew she saved it after all this time...

Now, as he opened the letter, the handwriting would be neat, almost as if she had written the letter over and over again- just to finally get it right.

The letter would read:

Spoiler

"To my dearest love

Kallian,

 

I am sorry I broke yet another promise.

 

After all this, after all I put you through, I want to apologise. You deserved the world. You deserved all the happiness, serenity, and all the good that anyone could offer.

 

When we first met, we were such different people. We were naïve and stubborn... young and stupid- but we enjoyed it. We spent so much time together, even just as friends. I remember that day... we went to the waterfall and laid together on the grass, soaked from jumping into the water just moments ago. We were talking, joking, and even sitting in silence at times- but we enjoyed it so, so much. I rarely remember a moment in our earlier years that wasn’t absolutely perfect.

 

Time went by, our relationship grew stronger- as did our love for each other. We were inseparable. We had the most fun and began to grow together. We were beginning to mold each-other into our ideal selves, we were better people at last.

 

We moved in together, we decorated our little house- we even adopted Freya! Our future was seeming to line up. Then we began to have long, late-night talks about where we would go... what we would do... who would we be? We began to slowly plan our future- and that was the happiest I had ever been.

 

Finally we had the biggest gift given to us... Andria. It was unexpected, but she was the best surprise I could have ever asked for.

Just like that, we were a family. We had our home, we had each other, and a baby on the way.

 

Goodness... I remember how restless I had you... cooking, cleaning, watching after me day and night. You were the person who would tuck me in at night when I was knitting that perfect yellow scarf for our daughter… only finding myself to pass out. You were the person who woke me up with the best tea and cooking, always giving me all the love and care you had to offer.

 

You were there for me, and that’s all I could’ve ever asked for. I didn’t have to even ask twice for you to offer your helping hand... even when you were being a bit hard-headed, I knew you meant the best.

And once our sweet daughter came into the world, we were all so happy. Andria, Freya, You, and I were a family... a happy little family.

 

But slowly, we began to grow apart. I can’t put a finger on what it was... I could blame it on a million things, or nothing at all- this was one of the hardest points in my life.

 

I did things I shouldn’t have done, I treated people a way I shouldn’t have, I pushed them away to the point they got sick of trying to help me.

I treated you a way I shouldn’t have, I pushed you away to the point you got sick of helping me- and there is nothing more I regret than that.

 

I would lash out at you... letting my emotions take over and action irrationally to the person who deserved it the least. I treated you badly when all you wanted was to be happy.

 

and I am so, so, so sorry for that.

 

I never meant any of the harsh words I said to you. I never meant the harsh ways I treated you. I was in the wrong, I always was.

 

You have no idea how much I wish I could wake up from this nightmare I put myself in. I want to go back to the days where we would have picnic’s religiously and feed each-other the best chocolate-covered strawberries until the sun went down.

 

I want to go back to the days where we would sit on the big red couch of ours and laugh hours on end, cuddling and falling asleep in each other’s arms.

The days where we would go on small adventures, traveling to different cities and having a great time. Like how we went searching up and down throughout Helena, probably spent a few hours, just to find the perfect wine for a date.

 

I want to go back to the day where you’d just been stabbed by some bandits and I had to patch you up- giggling the whole time because you kept cracking the worst jokes... the day we first met.

I want to go back to the days where we didn’t fight as we did now. The days we would be together in harmony and love- but now that was all overshadowed by trouble, malice... everything we hated.

...but we can’t. All that is gone thanks to me. Thanks to my insanity. Thanks to my immaturity. Thanks to my inconsideration. Thanks to me.

 

I want to go back to when we were happy.

 

I hope you can find some place in your heart to forgive me for all I have done, if not most. For hurting you, for straining the family we made together. For lying and breaking promises I swore to keep. For breaking your heart and pushing you away when you needed me... and when I needed you.

 

Oh Kallian, my sweet, sweet Kallian. I hope you never forget the great times and amazing memories we had made together. I hope you never forget how much I loved you... how much I truly cared for you. I hope you always remember the good that we had and grow to forget the bad. There is nothing that I want more right now than for you to be happy. For you to move past this, to start a new. To watch our amazing bundle of joy grow up into an amazing and bright person- just like her father.

 

I need you to stay strong- if not for me, then for Andria. She needs you, you need you. Don’t be weak like I was. Prove yourself better than me. You have a long, amazing life ahead of you. Filled with love and joy and new beginnings, you will prevail. You will continue to be the amazing father you have been for the past years for our baby. You will continue to be great and face new challenges, but I know you will break past every single one. Continue to be the Kallian I fell so hard in love with.

