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[Space 2335]

 

holy **** don't read your cringey fucks

 

 

This has been a thread I've wanted to create since I hit the 5k post mark, but I didn't have much actual desire to until now. Usually to make these types of things it needs to be late and I need to be listening to sad music, two things that are fulfilled at the moment, so I might aswell, right?

 

I've thought of it, and while I acknowledge that there are a lot of other large things that have effected me, I think Lord of the Craft is genuinely something that impacted me massively. And I don't think that's unique-- Lots of people have made that statement, and share the semantic. Which is cool. I'm glad so many people have found such an impactful thing. I genuinely love this server, and everything about it. And I think it will still be a part of my life as long as LotC exists. Which I am happy with. I don't see how my love of the server is going to disappear, even if my active interest in the server dissipates.

 

Over the past like, year, I've looked at the happenings of the server sorta distantly. Whereas a few years ago I would probably make some long winded post or reply about some certain issue or why I think someone is wrong, that doesn't really interest me. I'll start typing and do something different. And maybe you'll think 'yeah he's maturing' or something, but I disagree. I give a **** about different things nowadays, I've not gained some sort of apathy to my surroundings. Not to say I haven't matured, but, I'll cover that. It's an odd feeling.

 

I guess what prompted this is this doom-saying about things, overreaction, pretentiousnes, etc. A lot of **** that I just see and really don't understand. Like, maybe this is an issue with everything, but why is all of the talk about the issues of the server, and never solutions? Why are any 'solutions' just 'put this person i think is better.' But let me completely contradict this by...

 

Like **** dude, I know there are so many issues with LotC. And I know I would ideally want it ran a different way, I would want the culture a different way, but I can't really see a scenario that the server moves in that direction. And I don't have any confidence that my solutions are the best ones. Or that anyone else is. There's no authority at running a minecraft roleplaying server. There's no expert at running online communities. And I look at LotC, and see all the various forms that different aspects of the server have taken, where none of them seemed to be 'good' (i.e. map size, default, various villain rules, magic rules etc), and I get a bit more certain that there isn't a solution or anything like that, and we have to accept that to a degree. We should strive for a 'perfect' system, but come the **** on, this isn't possible.

 

I guess I never really had the words to describe it, but I think I can now: My dislike for the direction into a 'company.'

 

The main reason that this seems to be supported is people want the server to make money so it can continue to function, and they want it to become more popular, and I don't necessarily agree with either of those? I mean obviously I think that the server should make money so it should be able to function, but I also don't agree with compromising a lot of morals that I would want the server to be ran on for that goal. As for becoming popular... Why? So it can continue to function? To get new donators? To get new people to RP with?

 

Those are good things, but should that be a goal? I don't know. Shouldn't we be striving to have the server the best for the people on it, not making some big effort to propel the server forward, which hasn't worked for almost the entire existence of the server? The playerbase pretty much stayed same, with declines at certain parts of the year and increases at others.

 

So why not focus on the current players as well as advertising for new players? Sure, that's a good solution I think, but I don't know if it's realistic. There's some sort of fetishization with becoming a massive server, when... Would it make LotC more enjoyable? I don't really think so. No matter what the population is, the density of roleplay seems to be just about the same. There seems to be other things that effect how much RP happens, with pop as a factor, but not as large as these other things.

 

So I guess this leads me to a few questions that I have to think on, that don't have clear answers. That the admins and the people who run the server have to answer, with their decision making. What is the focus on LotC? Why does it exist? Why should it exist? How long should it exist? What are we willing to compromise in pursuit of some goal?

 

I find myself thinking of some end of LotC. And I know it's not going to be satisfactory to anyone- When LotC dies, it will be with kicking and screaming. Which is fine, I understand, but... Isn't that undignified? I don't know. I'll be around for it, if I'm not banned, so I'll see. Makes me uneasy to think about. Not because I think LotC should never die, but rather because I want a happy death, y'know? I want it to be shut down with some celebration of the years of shared history. I guess I hope my future has a definitive 'end' to the lotc part of it, but I don't know how accurate that's going to be.

