Worn Down

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Worn Down

 

My initial tenure on the team was a great learning experience for me. I got to familiarize myself with spigot and toy with its limits whilst having Tofuus as an extremely supportive person. It was a great experience and I got to produce two plugins for LotC in the span of three months. I decided to step down when IRL obligations hit me and I didn't want to be one of those people who kept a position whilst not doing anything.

 

It went downhill when I decided to return. Some individuals took it upon themselves to **** on my name. My worth was ultimately based on who I decided to be friends with. Some stupid notion that I lack motivation spread like wildfire because I decided to be self-aware and step down from coder because I didn't want to keep my privileges if I wasn't going to do the work due to other commitments. However, it now seems that the administration likes to reward people who keep positions and do no work. So that's my mistake.

 

I also came back to an Administrator spreading rumors with the intent to discredit me. Apparently I created the Hookah dupes on purpose? Honestly **** you to anyone who believes that. I was extremely new to the API at the time. I had only been experimenting with Spigot for 3 months by the time I completed Hookah. To anyone with any experience with the API its pretty clear that the dupe is nothing but a rookie mistake. That didn't stop this rumor to spread and once again **** on my name.

 

Despite all this my ambitions and motivations are rooted in the player base, so I overlooked the shitty leadership. I proposed my cosmetic magic plugin idea. The funny part to me is that everyone on staff told me I'd get a shitty response from the community. In reality, the only uproar of negativity I received was from the staff and the administration telling me that the player base would lynch me. It goes to show how disconnected you are from your community. All they want is to be respected enough to be included in the development process of the server they so adamantly care about.

 

Again, despite all this I continued to try to produce something I thought would be positive for the community. Although I was dedicating 4-5 hours a day to my project, I was still battered by staff with comments about my alleged lack of motivation. After a month of this I found out the administrator who was supposedly supporting me was going behind my back and telling people that I wasn't going to finish the plugin and that I had a history of demotivation???

 

In the end, what killed my motivation was the shitty negative development environment I've had to work in. I couldn't get the gnawing thought out of my head that these people being so negative are the same people who are gonna be using my plugin to inflate their egos on staff. These power-hungry ego-driven staff members who will flaunt their access to the magic plugin to somehow feel superior to the player base. I'm tired of this. I'm exhausted of all of it. I really am.

 

This brings me to the point of this entire thing. I was offered a sizable monetary compensation to move my project and my development time to another server. I thought about it for a while. I loved LotC, I was practically raised in this community. However it's come to a point where I don't think LotC is LotC anymore. It's a shadow of its former self and I'm losing the drive to fight for what it used to be.

 

I never asked for anything. I gave my time to the server because I wanted it to be a better experience for players. I don't have pex. I barely have access to anything as a coder right now. And that doesn't matter to me. All I wanted was to be given the decency of some respect for the time I decided to contribute to this server. I'm going to move on and hopefully have a chance to progress in a more positive environment.

 

My only regret is letting down @FlamboyantRage. He's shown nothing but promise to me since he first became an administrator. He has great ideas and ambitions. I'm sorry I didn't get to make this plugin for you.

 

[Algoda 885]

This is what makes this server stagnate. The ones with a drive to achieve something, to make the server better, are being targeted by their fellow staffmembers and ultimately end up burning out or leaving.

With the current shitshow that has been lasting for months now, and NO apparent change is coming/discussed with this community (maybe its being worked on, who knows), it really hurts to see someone like DS leaving the staff. Without people that are unlike the rest of the staff, that can be the point of contact for the community as he truely felt like "one of us", how is this server ever going change? 

I'm sad to see a friend go. But it sort of feels like this is what the community has come to now, and things like this is merely the consequenses of it. 

[Chaw 964]

the staff are mostly power trippers, especially the admins. Sorry this happened, ds. Coders dont deserve half the **** the admins give them.

[gamer124 339]

thanks mr dsdevil 

 

im sorry things didnt go as planned gl with that new server work

[someome 2053]

I'm sad to see you go my dude. You did great work, and I'm sad I didn't get to see your FM capacity but you've been nothing but cool in my eyes. 

 

I wish you the best. 

[Hot_Dip 789]

Sorry this happened, sounds like a complete mess. Hopefully you’ll have better luck in the other community. Thanks mr ds devil. 

[Narthok 10416]

sounds like you got... hammered :^). 

 

On a more serious note really sad to see the hollowing of the server first hand. Only staff that has impressed me of late is Flamboyant. Who has been an absolute chad in terms of unapologetically axing terrible lore and generally making an effort to improve things. The staff disconnect is pretty massive and I pity whoever gets chosen to be the community manager. As they'll be relegated into scapegoat for the next few months as no solutions are made to resolve server issues. 

 

[Treshure 5817]

We lost a great staff member today. I may not have known you, but I have respected your character over your tenure. Take care, brother.

[Guest]

lotc just lost one of its best devs n the server is "in the best state its been in years" or whatever the **** the idiot admins said on stream yesterday

 

-**** freebuild rules

-**** war rules

-awful staff

- no heist rules

-no coup rules

 

lol.

[Chimp 528]

admin purge when ?

[Your Stepdad 711]

The server is being destroyed, not by the player base. But the admins and staff, they think they know what we want more then us. Staff needs to learn they have a community behind them and they can’t just do stuff to benefit them. 

[Ricky 321]

There's only one person who can fi... nah the servers fucked. Capitulation into datecraft imminent.

[Britannicvs 2508]

Hopefully this inspires some kind of change, it’ll certainly affect the dev team but that’s not the team we need to shake into making some kind of meaningful edits to the crippling status quo beaucracy. It’s the admin team, but we have little power to change it and I’m sorry ds but this will achieve nothing to fix the server. I respect you for protesting like this hopefully I’m proven wrong. 

[Raomir 1855]

This server is run by some of the most pathetic human beings imaginable, bare some rare exceptions.

[TankM1A2 840]

o7 DS. Good on you for bringing this to light. And good luck in your next endeavor. It was a shame how they treated you.