The evening had been long and restless. Within a dour, carved stone office sat two men, opposite each other, a thick desk adorned with leaflets of parchment and old scrolls parting them just barely. The man behind the desk, noticeably recognizable as the Lord Chancellor of Kaedrin, Hadrien de Sarkozy, removed his small round spectacles from his face methodically, placing them on the table, his hands steady and calm. The man sitting in the seat in front of it, a pale and grey figure possessing of a steely gaze and stony, one-eyed visage, observed him in silence as he spoke in soft and hushed tones. Standing up from his seat and clasping his gloved left hand around a particular writ bearing his wax seal, H.d.S, he walked around the desk as the other man rose to his feet.
Hadrien extended his right hand for the pale man to shake, the gesture being reciprocated quickly. His right hand gripping onto the visitor’s, he extended the writ for him to take. Swiftly, almost eagerly, the grey man took the parchment as Hadrien quickly leaned in closer in a kind of emotionless half-embrace, whispering something to him. They both gave nods of affirmation and the Lord Chancellor stepped back, beginning to move towards the door to his office as the intruder followed. Hadrien waved ever so slightly as the stranger left his office and Ard Kerrack.
Lingering in the doorway for a few moments, staring into space, Hadrien remembered.
He did not remember his childhood, nor his marriages, nor the birth of his children. That was all too cliché. He remembered those he would come to call friend - Velwyn, Thomas, Bran, Siegmund, Adeon, Jullius, Toveah, Bradislav, O'd'or. He remembered his nephew, Arjen, who had been as good a son to him as any. He privately hoped that the boy would mature to be a just, noble man.
He had begun as little more than an adolescent of seventeen seeking employment in a foreign land, Asulon. Back home he had little opportunity and even less respect - for nobody could respect the authority of a cuckold. He who could not govern his wife had gone as far as he could ever go in government, they would say. Hadrien was determined to prove them wrong, and Velwyn Ashford proved to be his saviour, inducting him into the Order of the White Rose as a political advisor and theorist.
There he met his lord and dearest friend, Thomas Chivay, who oft required his counsel on affairs of state. Back when he was young, he was a good shot with a crossbow, and would seldom go a day without going on an adventure with Adeon the half-caste. Both Velwyn and Thomas seemed to listen to him, to heed his honeyed words and act on them. That was a feeling Hadrien liked, and he wanted more of it.
He recalled when he had been made a noble, a simple baron under House Chivay. The day the Emperor sent out his approval of Hadrien’s rise to the peerage was a moment he was so very proud of, and one of the scarce incidents in which a genuine smile adorned his usually solemn or smug visage. His rise to power did not come without hindrances, no. Those who saw him as a snake and a liar were always prevalent, watching him and waiting for the moment of his weakness so they might strike him down from the side of his lord. But his innate competence as a statesman was well-documented and so the Emperor made him his Lord Privy Seal. He had even formed his own doctrines adhered to by an entire kingdom.
His failures had been many. A poor liege, a poor husband and an even worse father. But he had not failed Kaedrin, he thought to himself. He had always given his all for his country whether through diplomacy or dossiers, and the fatherland was all that he had cared for despite the fact of its perceived irredeemability. He wanted to save Kaedrin from the darkness. The dreams that the Creator had given him every night were not just a message but a prophecy. This apocalypse could no doubt be averted with his guidance, given that the correct changes were made. But he could not change it. No matter what he did, he could not change it. His eyes seemingly glazed over with despair at the mere thought, and he swiftly broke out into a sweat.
Hadrien de Sarkozy snapped out his trance, looking downwards to the wall where a gilded golden shortsword of middling size was leaning, hilted on the wall. A gift from Adeon - a ceremonial blade predominantly used for show. He fell to his knees slowly. Tracing the sign of the lorraine cross on his burgundy doublet, he began to pray aloud in the doorway, his voice quiet and solemn but calm. “Lord,
I have not been as pious nor as faithful to You as I should have been throughout my life. I have often been about my business, serving great and noble men whether it be honorably or dishonorably. I shall not ask for forgiveness, for I know that for all that I have done, I deserve none. I have neglected my family and my people. I have sinned and betrayed You for the sake of my own profits, and for those of the realm. I have twisted Your holy words to serve my own causes, but worst of all I have failed Your command.
But I know that I am not an evil man. Evil men pray louder so as to attract Your attention and that of their peers. Evil men seek penance and do nothing but sin again, claiming that they are holier than I am.
I know myself for what I am, Lord, and I throw my soul into Your arms of salvation in the full knowledge that I am not worthy of it.”
Rising to his feet ever so slowly, his left arm shaking in anticipation, Hadrien glanced to the sword for another moment, grimacing at the sight of a small amount of the gold blade lying naked, protruding from the sheath. The grimace quickly became a sardonic smirk as he began to speak, his tone disdainful and cold. “That sword...is for monsters.” Hadrien de Sarkozy, Lord Chancellor of Kaedrin, Lord Norfolk, Baron of Aldersberg, grabbed his office door’s barred handle and pulled, the heavy door swinging shut.