I've been on this server for a long time. I remember when I first joined, January of 2012 to be exact. I applied as a Dwarf, seeking an experience like non-other, which is what I found. I was accepted after some attempts, and found myself within the virtual realm of Asulon. Oh boy, that was fun - I remember walking to Salvus and interacting with people, finding this server rather entertaining. It was cool, and very unique, which is what LotC is. I won't be nostalgic and say 'the old days were the best', but I'd have to say they were considered more compelling than LotC is nowadays. Skip a few months forward, in the year of 2013, I joined the White Rose. This was when you had that 'Druid cliche', and all that silly nonsense. It's senseless to have such a thing on a Minecraft Fantasy roleplay server to begin with, but nevertheless people were able to carry on roleplaying to what they desire. The White Rose has to be my greatest time on the server, minus my OOC toxicity and constant complaining I partook in. It was something I've never seen before - A bunch of great guys having the time of their lives, RPing quality events that changed the whole direction of the world. How fun it was! Going around, delivering roleplay to people, and specifically for myself, building amazing structures people admired! Ard Kerrack (For those staff members, /warp gunnerbuildtempwarp to see it.) was my first, quite large build on this server, and people absolutely enjoyed it. I was amazed at it, how could I even build such a thing. It was brilliant, and also the home of many, many amazing RP experiences.
Then came the Exodus. Everyone leaving, me included, saying their 'final' farewells to the server. I apologize to anyone I cussed out during the final days of the Exodus, as I remember doing a fair bit of it. It was quite stupid of me to target people on a Minecraft Fantasy Roleplay server, as I found enjoyment in 'trolling' and harassing people who RP differently to me. That's absurd for a individual to do such, and it is why I stopped doing so quite a while ago. After the Exodus, I frequently trolled and spammed the forums with quite derogatory threads, posts and statuses, bombarding the server with my hate of it.
A year later I found myself appealing. Weeks later my appeal was accepted by Irene42, a fantastic GM who was someone I looked up to. I joined alongside the other Orenians that appealed which formed the Imperium Tertius, another fun roleplay experience, that unfortunately resulted in one of the worst wars in LotC's history. I was still the same person then, I had hate for the server and wanted to blatantly express it. I trolled, cussed people out and overall acted like a dimwit. One day I posted Cappy's apparent 'commissioned art' on the forums, only to find myself indefinitely banned a few hours after. How dumb I was, thinking that was right, targeting a member on the forums that I so hated. I then said to myself 'I shall never return', but how ironic that statement is.
Now here I am, appealed once more to be let back into the community by a man named Frottimer. Soon after I applied to the Event Team, considering myself a changed person who now wants to contribute to this server, put my ability into it and overall make everyone happy. That's all I wanted to do, just brush aside all this hate and arguments upon a Minecraft Fantasy Roleplay server and make everyone be happy for once - It's impossible, do not try. It isn't your fault either, don't think I'm now mad at the community, as I'm perfectly calm. Nevertheless, the Event Team has to be my most devoted staff group I've been apart of. It's leader at the time, Freema, brought me into the world of LotC staff. When Freema was abruptly removed for reasons I shall not tell, Man and Rael came to take the reigns of the team, appointing me and Arkantos as managers after seeing our competence and work ethic. It was my first experience in higher staff, and was fun to actually consider myself a leader, as I've wanted to inspire people to make them others feel welcome and entertained on the server through our abilities as ET. I continued work on the ET, people say I did a good job, but I cannot be so selfish of myself.
I then wanted to have a shot at FM, my first moderation opportunity. I was accepted by Tirenas in June, and was extremely excited to now moderate and help people on the forums. Me and Publius instantly archived the massive amount of old threads in the OOC and RP sections,finding it enjoyable to do work for some reason. I've given out a few warns on this server, and also one ban. I was always so craven to do so, maybe I was considerate of others far too much? Though, I didn't put my full work ethic into the FM team unfortunately, as I've found little time to do so in the recent months, I apologize to Tirenas for this.
I then wanted to take another climb up the ladder of LotC's staff, into GMship. I was confident, and inspired to finally put my fullest into the server with the power of a GM. I wanted to change how people thought of staff, as I've seen so myself of people's opinions. Nepotism and cronyism, incompetency and distaste just to name a few. Some might be true, some are definitely not, but it was what their reputation was as staff members. My outlook upon being a staff is to solely provide for others, and acknowledge their needs. You need to fulfill it, you need to make them happy, and you need to satisfy a majority, not some clique you and your friends are in. But alas, some things cannot be changed, and I do not blame anyone, I just wish to give one last source of inspiration to others.
But whatever happens, I cannot find time for this wonderful server anymore, and leave all together, hopefully never to return. Farewell friend of Malinor.
I think I'm wasting my damn time?