Just like tha’, eh? Eirik thought to himself as he stared forward at the decrepit deceased that laid in the bed. The corpse of the cancer-stricken man that had slowly withered away to the tumours within. Idly, he waved a servant to deliver him a glass of water, which he slowly sipped by the bedside. He moved to a chair, and as the rest of his family came and went, he remained seated by the corpse of his father. In truth, he expected something. He expected Ruslan to give a rumble, to awaken suddenly from his state. But day turned to night, and night turned to day, and nothing happened. Yer really dead, an’ it feels like nothin’s changed.
It was true, Eirik did not receive the closure he wanted from his father. The two had grown up much apart, they had rarely spoken to each other, despite Eirik’s persistence to try and make a companion out of his father. That, coupled with other things that had struck his mind when he were younger, had thrust the boy into a seven-year reclusion. It had been a few years since he had recovered from it, and perhaps one might have thought that such a pivotal event in one’s life as the death of a father could thrust one right back into it. The news of his cancer had almost done it to him, but not out of fear of losing his father. It was the possibility of never being able to hear an “Ah’m proud o’ ye, Eirik.” or an “Ah love ye, Eirik.” that he had feared back then. Yet, here he sat, by the side of his father’s corpse, never having heard any of those things from him.
Now, he remembered those seven years much too vividly. Seven years he had promised himself that he would forget about, seven years that he had abandoned long in the past. A mind ablaze and burning with despair and doubt, misery and anxiety. Only just had she managed to give him the determination to pull himself out of the hole, to regain his footing in the world. And yet, now it was as if the floor shattered beneath him.
He rose, and stared down at the limp body. There was no one left in the room, and tears of rage began to fall from his eyes. Furiously, he began to rustle his father’s corpse, begging and screaming for a response, for an affirmation of pride or love, for anything that would confirm that they truly were father and son, for closure.
But nothing happened.