There's Something You Should Know...

[KUSHerZombie 222]

*que me standing near microphone that's way to tall in one of those cafe auditorium thingys.*

 

 

 

cough cough. Well then... this is awkward.

 

 

   Hi there! waves I'm kallimar123 AKA madeline and I've been keeping something from a whole bunch of people my entire life, but first, a little 'get to know me'.

 

 

I've been on LOTC for over two years now and have enjoyed every hour of it, and I've been playing minecraft for over FIVE YEARS.

 

Let that sink in.

 

FIVE

MOTHER

*******

YEARS.

 

Now, as most of you know, I'm twelve.

 

I've been playing minecraft since I was late six or early seven years old.

holy hell I feel old.

 

Anyways, back on topic. In around 2010, I discovered something called 'Multiplayer', and this was before I knew that skype existed, and before the server list thing existed. Jesus, what hard times. Well, I lost a LOT of IP's to a LOT of different servers on multiple occasions. And with that, I lost friends.

 

But it's okay!

One day, I joined this server, which is now down, that was owned by jjd213. This was over four years ago. I met some friends on that server. Most of them I have lost throughout the years, but I still kept one. Which is pretty frickin' cool! 
 

 Basically, what I'm trying to get at, is that some of my best friends I've met over minecraft. 

 

 

  Now, back on track.

 

 

  I have met SO many different people from SO many different places, that I HAD to learn to have an open mind and to be accepting or else I'd shut myself out of SOOO many people!

*shudders at the times I use to be homophobic* ew gross

 

 

  Up until I started playing minecraft, I don't think I even knew what the term 'Gay' was. None the less, MET a gay person, or even considered myself to be gay. 

 

 At first, I was quite against the whole 'gay' thing. I didn't think it was a sin, just thought it was going to depopulate the earth. I was quite wrong lol.

 

 Eventually, my eyes began to open as I found some of my best friends on the internet who are trans*, gay, bi, pan, ace, lesbian, you ******* name it, and I've got a friend.

 

 

  Well, I'm not gay, to answer your questions. Calm yourselves.

 

But I'm not 100% straight either.

 

 

oh boy my throat just went dry im scared

 

*deep breaths*

 

I'm very much a heterosexual female(i'd like to think), but there's also a lesser-known thing called romantic orientation. Now, the majority of times, romantic orientation and sexual orientation align. 

(heterosexual, hetero-romantic; homosexual, homo-romantic; bisexual, bi-romantic) But sometimes they don't. Now, the majority of the times when they don't, the said person is Asexual. (asexual, bi-romantic; asexual, hetero-romantic; asexual, homo-romantic) 

 

You've got the gist now,

but sometimes that's not the case.

 

god help me im so scared right now

 

 

I am a heterosexual, bi-romantic cisgendered female. Which means this:

I like dudes and have a physical AND emotional attraction to them 

                                                  winkwink                                    

Now, this doesn't mean I don't find girls hot, I do, but I don't er... want the "P"..., instead, a relationship I might have with a girl would basically consist of that of an asexual relationship. (lots of cuddling, hugging, etc. etc.) 
 

Now, a lot of you don't know what cisgendered means. It means somebody who's not trans* or gender-fluid. I was born a female, mentally am a female, etc. etc.

 

Here's my story. It's not very much, and is still a work in progress. I'm very much still 'in the closet' to most IRL friends :)

One night, I was browsing YouTube, and came across this video which changed everything for me. It was called 'The ABC's of LGBT' and it consisted of a bunch of sexual/romantic orientations. And it opened my eyes. As soon as she read off the definition of bi-romantic, I knew that the definition fit perfectly to me. It was early/mid December or so of 2014, when I told my friends on skype about this.

To my (un)suprise, they all supported me. A week or two later, I told this to one of my best IRL friends via text. She supported me as well. And a few weeks after that, I made a mistake.

 

  I was in a moment of desperation, and I just wanted to tell somebody, so I took one of my "side-friends" aside and told her. She's a pretty hardcore christian, but still supported me, which I greatly appreciated. Fast forwards a few months to about two to three weeks ago.

 

 We were in class, and I forgot about my darkest secret, and was in casual conversation and was like "I basically have no secrets." But then the "side friend" that I told earlier, winked to me and said "But we don't talk about /that/ one." And a small part of me died, because my other best friend was sitting next to her, who didn't know what it was about. She began to try and pry it out of me. I didn't say ****, but then she went to my side-friend. I made sure, when I told her, not to tell anyone. And she was very loyal, as even when her best friend tried to get it out of her, she didn't do it. 

 

  Fast forwards until about a week ago, I was at my good friend who didn't know's b-day (we'll call her Jamie), and she told me that the "side friend"(Cally) was going to tell her. I pulled "Cally" aside and immediately confronted her. I told her to come up with something else because I wasn't ready for "Jamie" to find out, and I would tell her on my own time. As far as I know, "Cally" listened to me, but I'm not sure still. But at least "Jamie" is going to a different school next year. But that's unimportant. Anyways, thank you for taking the time to read this.

 

Please, I'd appreciate it if there was no trolling/hate/MENTIONING MY MOMOSKAHHING AGE/etc. on this post please.

 

3..2..1... post.

 

 

edit 1: oh god i just posted this i'm literally frozen right now.

 

edit 2: to anybody who's going to post "idgaf we didn't need to know", it's more about me getting it off of my chest to more than two people. 

[meg 1994]

 

 

 

I am a heterosexual, bi-romantic cisgendered female. Which means this:

I like dudes and have a physical AND emotional attraction to them 

Isn't that just like...the definition of heterosexual? Why are you adding all these weird unnecessary words to them?

[Ark 2835]

you're 12 you know nothing

[KUSHerZombie 222]

 

Isn't that just like...the definition of heterosexual? Why are you adding all these weird unnecessary words to them?

 

Half of it means hetero/bisexual, half of it means hetero/biromantic.

sexuality is who you want to "make babies" with,

romantic orientation is who you fall in love w/

[TavernLich 324]

You are 12?

[meg 1994]

you're 12 you know nothing

godammit...Ark...I wanted to say that...But yeah honey you're 12, you've got a long life ahead of you, don't get caught up in the tumblr nonsense. just be yourself and don't stress over the details.

[Pandasan 74]

Oh my goodness gracious! You are so adorable. I just wanna pinch 'dem little cheeks. You lil' cutie you.

[KUSHerZombie 222]

you're 12 you know nothing

znip

[ARCHITECUS 4788]

No, you're twelve.

 

Don't fall in the gender/orientation identity trap; it is worthless.

[KUSHerZombie 222]

 

Oh my goodness gracious! You are so adorable. I just wanna pinch 'dem little cheeks. You lil' cutie you.

 

i knew i had this coming the moment i put "i am twelve" in the post.

[Ark 2835]

Not really, I'm quite old to 'know'.

 

The majority of trans* people tend to know at a VERY young age (3-4),

 

the majority of gay/lesbian people tend to know when they start having crushes (7-9)

etc. etc.

best friend's little brother(sister?) is trans or whatever, didn't know until he(she?) was fourteen. Doubt anyone knows at 3-4. Like, no ones mad or anything but im p sure you'll look back at this and say: "huh, this is silly" or become a feminazi.

[Devland99 180]

Tumblr destroys lives, stay away from it.

[Mj. 697]

So...what I got from this is that you are 12 and like guys

[Lark 2227]

My friend whose 16 is just as confused. Its not that you're twelve, you're still, for lack of better wording, feeling out the enviroment. Most of us are, whether it be sexual, philisopical, existential, etc. Got plenty of time, live on.

[AGP 3169]

Nice meme.