 

None of this, not one single part, was any of your fault. This isn’t anyone’s fault, so please blame no one but myself. This was all in my hands, and I fucked up.

I loved you from the day we met, till the day I died. That was the one promise I knew I would always keep.

Please don’t be distraught, for I told you I will always, always, be with you in your heart.

 

always. “

 

 

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[!] Each letter would end with her signature

[Covey 466]

[NLThomas 1225]

Kallian would stare down after reading the letter as he went completely quiet in the large empty house. After a short while tears start to roll down his cheeks with a soft smile “... Leyu…” he mumbled out. He would slowly sit down with the paper on his cough, his shoulders and head hanging with his hands clenching around the letter as slowly tears stained the paper. “... I-... I was never disappointed… I already had forgiven you a long time ago… I loved you… I- I’m sorry… I should have never let you go in that field… Our daughter… I promise but I- I can’t raise her alone... '' Kallian would mumble out before falling quiet again.

 

Collapsed on his knees he could do nothing but softly cry to himself. a cold sense of nostalgia would run down his spine as he starts to think about all those moments with her from reading the letter. The woman he loved so much, mother of their child. From the first time they met in that clinic, to the first time they kissed and all the picnics they went on, so many great memories. Thinking about all these things would give him a small desperate smile before bursting out into tears again as he realises he would never experience these things again with her, or anyone else for that matter for she was the only one he ever truly loved that much. “Leyu… I need you… I- I was so happy… please… I-” he said between the sobs.

 

After a long while he would slowly and weakly stand himself up and with a shaking hand recover a ring from his pocket and stare at it with a weak smile before fading back into tears “You told me we would... marry…” he would say before noticing the fague text etched into the paper, quickly making out what would be fully written. More tears quickly ran down his cheeks as he slowly dragged himself upstairs while holding the letter.

 

Dropping himself down on the bed and grabbing hold of the blanket before tightly hugging it as it was all that was around the house that would remind him of the warm embrace of Leyu. The blanket still holds her scent, the smell of strawberries. Only making him cry more and more. Kallian would softly start to hum between the sobs. The same tune she would hum when treating his wounds, when taking care of him, when they danced on that moonlit night in the open field. Slowly humming himself to sleep for that was all that could comfort him in this desperate state. Being able to almost perfectly picture Leyu and her warm smile in his mind as he slowly drifts off to sleep while hugging the blanket.

[StrongBear 1239]

Astrid sat in her chair that was in front of the fire place, she reads the letter from her sister over an over again, "I'm sorry." She said through the tears, "I'm going to give Andria the best life that I can"

[drowknows 696]

Pelagius, remembers when he attempted to clip off this elf's ears with a wide grin on his face.

[ComicD 226]

A man sits within a broken home, just a candle working as light for him as he finished reading the letter, his expression a blank one as he placed said piece of paper aside on a half broken table. "...I hope you have found peace, little one... You won't ever be forgotten..." He then slowly turned to a side, looking to a shadow within the depths of the room, his brows furrowing. "...You must be really enjoying to see this happen..." He lets out in a lower and more cold tone...

[latte 2238]

Amaryll Syrvir , a teenage 'Fenn dramatically rolls her eyes. "How painfully dramatic."

[AudTheOdd 243]

Audry lets out a soft sigh, reading her letter five times over. Each time brings her closer to tears, before her gaze turns over to the scarves that had come with the letters. She picks one up, the maroon one, gently running her finger over the soft yarn and careful knitting. A tear finally falls from her eye before several more come to follow. "I'm so sorry Leyu..." She lets out a sniff. "If only I could have helped you more... Perhaps none of us would be dealing the the loss of someone so dear to us all..." She folds the letter closed, setting it on her desk along with the scarves as she gazes at them in painful silence.

 

Andria, after having slowly read her letter, scrunches her brows. She picks up the jar of seeds she remembers collecting with her mother, a time not long ago and yet a time so, so much happier. She sniffles, tears welling in her eyes as her calico kitten, Isha walks over to sit in her lap. More sniffles paired with a large amount of tears come from Andria as she sets the jar down, looking to her large scarf her mother had made for her, and that she cherished oh so much. She takes part of the scarf, wrapping it around herself and Isha tightly as she hugs her kitten with a sob. "Mama... I don' care if you had stuff... You were there... You were always there..." She sniffles. "W-When will you come back?" She asks. Sadly, no one could answer her question. "When will you come b-back?" She repeats. "Ma-Mama... We still gotta pick all those strawberries... And-And you gotta teach me how to f-fix people... Come back soon... Please..." She says weakly, half of her refusing to believe her mother was gone. The other half in shock and misery as she continues her hopeless sobs.