rukio

I tried it once before but I didn't get too far
I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart
And all I really wanted was for him to come back
But I waited there forever and he even looked up
I tried it once before and I think I might have messed up
I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough
But maybe I'm alive because I didn't really wanna die
All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
I died to be the white ghost
Of the mess that I was meant to be
I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut
I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough
And I should have told my mother 'mom, I hate you' I'm a bad son
And this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one
I tried it once again and I think I might black out
I should have left a letter but I had nothing to write about
My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up
The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked
This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one

 I miss you

Baby close your eyes

Lets meet in our dreams tonight

I would be crying tears of laughter
If I could see you again
If I could see me smile again
I still believe my eyes, but all I see is my blindness
I still reach for the stars, but all I touch is our parting
I still believe my ears, but all I hear is lasting silence
Like a disciple of a witness
I judge upon my sacred eye
Still I found the origin
In what's left of me inside
Can I call this my burden
Or is this just my dream to fly?
And is my life as bare as it is?
Cold and lonely enough?
Have you achieved what you were longing for?
Sad enough this cannot be undone
I drop my eyes and shiver as I see
The reflection in the mirror of me
Have you given up, my friend?
Forgiveness be mine
Have you given up, my friend?
The reflection in the mirror of me
Can I call this my burden
I would be crying tears of laughter
If I could hear you speak again

This silence keeps it easy 

As you're walking away 

Your footsteps get louder

All you needed was time

But now time will destroy me

It will all be over and here I am

Stuck inside this salted earth forever

You pierced my lungs

My limbs went numb as my colors fade out

You watched me bleed

You watched me bleed

I gave you everything to die with a smile

All you wanted was to live for a while

You took everything and it left me empty

I can't replace you, I can't

It will all be over and here I am

God, please don't hate me.

Because I'll die if you do.

Lets do it
Lets get it
I drink bleach
I cut my wrist
I'm hardcore
**** what you all say
This **** is not a phase
I take a pic post that **** to Myspace
Emo kid
I cant see
Emo Kid
sippin’ on bleach
emo kid
Go online tell people I want to kill myself
tell them to go **** themselves when they offer to help
Cause everything I say is for sympathy and attention
I have way too many cuts and scars to mention
yeah yeah
**** my mom and dad
I drink bleach
I cut my wrists
This **** is not a phase
Emo kid
Follow my dreams

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I'll meet you at the divide
To break the spell
A point where two worlds collide
If I get high enough
Will I see you again?
Until we break through
If I get high enough
If I get high enough
Will I see you again?
Will I see you again?
If I get high
If I get high
If I get high

Staring out to the cage-like walls
Time goes by and the shadows crawl
World's out there singin' the blues
Twenty more dead on the evening news
Think to myself "really, what's the use?"
I'm just like you, I was born to lose
Why oh why can't you just fix me?
When all I want's to feel numb
But the medication's all done
Why oh why does God hate me?
When all I want's to get high
And forget this so-called life
Can't wait to feel better than I ever will
Hate myself, if I can go for miles

The harbingers of war with their nature revealed
If I can let the memory heal
I will remember you with me on that field
You gave me a reason to try
Turn the page I need to see something new
Like rabid dogs of war

With no-one wearing their real face
It's a whiteout of emotion
And I've only got my brittle bones to break the fall
When the love in letters fade
And we're already too late if we arrive at all
And then we're caught up in the arms race
An involuntary addiction
And we're shedding every value our mothers taught
So will you please show me your real face
'Cause I only need your name to call the reasons why I fought
We were one with our destinies entwined
When I thought that I fought without a cause
You gave me the reason why

Now I've got you alone
And I'm watching you quiver
So much blood on these sheets
And you're begging me please
Shame on me
I never knew
That I was a killer
And now I've lost control
Please forgive the life I've had
And find me love in Hell
I want to mangle your heart
Finest blade from the kitchen
Razor sharp
Cut you real deep
Just like you did me
Please forgive the life I've had
And find me love in Hell
Where no one knows me
Or what I've done
When the damage done
I'll stay close to your body
Safe and sound
Holding a gun
And playing with the trigger
All alone

So send me off to hell, I prefer the warm weather
No I wouldn’t have it any other way
And I won’t look back
Cause I feel so alive
Where others would feel so dead
So you can nail me up, you can crucify me Dean
Good or bad, at least I pushed the limits
At least you can say I lived it
I was never the one to hold my breath
Never the one to bite my tongue
And after all of the critics I’ll be the bad guy
I’ll take the burden for the person you’ve become
Probably why I drink like a fish
Tryin to drown all my problems but they learn to swim
All this hate but somehow I love it
****, you could probably tell by the sound of it
Looking back now man I’m pretty proud of it
There’s a hole in my chest where my heart once was
Now it’s vacant I need a replacement
I’m surrounded by some who are just as heartless
But I’m numb to ‘em all see I’ve grown complacent
It’s hard to stay real you sure were fake ****
And I won’t look back

The look in your eyes tells me there is something wrong
Can you hear my voice
I would sell my soul for you to pull through
All the memories that are haunting me
I refuse to let you go
I've been dancing with your ghost
Please just move
Can anyone hear me - let me through
I can see your face
Calling your name
Reaching out
I can't feel anything
Forever in love, too
I'm always yours
I've been dancing with your ghost
Some might say that you have stole my soul
I refuse to let you go
I've been dancing with your ghost
I have been waiting
I have been waiting
All the memories
there are haunting me
I refuse to let you go
I've been dancing with your ghost

@Telanir You say we goin’ back to our roots but buddy I don’t see the new map being anthos. OwO whats this?

I can feel you fade away
Your steps keep me awake
Don't cut me down, throw me out, leave me here to waste
I once was someone with dignity and grace
Could you find a way to let me down slowly?
A little sympathy, I hope you can show me
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
Cold skin, drag my feet on the tile
As I'm walking down the corridor
And I know we haven't talked in a while
So I'm looking for an open door
Don't cut me down, throw me out, leave me here to waste
Now I'm slipping through the cracks of your cold embrace
So please, please
Could you find a way to let me down slowly?
A little sympathy, I hope you can show me
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
Let me down
And I can't stop myself from falling down
Could you find a way to let me down slowly?
A little sympathy, I hope you can show me
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby let me down slowly
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby, let me down slowly

I’m not even a mod and even I know that they need to be able to have a conversation on the player report before you close it . . . it was literally posted 23 hours ago. . .

Sorry that I did this
The blood is on my hands
I stare at my reflection
I don't know who I am
I did it all for him
So I felt nothing at all
I don't know what he'd say
Would you love me more
If I left someone for you?
Would you hold my hand?
When I left someone for you
I tell him that it's me
But he doesn't recognize
Could you please let me inside?
Just let me explain
No I wouldn't tell you lies
You have to understand that
The one I killed is me
Changing what I was
For what you wanted me to be
I followed your direction
Did everything you asked
I hope that makes you happy
'Cause there's just no turning back
Would you love me more
If I killed someone for you?
'Cause I killed someone for you, yeah

He's in my head again
I'm going down that road again
Mmm
He's in my bed again
In my skin
It burns like heroin
And I can't let him go
And my bones are caving in
He's in my veins again
He burns like heroin
He stole my faith again

Happy birthday

Why hate on bandits when very few people try to make it an enjoyable experience for both sides? Especially road side bandits. Why do people who are doing villainy get punished if they give bad roleplay but the people they’re attacking, to my knowledge, don’t get slapped for poor quality roleplay? Would love to hear opinions on this from both sides. . .

You say we’re friends, I don’t think so