A Time for Repentance (A Public Missive)

[EmiliainWonderland 2311]

 

 

(A contemplative woman thinking about her future)

 

I am reminded of my youth as of late, when I am surrounded at last by the people I have known since my early years, my siblings, my friends, my extended family.

 

In doing so, I’ve remembered things I put behind me, things I found trivial at the time, but I’ve grown exponentially as a person and with this missive, I hope to convey that. 

 

First and foremost, I’ll acknowledge the mistakes I made.

 

To Sierra d’Arbre, my step mother. I was hasty in my first impression of you. I called you many names in poor taste out of anger and spite. Things that have been directed towards me in the last several years and I’ve realized are hurtful and damaging to one’s mental health. I wish to rectify my mistakes in any way you see fit and I hope we may see each other again soon.

 

To Honore, my younger brother. My treatment of you when we were children was uncalled for and unacceptable. You are a bright young man, kind, genuine. My own shortcomings shouldn’t have led me to say the things I said to you nor do the things I did. The same goes for all of our siblings Honore, I was an awful sister when I should’ve been there for you when we all needed each other.

 

To Laetitia d’Abbassia, my dearest sorella. I miss you. When you were struggling through the worst of times, I should’ve been there. I have no one to blame for your death but myself and it breaks me to know I could’ve done so much more for you and I didn’t. Your death was unnecessary… something I could’ve prevented if I tried and I know that deep down. Wherever you are now, I hope you’re happy at last. You deserve it. 

 

To my father, Sir Emir. This is the hardest one to write. I don’t apologize to you out of any desire for a relationship, but I do want to apologize to you for the way I acted as a child. I was selfish, spoiled, and arrogant. My stubbornness led us to have a negative parting. However, the way you treated Laetitia is still something that will always bug me. You may wonder what has led me to finally write this missive and it was the realization of my past. I’m doing this for my kids. So that they may be proud of the woman that I have become. So they can see me as someone to look up to, someone who will truly love and cherish them and not my past and who I used to be.

 

To Farian Malto and Piper Peregrin, I apologize for my comments to you two about your relationship and to Farian, I’m sorry for trying to push a relationship with Marol onto you. Initially I had done it as a joke and admittedly I found it funny that it bothered you so much, but that’s not the kind of person I wish to be. Not the kind of person who goads others for my own enjoyment.

 

To Peter and Cosima von Augusten, my aunt and uncle, I want to apologize for bringing you a whole lot of trouble and making you worry about me. I’m fine now, I want to move on with my life and still have you guys be a part of it and I hope you’ll forgive me for the way I acted when I was younger.

 

To the love of my life, Io. I’d like to apologize for the way I acted towards you when we first met in Minitz. I’m not entirely sure of what I said to you during that time, but just in case I’d like to retroactively take it back. You are genuinely the most wonderful person I have ever met and you’ve made me look back on the past and realize I need to provide a better future for you and our children.

 

I made a myriad of mistakes and for those I’d like to apologize.

 

 

• The harsh words I’ve said to people who considered me friends, family, or acquaintances.

• Belittling my own family and friends

• Actively working to sabotage my own sister Laetitia in the past

• All the lies I have ever told anyone, too numerous to truly get into detail about. 

• Acting harsh and aggressive towards my siblings

 

If you doubt my intentions, you may come find me to talk. Simply send a bird or find me in person and I’ll prove to you my words are true. I want my children to be happy with who I am, I want to be proud of who I am. 

 

 

 

Sincerely, 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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[TaytoTot 1587]

Annette sees the missive, proud of Bianca. "Mein honourable dottir."

[ichigomaster98 966]

The Carrot King takes a moment to grumpily read over the missive, seemingly finding himself distracted more and more from his task, but his scowl is broken slightly by the mention of his grandchild. "Succeed where I have failed." is all the old warrior says as he returns to his chore.

The Norland King picks up a paper in his mountain of papers, seeing it is this very missive brought in fresh by an Ashguardsman. He is proud of how far his country has come, and the quality of people that inhabit it, this post a clear sign that though some may make mistakes they may also learn from those mistakes and become better for them. He takes a momentary rest to bask in the gladness that all the work is starting to finally pay off.

The love of Blanca's life Io loves their wife Blanca, and has already accepted her as she is, but is also proud of Blanca doing her best. "If I'm the best person you have ever met then you should meet yourself! Blanca, meet Blanca!" they cheerfully say. "Our children will kill two dragons each! I hope the dragons have lots of children too, because that will be two-hundred less dragons in the world!"

[Frank_Dog 808]

Cosima Monika read over the Repentance, sadness flushing over her. For a moment she couldn't help but sob. After a moment she wiped her eyes, and went straight to the stationary.

My dearest Blanca,

It is not for me to judge you, nor is it truly anyone else. Only Gott can judge us truthfully. I watched you grow, as did I my other nieces and my own children, then grandchildren. Mistakes are a part of life, especially our youth. Yet we live and we learn, those mistakes make us who we are. We learn from them and adapt to become better. When I first met you I couldn't believe your resemblance to your uncle Peter. Those d'Azor genes were always more strong in your mother Renee's children then my own. Except for your cousin Marlena, and sometimes when I look at the both of you, I get confused these days. Then after your mother's death you were having issues with your family, and I told you that your mother always wanted you to be partly raised like she had been. In the Azor keep, where your uncle and she had their best memories. You never need to forgive us for being in our lives, it was a blessing to us. I will never leave your life, and I pray you never leave ours. You may not be my blood, but you share the blood of my love, for that I will always love you. I will see you soon sweet girl.

 

 

Your aunt, Cosima von Augusten

 

 

[Cheese 8899]

“Where is my apology for that time she bit my tongue when I was like- 5!” One Colette d’Abbassia scoffed, rolling her eyes. However, she did seem a tad forlorn as she remembered the other happy, albeit few, memories she shared with her big sister…

[EmiliainWonderland 2311]

23 minutes ago, Cheese1sgrater said:

“Where is my apology for that time she bit my tongue when I was like- 5!” One Colette d’Abbassia scoffed, rolling her eyes. However, she did seem a tad forlorn as she remembered the other happy, albeit few, memories she shared with her big sister…

Blanca hasn't forgotten her little sister and misses her dearly. 

1 hour ago, TaytoTot said:

Annette sees the missive, proud of Bianca. "Mein honourable dottir."

Blanca hopes to see Annette soon and have more of an opportunity to get to know her. 

[exogens 934]

On a voyage to conduct groundbreaking research, the man received such a missive from his Automaton bird, created just to deliver missives frequently. Sir Emir was sitting at his comfortable desk within his deck as he scanned over such missive. He then muttered, "Now I don't know if that's a bullshit apology just to slither her way back to the family or actually a genuine one, especially when people were telling me all she was doing was talk crap around, but eh, at least she admitted such. Hopefully, this will be her first step to redeem herself." He gave a mental note to himself before he started to continue with his research writings.

[Phoebe202 1057]

In the Seven Skies, Laetitia's eyes began to water... 

A wayward niece curled up into a ball, somewhere.  "Why does the concept of family seem so awful? Out of the relatives of mine I've met, they all seem to be at each other's throats nonstop... Maybe I was right to separate myself from them.  Most of them, anyways."