 

AND ANOTHER THING. I've had a decent amount of conversation with pretty much every level of staff member, and I don't think I've really found someone who was bad. I reject that, infact. I don't think there is relaly anyone who seeks position of authority out of purely selfish desires. There's much easier things to do than get staff on LotC. So the only thing left is that these are good people, period. Which I do thoroughly believe-- No 'bad' people. There's people who are misguided, or have bad ideas on how things should be enjoyable, but there's no hateful person who ******* just wants to **** this **** up. WHICH SEEMS TO BE THE IMPLICATION A LOT.

 

Going off that, it really disappoints me how ineffectual EVERY STAFF MEMBER SEEMS TO BE. From Ever to ******* Luv (idk that's like the axis of good to **** from what I've heard, never interacted with Luv sorry if it's random **** talk), they all had ideas that were never pushed on. I know I'm speaking as someone who has never actually been on any staff team, so I know that I am certainly not aware of how difficult things can be, and probably am not being fair, but... Come on. Like, Tahmas, you are probably like top 3 most 'powerful' people on LotC, and you make a post 10 days after leaving the admins that point out issues with literally everyone. WHY DIDN'T YOU DO ANYTHING TO FIX THIS. WHY IS THE BUCK BEING PASSED SO HARD. WHY ARE YOU JUST CREATING THIS DRAMA WHEN YOU HAD MONTHS TO ACTIVELY FIX THESE PROBLEMS IN AN INFLUENTIAL ROLE. WHY? WHY ARE YOU CONTRIBUTING TO THE RUINATION OF THE SERVER YOU LOVED ENOUGH TO PUT THIS TIME INTO? It makes absolutely on sense to me. But that's not a criticism I just have on Tahmas, that's like every admin who leaves the team and talks about how hard and **** things are. Even my love Ever. So ******* what dude. Do what you can. Don't have 20 unfinished projects. Be vocal. Be public. Don't be a ******* coward.

 

But onto a more self loathing topic: My interactions on the server. I remember when I was 'permabanned' the last time, I wrote this big ass cringey post about my regrets on LotC. I don't think many remember it, even though it got a few pages of replies. Glad. Looking back at reading it... Nothing changed. I still acted that way after I was unbanned. I mean,  didn't do AS mcuh, but I sitll was so combative an shitty to people for no reason. Still to this day. And I don't get it. I wish it wasn't like that. I don't know. A big too cringey for me to delve deeper into, so meh.

 

So I guess I will loop back to my love of LotC. I genuinely think it's different from anyone else. I've fanboyed LotC so hard. I've defended LotC from so much criticism, I've tried to show my passion as much as I can. I know that if I really had this passion I should try to reach a position that could actually change LotC, but I've destroyed every chance I have at any staff. I can't evne get ET. 5 years and they won't even let me on the event team, lmfao. So what, I'll just sit here and *****? I don't know.

 

 

tl;dr don't read it you ******* losers

 

[ski_king3 0]

2 minutes ago, Space said:

tl;dr don't read it you ******* losers

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Will do friend.

[neopsychedelia 207]

"i don't understand this thing and i haven't made an effort to, but i sure am gonna express my opinion on it"

[mitto 2312]

Admins really have no vocal power without a majority, and they wont speak out because they dont want to be removed. Therefore they wait until they make a decision that helps. This is a looping cycle of fear and cowardice, people that do speak out get silenced, if their evidence is too poor that'llbe brushed aside. They'll be replaced by people who wont complain. It's a catch 22 space, they can keep quite and try to help where they can until they've amassed enough to make a thorough post like Tahmas. Or you start chimping out early and be painlessly removed without achieving anything and being replaced.

 

As for the staff thing, if there's one thing I've learnt it's not strictly about your past, it's who you know, and how you know them. Regardless of your ban history if you're friends with managers and leads they're more likely to accept you. I know for a fact a lot of people, older players, the type that are leads and such now may not like you. This is in response on how you used to be, but if you take the effort to talk to people friendly, they can warm up to you. Skype, Discord, etc. I know you're not big for Skype chats but I've found them great for taking with people from an OOC standpoint which at its core is what staff is.

[Chorale__ 2147]

That's the only rep you'll ever get from me.

[NotEvilAtAll 10906]

4 hours ago, Chorale_ said:

That's the only rep you'll ever get from me.

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Same here

[Zindran 590]

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